your garden

well now the rain washed back yesterday
bringing thoughts of wasted time,
and the water it brought
flowed swiftly through your mind.

opening your eyes to the stars just to pray
hoping more rain will wash your garden away.

but your flowers just bloom, ever bright ever proud
screaming: I HATE YOU so loud.
sister tell me will you ever bow
to what grows in your garden now.

yes the weeds of consequence get more day by day
of decisions you have better made.
paper flowers sparkle by an old tree butt
just remember even paper flowers cut.

your garden shakes with the wind but it will not fall down.
scattering seeds all around.
sister tell me will you ever bow
to what grows in your garden now.

somewhere on the landscape lies a place next to your heart.
but the grass grows wide and even and soon that too will be torn apart.
over bounds sprinkling seeds to the ground.
scattering them alll around.

---

Shivers

You hide inside my pillow when I try to get some sleep.
Let's drive into this river before it gets to deep.
I dream of holding you tight when things are not all right.
I try to put you within myself when I think about my life.

I feel your soul inside me enticing me all through the night.
I think I lost my sex control, I hope I'll be all right.
Will you bring me closer, wanna go dancin' in your mind.
I will crawl inside your bone and keep what I can find.

I love the way, the way you make me feel
I love the way, to know that it's so real.

---

Enemy

There's a shadow standing right in front of me.
I want to save myself from this insanity.
I'll try to scream while everyone is talking.
They're talkin' about how to save themselves from drowning.

Start walking away now right before you fall.
I want to give you what you gave, and I will take control.
And try to see how much fear I got within me.
I'm trying to be a man with a different story.

---

Mother

I rise and fall through everyday to know that you're never here with me.
I look above and scream it out that I'm your son longing for you.

Come cover me 'cause I can't see
What it is I want myself to be
I burn my eyes with all these lies.
I'm suffering right here in my mind

I want to taste my life with you.
I would give up everything if I could.
I would. if I could
And now you break me.

I search your soul behind this wall
'til I can see my life inside out.
Would you be proud of what I am,
and everything that I do for you

I lost my way in everyday.
I want to see if everything is real
Is it real?
But now you break me

---

Numb

I tried to lose myself today
and hope this pain will go away.
A thousand days I tried to waste
I feel the same but you're still okay.

I tried to crawl inside of you
and make you feel those things you do.
I turn away to watch you drown.
I'm still right here tryin' to hear the sound.

I feel you, you don't feel me.
I see you, you don't see me.

Talk! Duck as we stand back to back.
I see you disappear in eyes. it fades to black.
I wanna let it out when I'm back on the track.
Causing you to move bringing you a heart attack .


And I feel the pain like a needle in my vein now.
Hurt myself coz you think I didn't know how...
to cut myself and watch me bleed.
I turn around as I watch you leave.

Don't take away your eyes
because I know you're beside me but I just can't hold and see.
I wish I'm numb inside
because I don't want this feeling, this feeling that I can't hide .

---

Alone

crippled now my hands
as my days fade away.
once i lived a colored life
it quickly turned to grey.

spinning round and around
as my hands leave my side.
i know that i've got a choice
though it's dampened by my pride.

---

Darkness Fell

....and so he woke up from a dream
that was beautiful, and starry and, so wild
it was all still clear in her eyes.
and though her mind was foggy and blank
he wondered:
why his life couldn't be as lovely it was time

there was this king he had no castle or throne
but his horse was great and wild.
he rode alone and liked it that way
but when he met her he swore:
he would never leave her side.

they rode across the land,
two lovers hand in hand,
and no danger would come near.
and when something made her cry
she'd look at him teary eyed.
and he would make her feel better.

and now this forest was his home
it was a night time and the right time for love in the dark.
she placed her hand upon her chest
and all the rest just flowed
makin' love down under an ancient far away night.

it was so grand just holding someone's hand
and now safety came naturally.
it was so clear that she would never have to fear.

"oh tell me a story of magic,
and spiralling ships, and the stars in the night.
just whisper in my ears make it soft make it clear
i want to hear every breath you say"

but he woke up from the land
tears falling in his hands
as he looked up asking: "WHY?!"

he laid back in his bed
thoughts rising in his head.
"why can't my life be beautiful?", he said

as he closed his eyes again.
just praying she'd return
but only darkness fell upon him.
.....

---

my queen

your eyes are brown
shining like stars at night.
when you smile, i melts.
your lips are rosy red.

when you look at me,
i'm hynotyzed.
staring at your brown colored eyes.
you're so far. i miss you.

and when you're upset.
please don't cry 'cause i'm hurt.
i'm always here for you.
you gave my life
a reason to live in.
a love to believe in.
a life for us to share.

---

reach out

what must i do so i can make you see,
you mean everything to me.
i don't have the words to say.
give this heart of mine a chance.
and maybe then you will see.

what must i do
so you can understand
you are the light in my eyes.
you brigthen up my day
you even help me find my way.
i wish i'll be there by your side.

i can not stop.
i don't know how to stop
thinking of you.
i'll be there.
i'll always be there
when you need me.

i'm reaching out to you.
do you feel it too?
lovin' you
is all i wanna do.

i'm completely sure
i've never felt this way before.
deep inside you'll know
that there is something more.

---

true epitome of oblivion

saw a picture of you
midnight ashes turned to blue
i never thought that you knew
well I don't know....

someday we'll share this cigarette
you and me like we used to
outside the dark parking lot
where you told me life happens

once you close your eyes

you had to go soon
the roses didn't reach full bloom
well I never thought that you knew
well I don't know

where you told me that life is just not fair at all

---

brighter day

i hear your footsteps, i'm slowly awakened
from deep golden slumber, light
bursting with color, seasons of life
widened horizons, shines......

...your love...

opened my eyes to a world of wonder
it was a sweet surprise
you've painted my skies with pure intentions
nothing was gray, just white...


time will tell
and they will see
you and me
will be free

building a brighter day...

blissful thinkin' of days to come
all of my worries aside
walk a while with me, hand in hand
let all my troubles slide...

....with your love...

---

---

without you

turning slowly and spinning around
got me open to a high new sound.
into my realm fill my sorrow,
if you are real, then i'll follow

i can never be without you
i will hold to and never doubt you
come much closer so i can feel you,
thats all im asking, now that i've found you.

you think you understand, if i lose my mind
i was thinking there'll be a time sometimes
if you walk away, got a lot to say,
oh how much it kills me, everything.

i'm nearing our space, wasting our time.
kindly solice, to free up my mind.
give inside you, with good intention
all i need now is your obsession.

heal my wound,
so wild the emotions
from in deep inside my soul.
no time to walk away
no reason for me to stay.
up this place of woe.

and heal my wounds,
so wild the emotions
from in deep inside my soul.
no time to walk away
no reason for me to stay.
Up this place and let me go.

you think you understand, If i lose my mind
i was thinking there'll be a time sometime
if you walk away, got a lot to say,
oh how much it kills me, everything.

Everything...
Everthing...
Everthing...

---

take me to your lair and lead me to sleep.
lay upon your arms, head to  my dream so sweet.
as i know you are there beside
me from my slumber that is so deep.
you are my bliss that i always wanted to keep.
-for HB

pumpkin poems 2
donated to Elfpack Poetry
honey bunny's poems