Who do you think i really am?
I cant seem to follow what YOU see.
You look at me differently
Opposed to how you speak.
I waited for the longest time,
Hoping he would come back to me.
A joke,
He thinks it is.
Funny,
Im not laughing.
I've lost my sympathy and trust.
You've finally been forgotten.
All you are is a memory in the book of my life.
I am how i am.
Im not changing for you!
I do as i want,
To make me satisfied.
You have no right.
Out of anyone else mouth i would have expected.
But you chose to speak out.
Your true colors have showed me the black ice,
Buried deep in your chest.
I did nothing to deserve it.
I was the best thing you ever had.
No matter what you may think.
I know i am.
I was nothing another woman will ever be.
Your loss, my gain.
I gained the discomfort of your words,
The loss of respect for your "love"
The beginning of a new life,
And the reason to move on without you.
I know who the old boy was.
But,
Not who he has come to be.
Why cant it be the man,
I once thought would come back to me?
At least a friend...To say the least.
But those words that flowed past your lips,
The ones that stung the most.
The words that have been scarred on my heart and my mind,
I could never forgive.
So my last words can only mean so much...
Im sorry...
For not being what you desire.
Im sorry...
For loving you as i did.
Im sorry...
For wanting you.
Im sorry...
For being that person who wanted to make you happy.
Im sorry...
For the way you treated me and the way it came back.
Im sorry...
I wont take anything from you, back.
It's too late to apologize.
You can never recover that.
What you did was not deserved,
Especially, with the life i live.
I only loved you.
Now why should i forgive?
This isnt the first time ive been your doormat.
Probably wouldnt have been the last.
If you hadnt said what you did.
Id probably would have crashed.
So in a sick way thank you.
It's great to have passed.
Now if you can,
Tell me who you really see when you look at me.
If no more than just "that."
Why was i dragged so far,
Into this love of lies and deciete.
Ill tell you one thing,
Your words are CRAP.
Its your time to leave me be.
Im done with this pain and defeat.
And one last say,
Im big,
But only full of love.
What more could i have played in this game of the heart?
Who do you think i really am?
Ill never follow what you see.
In the end.
Everyone that matters and I,
Can only see the true ME.
Stumble!