It's not like I asked for this! I didn't do anything to deserve what I got.... And I suffer... yet none the less, you don't see me! Why do you close your mind to all I have tried to teach you! Will you only notice me if I am martyred? If I die, will my story finally have meaning? Or will it only have purpose if I survive this? 6 months is a long time to heal, but 9 months isn't a long time to live.... and yet here I am, waisting time trying to get you to understand why I fell in love with you... Yet the most meaningful question you have ever asked me is how and why I stay strong.... I tried to explain it to you the best I could.... Did I fail? Will I fail in the end? How will the world remember me? How will you remember me? What if I don't want to be remembered? As long as the Lord remembers me.....

Take it.... its yours....

Why does it feel as if my whole life is as insignificant as the song in my heart?!! Can I make it so that I never hurt again...? I can fake my way through life, but can I fake through my emotions? I can fool my mind, but can i fool my heart? They say your eyes are the window to your soul...Can people see how hungry I am for answers? Or do I disguise my soul when I disguise my voice? Are they even really paying attention?

As my song goes...

"Is it because I hold my pain inside?
Don't want to show what's behind my eyes.
A happy facade, a gentle touch,
To hide the fact that I hurt so much."

I need guidance.... Is there anyone who can help me?

"Lead me, save me from my solitude".....