*slight lemonness* XD



Chapter 9: Intensity

Tohru couldn't believe it. Now she was alone with Kyo...and all night! She couldn't explain it, but she had a weird feeling about what was to come of that night.

"What's wrong?"

"Huh?"

"You look..I don't...sacred?"

"What?! No no no! I'm fine!" she waved her hands around in front of her raidly.

"Really......." Kyo turned around facing her and placed a hand on top of hers. He felt her twitch and pulled his hand back. "Yeah, you're alright..." He got up off of the bed and started acroos the room for the door. Tears started to well up in her eyes.

"Kyo, don't..."

"Don't my ass! What is wrong with you? Nevermind I know what's wrong with you! You're afraid to be alone with me, you think i'm going to do something to you!" Tohru's eyes opened widely. He said everything that she was feeling and he knew it. "See...i'm not that stupid..."

"Please...let me expalin..."

"No..."

"Please!" Kyo was somewhat shocked. He had never heard Tohru actually yell at him or, ever use that tone of voice. But something had told him to stay and lsiten to what she had to say. He nodded and walked back over to the bed sitting down. She sighed and said "That may be true...about what you just said...but, it's just kind of hard for me. I mean i've never been in this kind of perdicament before, and i'm adjusting to it. It's jusy kind of hard...being here...with you...I mean...you know..."

"Yeah...I, guess I kind of do," he said sighing and scratching at the back of his head.

"I know you won't do anything to me, or ever will. Unless...I...told...you to..." her voice trailed away and she was blushing furiously. Kyo stared at her suprised and with wide eyes. He stretched out an arm and put it around her, bringing her to him. She gasped, but calmly let some of the tears fall down her face. He put both hands on her face, wiping the tears away with his thumbs, and stared deep into her eyes.

"I wouldn't never do anything without your permission, never anything to hurt you.......except for one thing..." She stared at him, but she knew what he meant.

Their lips parted, both breathing deeply. Tears still found way to her eyes and he kissed them away, which made her cry even more.

"Tohru..." She shook her head and lie down on the bed, pulling him towards her. She kissed him again, but he remain motionless, not even returning her kiss.

"No..." she said chocking back the tears. "This time...ok......it's......o...k..." He looked at her uncertain. "Unless.......I...." He kissed her softly, warm hands wrapping around his neck, clutching at his shirt collar. He didn't do anything, even with the tugs at his shirt. 'Unless...I..told...you to...' rang through his mind. He willingly let her pull the soft fabric covering his muscled chest off. She smiled and nodded. Her hands moving slowly across his pectoral muscles and back up to his neck. He inhaled deeply, kissing her more. 'How far...' he thought 'how far do we go....what is us...where are you taking me...' He felt as if he could tell what she was telling him, like he understood her. In his mind, the answers unfolded out one by one. 'Further...take me further...just a bit at a time...you'll understand...take me there...' He hesitated, but he felt as if she would except it. He slowly moved his way from her lips to the side of her face. Content. He moved down to her neck bit by bit. A slight twitch came from her and he stopped, going back to her mouth. She muffled out a slight no, leading his head back down to her neck, with the laced fingers through his hair. 'It's ok...it's nothing...you'll know...when it's too much...' It was if they were one, her every thought was his own. He accepted kissing her neck softly, moving down to her collar bone. 'I'll try...I won't hurt you...trust me...' He removed the hands from his neck sliding his fingers through hers, arm on top of arm. He lie them above her head on the bed. The twitch was felt once again, he was about to let go, but her grip tightened as if saying 'Don't let go...just hold my hands...'

Kyo faught everything inside himself, he wasn't going to let go. He wouldn't hurt her. One of her hands was left free, the one containing it, found it's way sliding down her arm and down, being placed on the bed. It crept inch my inch to her side, the finger tips gaining access to under the attached white fabric still covering her. Very slowly had it gone further and further, sliding up higher, till the fingertips were right below her breast line. But they never went any higher, contained to that spot until she willed him. He never connected to her, he didn't dare go any further, sliding his hand out. Back to her lips, he felt her smile. 'Thank you...' he could hear her say. 'It's ok...not today...we've gone far enough...let me go...' He broke their kiss gently, looking down at her face, eyes teared up, smiling.





Ambivalent Love Chapter 1
Ambivalent Love Chapter 2
Ambivalent Love Chapter 3
Ambivalent Love Chapter 4
Ambivalent Love Chapter 5
Ambivalent Love Chapter 6
Ambivalent Love Chapter 7
Ambivalent Love Chapter 8