So anywho for those who are wondering (doubt you are) about why I was at the hospital.
FRANCIS HAD HER BABY!!!!!!!!!!!
Another boy. His name is Albin. It means "fair complextioned". Also, it's a saint's name. Cause my twin is weird.
Anyway.... HE IS SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO ADORABLE!!!!!!!!!!!
And cute. Just like his Mamas. Yupp. Two of them. Ezekiel finds it perfectly natural and we're sure that Albin will too.

[City on Our Knees - TobyMac]
{very powerful song}


If you gotta start somewhere why not here
If you gotta start sometime why not now
If we gotta start somewhere I say here
If we gotta start sometime I say now
Through the fog there is hope in the distance
From cathedrals to third world missions
Love will fall to the earth like a crashing wave

Tonight’s the night
For the sinners and the saints
Two worlds collide in a beautiful display
It’s all up tonight
When we step across the line
We can sail across the sea
To a city with one king
A city on our knees
A city on our knees
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh

If you gotta start somewhere why not here
If you gotta start sometime why not now
If we gotta start somewhere I say here
If we gotta start sometime I say now
Through the fog there is hope in the distance
From cathedrals to third world missions
Love will fall to the earth like a crashing wave

Tonight’s the night
For the sinners and the saints
Two worlds collide in a beautiful display
It’s all love tonight
When we step across the line
We can sail across the sea
To a city with one king
A city on our knees
A city on our knees
Oh-oh-oh

Tonight could last forever
We are one choice from together
Tonight could last forever
Ooh
Tonight could last forever
We are one choice from together
As family
We’re family
Oh Tonight could last forever
We are one choice from together
You and me
Ya, you and me
Tonight’s the night
For the sinners and the saints
Two worlds collide
In a glorious display
Cuz its all love tonight
When we step across the line
We can sail across the sea
To a city with one king
A city on our knees
A city on our knees
Oh oh oh
A city on our knees
A city on our knees
Oh oh oh
If we gotta start somewhere why not here
If we gotta start sometime why not now

[What A Shame - Shinedown]


Two packs of cigarettes a day
The strongest whiskey
Kentucky can make
That's a recipe to put a vagabond
On his hands and knees
I watched it all up close,
I knew him more than most
I saw a side of him he never showed
Full of sympathy for a world that
Wouldn't let him be

That's the man he was,
Have you heard enough?

[Chorus]
What a shame, what a shame,
To judge a life that you can't change
The choir sings, the church bells ring
So, won't you give this man his wings?
What a shame to have to beg you to
See we're not all the same
What a shame

There's a hard life for every silver spoon
There's a touch of grey for every shade
Of blue
That's the way that I see life
If there was nothing wrong,
Then there'd be nothing right
And for this working man they say could
Barely stand
There's gotta be a better place to land
Some kind of remedy for a world that
Wouldn't let him be

That's the man he was,
Have you heard enough?

[Chorus]
What a shame, what a shame,
To judge a life that you can't change
The choir sings, the church bells ring
So, won't you give this man his wings?
What a shame to have to beg you to
See we're not all the same
What a shame

God forgive the hands that laid you down
They never knew how much a broken heart can break the sound and change the season
Now the leaves are falling faster,
Happily ever after
You gave me hope through your endeavors
And now you will live forever

[Chorus]
What a shame, what a shame,
To judge a life that you can't change
The choir sings, the church bells ring
So, won't you give this man his wings?
What a shame to have to beg you to
See we're not all the same
What a shame, what a shame
'Cause we're not all the same
What a shame, what a shame
'Cause we're not all the same

I miss you Uncle Buddy.....

I HAVE A JOB!!!!!
and today is my first day there.
i work 5 to midnight...O.o;
why me?? lol.
so i will be here even less than what i already am.
sorry :-< it makes me vert sad.
well.....TOODLES! ^^

A good friend is someone who will be there while you cry...who will comfort you while you're down.

A true friend will will be there while you cry, comfort you while you're down, and kill the mother fucker who brought tears to your eyes.

http://cookiesinbloom.com/

go there and order stuffs. they have kick ass cookies ^.^
my nanny owns it. shes a great baker...and so is my grammy.
you will love these cookies. no doubt.

y'all read that right. i'm moving. i won't be on much cause the only place with internet is my grammy who lives next door and she works during the day. and i should be getting a job soon. and then hopefully i can set up the internet. well love you guys and ill talk to y'all when i can. baibai!

XOX
Frank Lucifer

P.S.
finally a happy diary entry ^.^

[F.T.W.]
_{Face the World}

Why do we live why do we die?
Watch as crystal-clear tears fall from tired blue eyes.
The pain and hurt,
Makes my heart want to burst.
I miss those who have passed
Why can't happiness just, for a moment longer, last?
All the death around the world is becoming so much
With an icy hand, my heart, Death did touch
My blood ran cold
With the news I was told
Of his passing from this life.
Through darkness and sorrow, I will fight
For those I love, and even those I hate.
Though a human life, I will never take.
I sit and bate my breath
As my heart races, unheard in my chest.
I will wait for my moment
I will sleep and lay dormant
Until that times comes when I face the world.

XF.R.L. 1/22/2010

Do we live simple to die?
Someone must know
Someone? Anyone?
If all we're gonna do is die, then why are we born? Why do we walk this Earth each and everyday, If all we're gonna do is die? For me right now, I'm beginning to think life is pointless. So far 3 people have died. My friend said that death happens in three's. Is this the last for me? I hope it is cause if one more person I care for and love dies, I'm going back to the institution. Not because I'm a threat to myself, but to everyone around me. I can't take much more of this. I really can't.

So i found out today that my uncle killed himself.
How or why is complete unknown to me, but he did.
I was at the Mall when my mom called and told me.
I cried. Right there. In the middle of the mall.


R.I.P.
Alex John "Buddy" Denais Jr.
I miss you already.
"How you like dem apples?"

Why the hell is it harder to give MYSELF benadryl then it is to give it to Athena?
that stuff is nasty...and it smells funny >.<



also...it SO DOES NOT taste like cherries!
not even the after taste is that of cherry... stupid label saying cherry flavored liquid. liars...

My newest phone contact in my cell is Bob With A Penis.
cause i know two, well three, Bobs.
they are as follows
Bob Hebert
Bob With A Penis
 and
Bob With A Vagina

the last one is actually a girl. her name is Rainy.
but we call her Bob.
that came about because of me.
i busted out the first day we met and called her Billy Bob Joe Bob Joe
and for some reason Bob stuck. XD

does anyone else get freakishly hyper when recovering from illness??
cause apparently...i do.

oh and my mom walked in one me while i was taking a steamy shower trying to loosen the congestin in my chest...and well...we have a clear shower curtain.
it wasnt that bad...i mean she gave birth to me AND changed my diapers...but it was still awkward as hell.... then Francis decided to come in and talk to our mom...i was like "wtf?! really?! im in the freaking shower!"
and neither one of them left.



and another thing
Athena doesnt like when i sleep all day. she kept walking up to the couch where i was and tugging at my hair saying "daddy needs to wake up. its day now. daddy needs to be awake."
my sha little girl. ^^ i love her. my mom had to keep taking her away from the couch so i cold get some rest. then she would cry.. and i felt bad got up and snuggled with her on the couch till we both fell asleep.
and just so no one is like "you shouldnt have a baby that close to you when your sick!"
i had a doctor face mask thing on. so i wasnt breathing on her.

the lastest survey says that 3 out of 4 people make up 75% of the worlds population

the trouble with life is that there's no background music

I love deadlines. I especially like the whooshing sound they make as they go flying by.

I don't remember being absent minded.

I have not lost my mind; it is backed up on a disk somewhere

A rose by any other name would likely be "deadly thornbearing assault vegetation"

If at first you don't succeed,, destroy all evidence that you tried.

It is generally agreed that "hello" is an appropriate greeting, because if you entered a room and said "goodbye" it would confuse alot of people.

for fast acting relief, try slowing down

if you don't care where you are, then you ain't lost

flying is not inherently dangerous; crashing is

forecast for tonight: darkness

a sphere is a really pointless shape

i used to have a handle on life until it broke

i like long walks, especially when they are taken by people who annoy me

in dog years im dead

How come when you mix water and flour together you get glue... and then you had eggs and sugar and you get cake? Where does THE GLUE GO?

                  Rayn's crazyness

the difference between a smart ass editor and a hard working one is that the smart ass editor (me) will stand behind you and correct you as you type.

teehee. shes a dork. these are old. she had them written down in a notebook.
i stoled them and put them up. cause i think theyre funny.

Darkness and Gloom

I watch the glow of my cigarette in the dim light
I watch as it burns
Wishing you were by my side.
I look around but don't really see.
I miss you my Love
You miles across the wide open sea,
Me in our scarce lit room.
The bed seems so large,
So cold and empty without your sleeping form beside me.
I miss you twirling my har through your fingertips
The way your eyes shine as you say you love me.
I see your face whenever I close my eyes
I try and sleep so i can see the image of your smile
My dearest Love please come back to me soon.
This seperation kills me
With its darkness and gloom.

XFrank Renee Lucifer

I can see you but not touch..
your so far from me...
i hate this.
my dearest Rayn...
i miss you
i cant sleep without you breathing on my neck. with out your hand curled tightly into my shirt. i want you home. come home. im being selfish and i dont even care. your family should come here for a change. America is not THAT bad...i just want you home. now. 6103 miles is to far. i cant see or hear or touch you whenever i want. webcam doesnt work quite the same.

man Fanny, i know how you feel everytime she goes see her family.
its so freaking far >.<

this is what happens when i talk to my friends..
im the one who *raped*

According to Fanny [Nezeb] i am fail.
the reasons being:
i love dr. pepper.
my fiancee can't read 1337
and if you read my mood...Fanny is apparently my dream girl...

*drowns in self fail-ness*

\/\/|-|y |v|3 ???

.:.Edit.:.
more reasons i am fail in material form:

my height of 6'8" apparently makes me fail harder
being a big stick cause of my height/weight ratio

.:.Edit.:.

the fact that my two year old just cup checked me
because i should wear one and expect Athena to randomly slam her fist in my crotch
because i wear striped shirts/sweaters
im emo *cries*
i steal Francis' jeans.

.:.another one.:.
the fact that Fanny made me yell "how the fuck did you think i meant my balls???" out loud

.:.yet another edit.:.
for being on a shitty comp

Aoyagi Ritsuka says:
read my status
Rayn says:
blanches' shut up you!
Aoyagi Ritsuka says:
haha! i love you!!!
now why did your face white?
whiten*
Rayn says:
now read mine
Aoyagi Ritsuka says:
the best part of waking up....
is boobies in your FACE!
Rayn says:
lol
Aoyagi Ritsuka says:
"it right note rite"?
really?
Rayn says:
what are you talking about?
it says right not rite
Aoyagi Ritsuka says:
it totally said that ya dork
Rayn says:
looks'
no it doesnt
Aoyagi Ritsuka says:
it did
Rayn says:
no it didnt
Aoyagi Ritsuka says:
i said it SAID that
yes
it did
Rayn says:
no
Aoyagi Ritsuka says:
*dies*
Rayn says:
i just looked!
Aoyagi Ritsuka says:
safety
Rayn says:
gross!
Aoyagi Ritsuka says:
you just changed it!
Rayn says:
no i didnt
Aoyagi Ritsuka says:
fine.
no sex for you!
Rayn says:
bwahah  haha....
Aoyagi Ritsuka says:
im serious
Rayn says:
but seriously i didnt
Aoyagi Ritsuka says:
*serious face*
Rayn says:
*seriouser face*
 
Aoyagi Ritsuka says:
but seriously you did
Rayn says:
nope
Aoyagi Ritsuka says:
*dead serious face*
yes
Rayn says:
^.^
nope
Aoyagi Ritsuka says:
yes
you did
i watched it change
Rayn says:
no you didnt
Aoyagi Ritsuka says:
yes i did
Rayn says:
no you didnt
Aoyagi Ritsuka says:
no sex for a month
Rayn says:
cause i didnt change it


i love how we IM each other from different rooms in the house.

we were talking about how she spelled "sandwich" wrong.
her current status says "two things dear...its know not lnow and its right not rite"
but it did say "right note rite"
mine says "Sandwuch <--- New word. Way to be a dork Baby! and apparently Not is now Note"
and does anyone else notice how she doesnt respond to the no sex thing i said?

another song. im thinking about playing it when Rayn and i finally get married.

[Never gonna be alone- Nickelback]

Time, is going by, so much faster than I,
And I'm starting to regret not spending all of it with you.
Now I'm, wondering why, I've kept this bottled inside,
So I'm starting to regret not telling all of it to you.
So if I haven't yet, I've gotta let you know,

You're never gonna be alone from this moment on.
If you ever feel like letting go, I won't let you fall.
You're never gonna be alone. I'll hold you 'til the hurt is gone.

And now, as long as I can, I'm holding on with both hands,
'Cause forever I believe that there's nothing I could need but you.
So if I haven't yet, I've gotta let you know,

You're never gonna be alone from this moment on.
If you ever feel like letting go, I won't let you fall.
When all hope is gone, I know that you can carry on.
Were gonna take the world on. I'll hold you 'til the hurt is gone.
Ooooh.

You've gotta live every single day,
Like it's the only one, what if tomorrow never comes?
Don't let it slip away,
Could be our only one, you know it's only just begun.
Every single day,
Maybe our only one, what if tomorrow never comes,
Tomorrow never comes?

Time, is going by, so much faster than I,
And I'm starting to regret not telling all of this to you.

You're never gonna be alone from this moment on.
If you ever feel like letting go, I won't let you fall.
When all hope is gone, I know that you can carry on.
We're gonna take the world on. I'll hold you 'til the hurt is gone.

I'm gonna be there all of the way.
I won't be missing one more day.
I'm gonna be there all of the way.
I won't be missing one more day.

I Will Not Bow- Breaking Benjamin

Fall!

Now the dark begins to rise
Save your breath it's far from over
Leave the lost and dead behind
Now's your chance to run for cover
I don't want to change the world
I just want to leave it colder
Light the fuse and burn it up
Take the path that leads to nowhere
All is lost again, but I'm not giving in

I will not bow, I will not break
I will shut the world away
I will not fall, I will not fade
I will take your breath away

Fall!

Watch the end through dying eyes
Now the dark is taking over
Show me where forever dies
Take the fall and run to heaven
All is lost again, but I'm not giving in

I will not bow, I will not break
I will shut the world away
I will not fall, I will not fade
I will take your breath away

And I'll survive, paranoid
I have lost the will to change
And I am not proud, cold blooded, fake
I will shut the world away

I will not!

I will not bow, I will not break
I will shut the world away
I will not fall, I will not fade
I will take your breath away

And I'll survive, paranoid
I have lost the will to change
And I am not proud, cold blooded, fake
I will shut the world away

Fall!