I did cocaine tonight. I really don't want to get into that habit again. I already had to go to rehab for that and other stuff, but I still do it once every blue moon, which is wierd. I am not hooked like I used to be. Right now, I am sooo fucked up it is insane, but still I am goos enough to type, and act not fucked up, or whatever.

Yeah, right now, I took 4 lines and 2 bumps of cocaine, I smoked two bowls of cripi, had a few beers, and some hard liquor, and I forget the rest.

I need to change my life around.

Please don't reply with lectures, but other comments are welcome.

Seal is by far my favorite singer.
"Prayer For The Dying"

Fearless people,
Careless needle.
Harsh words spoken,
And lives are broken.
Forceful ageing,
Help me I'm fading.
Heaven's waiting,
It's time to move on.
Crossing that bridge,
With lessons I've learned.
Playing with fire,
And not getting burned.
I may not know what you're going through.
But time is the space,
Between me and you.
Life carries on... it goes on.
Just say die,
And that would be pessimistic.
In your mind,
We can walk across water.
Please don't cry,
It's just a prayer for the dying.
I just don't know what's got into me.
Been crossin' that bridge,
With lessons I've learned.
Playing with fire,
And not getting burned.
I may not know what you're going through,
But time is the space,
Between me and you.
There is a light through that window
Hold on say yes, while people say no
Life carries on
Ohh!
It goes on....oh-ee-oh, whoa-ee-oh ho oh...
I'm crossing that bridge,
With lessons I've learned....
I'm playing with fire,
And not getting burned....
I may not know what you're going through.
But time is the space,
Between me and you.
There is a light through that window.
Hold on say yes, while people say no
Cause life carries on....oh-ee-oh, whoa-ee-oh ho on...
It goes on....oh-ee-on,
It goes on.
Whoa.
Whoa.
Life carries on.
When nothing else matters.
When nothing else matters.
I just don't know what's got into me.
It's just a prayer for the dying.
For the dying.