My honored brethen...
We come together...
To unite as one...
Against those that are damned.
We show no mercy...
For we have none...
Our enemies shall fall...
As we uprise...
To claim our fate.
Now and forever...
We'll be together.
Love and hate.


I have had GAD (generalized anxiey disorder) for about two months now and i always was depressed and upset and would always have panic attacks. It took over my life. I'm not going to let it anymore. I am going to stand up and say enough. It is time that i make a change. I need to look at life from a different point of view. Living with this disease is not easy at all. But no one was here for me when i needed help. I felt alone and I felt like life was not worth living. I realize how many health problems i have. GAD, acidreflex, and sleep apnia. That is just a hard part of life and I am going to have these for the rest of my life so i realize i need to just live with it and make the best of it. I am not going to let it take me over anymore. I am tired of not feeling like i have control anymore. I am taking a stand today. I feel for anyone that has GAD. I know what you guys are going through. (i posted this a while ago, and yet it still helps me stay strong when i read it.so i'm going to keep it up)

As I walk through life I have always waited for one thing or another. Sometimes it is filled with excitment and anticipation. Sometimes it is filled with fear and dread. Sometimes it is just a patient wait. If you are in the position that you have to wait, think of what it is you are waiting on. Will it be good or bad.

If it is good, then enjoy the mooment, when the wait is over you will be rewarded with the good thing.

If it is bad, then think of what makes it bad. Was it something that you should calim as your fault? Was it something you had no control over? Will it effect you forever? Will it only effect the near future and then be over? How can you change the outcome to be in your favor without laying blame on something else?

Patience and Understanding is what we all need to work through anything. Waiting for things we want can be trying. Love is one of the hardest things to wait for. To know that someone loves you, but can't be with you is very difficult. You wonder what will happen. Sometimes you think the worst and hope for the best.
I have always prepared for the worst, for I have known too much strife. Some would say that it is a bit harsh to think this way, life has lead me to this way of reasoning. If you learn the patience earlier in life than I did, maybe you will be better prepared for what comes your way.

State of Shock
"Money Honey"

As I'm staring through this fire---------------
It's too late to make you mine
So far from where we started       my favorite verse idk why
So far from what we wanted        lol probly the way he
And as both our worlds fall down      sings it
We have lost and we have found
So far from where we started
So far from what we wanted---------------------

I've made mistakes, that I can’t erase
I’ve made mistakes

If I had more money honey
Would you love me, love me, love me
If I wasn’t just somebody like me, like me
I’ve made mistakes that I can't erase, I’ve made mistakes

Oh I should have seen the signs
Now we're falling back in time
So far from where we started
So far from what we wanted
And I’m trying to right this wrong
So I need you to be strong
So far from where we started
So far from what we wanted

I've made mistakes, that I can’t erase
I’ve made mistakes

If I had more money honey
Would you love me, love me, love me
If I wasn’t just somebody like me, like me
I’ve made mistakes that I can't erase, I’ve made mistakes

Ya ya yo,, ya ya yo
I know you know
So let it go
ya ya yo, ya ya yo
I know you,,,
Ive made mistakes
that I can't erase
Ive made mistakes

If I had more money honey
Would you love me, love me, love me
If I wasn’t just somebody like me, like me
I’ve made mistakes that I can't erase, I’ve made mistakes





"Seize The Day"

Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over

I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to worry
These streets we travel on will undergo our same lost past

I found you here, now please just stay for a while
I can move on with you around
I hand you my mortal life, but will it be forever?
I'd do anything for a smile, holding you 'til our time is done
We both know the day will come, but I don't want to leave you

I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to worry (a melody, a memory, or just one picture)

Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over

Newborn life replacing all of us, changing this fable we live in
No longer needed here so where do we go?
Will you take a journey tonight, follow me past the walls of death?
But girl, what if there is no eternal life?

I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to worry (a melody, a memory, or just one picture)

Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over

Trials in life, questions of us existing here, don't wanna die alone without you here
Please tell me what we have is real

So, what if I never hold you, yeah, or kiss your lips again?
Woooaaah, so I never want to leave you and the memories of us to see
I beg don't leave me

Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over

Trials in life, questions of us existing here, don't wanna die alone without you here
Please tell me what we have is real

Silence you lost me, no chance for one more day [x2 then continues in the background]
I stand here alone
Falling away from you, no chance to get back home
I stand here alone
Falling away from you, no chance to get back home