Chapter 3: Understanding

Tohru slipped out of Kyo's room and closed the door behind her to find Yuki walking around the corner of the hallway.

"Tohru! What happened? I just saw Kyo run out his room...what did he do to you!"

"Nothing, it wasn't like that..." Yuki grabbed Tohru to him, hugging her tightly. "Yuki...your...squishing me..." Yuki payed no attention to the girl. "Yuki..."

"Tohru..." he whispered to her. "Do you know...how it feels to be able to touch you...to be able to hold you?" She shuttered.

"Yuki...this is very uncomfortable..."

"Hey...Tohru i'm sorry I was out of...hand..." Kyo turned around the corner looking for Tohru to apologize. When he came around the corner seeing Tohru being embraced by Yuki again he just lost it. "You damned rat! I am so fricken tired of you! Can't you ever let me have anything!"

"Kyo, what the hell are you talking about!"

"You sure know what the hell i'm talking about!" He quickly turned around and they heard the Japanese styl sliding door leading to outside slam shut.

"Don't worry about him...he's in another one of his moods," he said rolling his eyes.

"Yuki! How could you say that? He's very upset!" Tohru pushed Yuki away again running after Kyo.

'Damnit...she's still hooked on him...but at least it's getting on his nerves...I will have her...' he thought grinning.

Tohru ran outside looking left and right for Kyo.

"Where could he be!" She stood and thought for a second. "That's it!" She ran to one of the paths that led to the main road. Once she was there she ran down a few blocks then when she got to the bridge she went around in down the hill. 'I was right.' She thought when she got to the bottom. Kyo was sitting under the bridge skipping stones in the shallow stream. This was his "secret spot" which he came to quite often and as far as she knew, she was the only one who knew about it. That made her feel somewhat closer to Kyo knowing that. He wasn't doing a very good job of skipping stones, which seemed to frusterate him even more and he sighed deepkly putting his head into his knees, with his arms wrapped around his legs. "Kyo?" she said softly walking over to him. He jerked his head up, startled by hervoice.

"What do you want?" he said rather rufly.

"Are you ok?" She asked.

"What makes you say that? Everything is peachy keen." She sighed and sat next to him and rested her head on his shoulder. He quckly reacted by shifting away from her. "Just what are you doing!" Tohru gasped then turned away from him.

"Sorry...I was only trying to..."

"To make me feel better?" he said finishing her sentence. She nodded slightly and he couldn't stand it anymore. "Do you honestly know how it feels! Don't you even understand!" Tohru became teary eyed.

"I'm sorry," she muttered.

"Look i'm sorry...don't cry...please..." he sighed sitting down her to her and like always ended up holding her till the tears went away. "It's just..." For once Tohru butted in.

"Kyo, i'm sorry for whatever I did to make you feel the way you have been lately. Kyo you are so dear to me and it hurts me to see you act this way. I just wish I could know what I did..."

"No! It isn't you...it's..." he sighed and let her go, going back to the position she had found him in. "...It's me..."he said in a whispered voice.

"Well Kyo if you could just tell me what was wrong..."

"Don't worry...i'll be fine!" he said trying to be cheerful, turning around and smiling at her.

"But Kyo..."

"It's ok Tohru, i'll be fine really..." He smiled again and held his hand out to her. "C'mon let's go someplace." She smiled back and took his hand, but when she got up, the ever so clumsy Tohru as always we know, but still love the ditsy Tohru :D tripped, knockin Kyo down and falling on top of him. He landed with a big thud. "Ow!" he yelled.

"Oh...my...God! I'm so sorry Kyo! Are you ok!" She looked down at him, even forgetting she was still on top of him. When Kyo finally came around to normal he felt his heart beat pound in his chest. His face turned bright red and his eyes widened. "Kyo!"

"Yeah...i'm...ok..." he said looking at the girl still on top of him. "Don't worry about it..." Tohru sighed in relief closong her eyes. 'My God!' he thought. 'I'm going to explode!' Tohru could practically hear his heart thudding in his chest.

"Kyo..." she placed a hand on his chest and felt he beat of his heart. "Your heart..." She looked at him.

"W...what about it?..."

"Why is it...beating so...so fast?" She could begin to feel her heart beat faster as well.

"I...don't know..." he said breathing in a breath of air deeply. His breathing quickened, he could just feel the blood racing through his veins.

"Kyo...I...I..." Tohru felt something she had never felt before, but it made her feel somehoe...good. Kyo lefted his hand up to her face, brushing strands of long brown hair out of her face.

"Now...I can see you better..." he said, his face as red as it could get. Tohru's eyes widened a bit, but then she smiled warmly. Kyo smiled back to her, his fingers were laced through her hair.

"Kyo..."

"What?"

"I think I know what's wrong with you..."

"What?"

"What are..." she sighed a bit and looked down. "How do you feela bout me?" Kyo choked on a breath of air he had just taken.

"I...I...well..." Tohru smiled.

"I understand," she said kindly

"You...you do?" She nodded and placed a hand on his face gently. He placed his on on top of hers and wrapped his other hand arou waist.

"Kyo...I...I..." She breathed deeply, closed her eyes, and bent down slowly.

'She isn't...she wouldn't!' Kyo felt Tohru's warm, velvet lips press gently against his own. His eyes huge like two full moons, but soon enough he relaxed and closed his eyes. He slid his hands to the sides of her face. Her hands were prssed to his chest. They unhurriedly parted the kiss and breathed a few breaths before opening slowly opening their eyes. Kyo felt Tohru's chest push into his as she took a deep breath. He watched as she sucked in her lips then pushed them back out. Those lips were what had just kissd him. He couldn't believe it. "Tohru..." He could she tears start gently flow from her eyes and he wiped them away with his thumb. "Don't cry..."

"No Kyo...i'm not sad sad..."

"You arn't?" she nodded no then smiled. "Tohru I..."

"I love you Kyo..." She closed her eyes and looked down, still crying. Kyo couldn't believe what he had jusy heard, but then smiled and felt warm tears start in his eyes. He picked up her face. "Kyo..." she smiled. "I tought you didn't cry," she said laughing slightly.

"I don't..." he whispered. "I...I...don't..." Tears flowed down his face. She smiled at him.

"It's ok Kyo...just cry." He nodded and kissed deeply. They could both both taste the salty tear on their lips, but they didn't so much as care.








Ambivalent Love Chapter 1

Ambivalent Love Chapter 2

Ambivalent Love Chapter 4

Ambivalent Love Chapter 5

Ambivalent Love Chapter 6

Ambivalent Love Chapter 7