hiyas everyone!


Tell me what ya think of this i wrote it myself :-

Darkness at the break of noon
Shadows even the silver spoon
While preachers preach of evil fates
Teachers teach that knowledge waits

While one who sings with his tongue on fire
Gargles in the rat race choir
Is it all wrong? Is it all right?
Is it all black? Is it all white?
Should i turn left? Or should i turn right?
Say its alrite!

The taste you left in my mouth was rotten
You think that all the shit you did to me could be forgotten
That i'd get lost in fantasies
In a cartoon land of mysteries

But luck sees to us all
But very rarely plays the game
Walking in the world without no relief
And your full of grief cause you been robbed by the thief

It's just another weekend, another lonely saturday night
I dont have a reason to be here, but no reasons alrite
Searching deep inside myself not knowing what i'll find
Somethings got to change real soon, i'm running out of time

Can you understand me at all i want peace of mind
Is it right infront of me yet so hard to find
You're such a selfish bastard and now i see
If this is love then what is misery?

I dont want this again today
I've got to find another way
Take another down my throat, keep my little ship afloat
No ones gonna help me out, might as well not even shout

You'll never find a girl like me
Who'll love you right both day and night
As some warn victory, some downfall
Private reasons great or small

Although the masters make the rules
For the wise men and the fools
Living each day as if its the last
It's wat i should do, but i know today has just passed

You know im gonna get you there is nowhere to hide
Headlines will read on the night she died
I stood by the door and saw your name
I stood by the door but no-one came

You make me shaken, heads are mistaken
But i cant control myself, you got me calling out for help
Forget the things that are behind me is what he said
Impress on forward to things that are ahead

I know that this might be the end
I know im falling back again
Can't hold my head above this tide
My hell's become to hard to hide

Always mad at me you try and start a fight
Telling me to leave well tonite i just might
Dont look in the mirror for what you have done
And blame me for the problems you bring on

I sing a song at everystop to try and make a dime
Its not the life i wish i had, but what i have is mine
He'll treat you bad and make you sad
And you will loose the love you had

And though the rules of the road have been lodged
It's only peoples games that you've got to dodge
I dont believe in a fairytale love
But always thought that it could be us

In my heart the gfires burning
Choose my colour
Find my star
Precious people always tell me
Thats a step
A step to far

But your words cut loose the fire and you left my soul to bleed
And the pain thats in your truths decieving me, has got me scared
You see my scars you know where there from
Sensually carved and bleeding till im dead and gone

Underneath my outer shell nothings even real
Living in a constant daze my lifes become surreal
What i thought was in a kiss wasn't ment to be
Now this silence seems so bliss this emptyness inside of me

The wind blows it makes me tired of this place
Will i ever again witness so much grace
Hate can breed in any way
Leaves you nothing left to say

You left me like a child out in the rain
Now im mending myself of the pain
Even if im lost im gonna find a way
Even if ill never see another day

I close my eyes
The moment i surrender to you
The spiritss alienated and the feelin aint there
I fell by the way side and nobody cares

Learning all the hard way not living life instead
To win is sweet but i cant dream with this shit in my head
Is my satisfaction worth this cost
Through every gain theres something lost

Cant you see all you do is killing me
To sing a song and pretend its alrite
To go along each day and be alone and lie awake at night

I discover that i'd just be
one more person crying
At pettiness which plays so rough
Walk upside down inside handcuffs

If it's love you want from me, then take it away
Everything is not what you see, it's over today
I used to think that i was strong i realise now that i was wrong

Feeling you cant come back its to late, thats just pride
Cause standing in the way is like suicide
Waiting for the perfect one to help me realise
Even at this peak in life theres no shine in my eyes

Here we go your bitching every night
Never good enough nothings ever right
Look inside my soul its willing to mislead
But it might take you low and it might make you bleed

Who'll love you right both day and night
You'll never have to worry cus its all uptight
Alone you stand with nobody near
With a trembling distant voice unclear

Cause all i can think about
Is how to get back at you
Sending light just like a star
Tell me where you are

And im not gonna say i dont mean that
Your the target that im aiming at
Cant shake this feeling or this place
Where did you go what did you say?

Maybe its just me or maybe its all of you
All i knows forgotten now and i dont know what is true
What we have is what we earned no matter wat we do
And no-one knows how good we are until this life is through

Disillusioned words like bullets bark
As human gods aim for there mark
It kinda hurt though that why i let it go
Gotta find a way to let you know

Cause everytime i see your face
My mind becomes an empty space
Cause im down and lonely for the last time
I've wasted to much of my life on a mountain i cant climb

I promised you i'd never get so far gone
Everytime its over im back where i belong
Show me how it got this way
Nothing but trouble everyday

Seems im lost in my reflection
Find a star follow its direction
I cant loose track cus its always on me
I cant stray cus it wont go away

I fall into the water abd once more i turn to u
And the crowds are standing staring faceless cutting of my view
No matter wat no matter who
Once again im back to you

Slowly you take my hand, then ill make my final stand
The perfect ending to this fucking game
I can do whats never been done
I can win wats never been won

Seems im lost in my reflection
Find a star follow its direction
You'd always say that you dont think i care
But it's hard to proove you wronge cause your never there

Can i find the answer now is there even one to find
Is this a dream im having could the fault all be mine
Temptations page flies out the door
I follow finding myself at war

Walking over emptyness there is so much more to see
Staring in the darkness there is nothing under me
Scratching and crawling at the rope
Mixed up and bad i cant cope

Make me understand why everything goes wrong
Help me so i can see that it hasnt been to long
Social clubs in drag disguise
Outsiders that can freely criticize

Through my eyes the strains of battle like a brooling storm
Im up and down these pristine velvet walls like focus never forms
Like a child in the rain
Now im lost in an ocean of pain

Sinking deep inside myself not wanting to come out
Whats this life im living whats it all about
In this hole that is me a life thats growing feeble
Buring underneath hands slip of the wheel

I lie awake in thought every detail going over and over
How could this all have changed this book is nothing like its cover
God is saying its time to come back child
But satan will condem you and make you feel exiled

The handmade blade the childs balloon
Eclipses both the sun and moon
Can be seen in the eyes of those that call
To make all that should be killed to crawl

I'm anchored by this heavy load still drowning in the rain
Falling further and further now into emptyness again
It's bitter but i swallow up no one ever gets enough
They take them all and they cry still, its suicide this evil pill!





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 If I knew it would be the last time

    That I'd see you fall asleep,

    I would tuck you in more tightly

    and pray the Lord, your soul to keep.

    If I knew it would be the last time

    that I see you walk out the door,

    I would give you a hug and kiss

    and call you back for one more.

    If I knew it would be the last time

    I'd hear your voice lifted up in praise,

    I would video tape each action and word,

    so I could play them back day after day.

    If I knew it would be the last time,

    I could spare an extra minute

    to stop and say "I love you,"

    instead of assuming you would KNOW I do.

    If I knew it would be the last time

    I would be there to share your day,

    Well I'm sure you'll have so many more,

    so I can let just this one slip away.

    For surely there's always tomorrow

    to make up for an oversight,

    and we always get a second chance

    to make everything just right.

    There will always be another day

    to say "I love you,"

    And certainly there's another chance

    to say our "Anything I can do?"

    But just in case I might be wrong,

    and today is all I get,

    I'd like to say how much I love you

    and I hope we never forget.

    Tomorrow is not promised to anyone,

    young or old alike,

    And today may be the last chance

    you get to hold your loved one tight.

    So if you're waiting for tomorrow,

    why not do it today?

    For if tomorrow never comes,

    you'll surely regret the day,

    That you didn't take that extra time

    for a smile, a hug, or a kiss

    and you were too busy to grant someone,

    what turned out to be their one last wish.

    So hold your loved ones close today,

    and whisper in their ear,

    Tell them how much you love them

    and that you'll always hold them dear

    Take time to say "I'm sorry,"

    "Please forgive me," "Thank you," or "It's okay."

    And if tomorrow never comes,

    you'll have no regrets about today.