Chapter 4: Departed

When I had woken up not long after, I found Demetrious sitting by the fire with his usual blank stare. I yawned and stretched out.
"What's wrong?" I asked him.
"Nothing really," he said not moving his gaze from the fire.
"You sure?" He only nodded once. "Well, if your sure." I walked around the cave for a while, there wasn’t anything better to do.
"Why do you keep pacing? It's getting kind of annoying."
"Oh...sorry." 'What's his problem?' I thought. 'Male pms...' I walked over and sat next to him, resting my head on his shoulder. I could feel him move a bit, giving me the hint that he didn’t want me near him. I sighed and got up walking quite a ways away from him. We sat in silence for the longest time until he finally spoke.
"I've been giving it a lot of thought."
"Been giving what a lot of thought?"
"The fact that I think we need some time alone from each other for awhile."
"What! Why!"
"Because," he sighed. "This relationship isn't going anywhere. Take no offense but your kind of clingy, it makes me feel chained down. That's one thing that I can't stand. I like to be a free and independent person. That's the reason why I ran away with you." I couldn't believe what he was saying to me. All this time I had no idea, but when I did, I felt like he had been ripped out my heart and had left me to choke to death on my own blood.
“I’m so stupid…” I began to choke back tears.
“What?”
“I’m so fuckin stupid!”
“No your not.”
“Yes I am! I mean I thought I loved you enough to understand you. I thought that everything was going perfectly fine and nothing could go wrong!”
“It takes time. We’ll get there eventually.”
“But not soon enough! I need to understand how your mind works. I need to know everything about you…I want to know…so I can understand you and get away from being this…this…redundant person.” His face was so dull and he had a regretful look.
“Your not unwanted…your not useless. If anything you’re the most important person to me and understands me the most.” He stared profoundly at me. “If you want to understand me better, then the first thing to know is that sometimes I need to be by myself. It helps to clear my mind and invigorate me.”
“Was that why you were gone the other day?”
“Yes! It’s not that I don’t want to be with you, it’s just that I need time to think things over and learn ways to make us more.” I stared at him. Just from what he had told me, a whole new side of him had opened up to me. I smiled faintly at him.
“I’ll wait.” He looked at me a bit comforted. “I’ll wait…because…I love you.” He seemed a bit shocked though I couldn’t figure out why.
“And I love you too.” I smiled. It took a moment but I had realized that was our first time actually saying that we loved each other. “Now, I’m not going to be away long, just for a bit to clear up some things, ok?” I smiled at him.
“Okay, I’ll do the same as well.”
“Right,” he said smiling. He gave me a quick kiss and left.
I lied underneath the stars that night, just staring up at them. I took a deep breath and sighed.
“If only I knew what to do to make things better between us…” I sat and thought for the longest time, thinking of all the possibilities. My eyes drifted shut and somehow I drifted off to sleep. When I woke up sometime later, I found myself underneath a warm blanket by the fire. A arm was wrapped tight around me and I could feel a body pressed against my back. I looked over my shoulder and saw Demetrious. I smiled at the thought of him being back. I shifted around wrapping my arms around his neck. He must have been awake, because he then wrapped his arms around me and pulled me close to him. I smiled.
“I gave it a lot of thought,” I heard him mumble into my hair.
“Really?”
“Yea.”
“And?”
“If we still stay like this I’ll still be happy. I realized I love your clinginess.” I laughed a bit.
“Good.” He pulled his head away a gave me a kiss. A smile formed across my lips. He stopped and ran his fingers through my hair and just stared at me smiling. I gave him a few quick kisses back, making him grin.
“Now, now,” he said. I kissed him again, letting him now I wasn’t finished just yet. “Tomorrow,” he said poking me lightly at the end of my nose.
“Fine. This isn’t the end.”
“Not by far…” he said smiling and pulling me close to him again.




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