My dad and I use to have a band together and we made a cd of our band..
god i was so fun..
He and I were like bestfriends, heh.. but that all changed, he has a good life now and doesnt need me or anyone else in it:(
Okay, well recently, I was that I think I'm better then everyone.
If sticking up for one of my friends makes me better then you, I'm fucking proud of it, because I'm sick of dumbass friends who can't just take a fucking hint and leave someone alone, so if you have a problem with me sticking up for one of my friends and you feel like telling me i'm a bitch and that I think i'm better then everyone else, then please comment my diary.
I'm going to smack Davids brother, he's a stupid fucking dick.
He's so cocky.
Angel eyes
This girl who I see staring back at me, the girl with the angel eyes.
this girl who I will always prize.
Though she doesnt love me.
And we never will be.
I charish those angel eyes.
She would tell me she loved me.
Then take it back.
This notion of hers, cause my heart to crack.
Will I ever learn wll I ever meaned?
this mary-go-round love
Caused me to break and bend.
So, i'm letting her go with this note of how much
I love this girl with all that I must.
She wouldnt believe me if I said I was sorry..
I've said it too many times, and then hurt her again...
But I do love her, and want her as a friend..
I never meant to hurt her, I never mean to..
Everytime something happens, I take it out on here... I make her out to be the bad guy.. and I hurt her all the time, I yelled at her, when it wasnt even her who did it..
it was me.. I shouldve opened my eyes...
But, now it's too late......
Better off dead
-Yawns-
I'm tired.
Tired of drama.
Tired of trying.
Tired of hurting everyone.
FUCK!!!!!
I feel numb, like it matters, people will just be like" she acts like shes the only one who feels numb and sad!!"
Whatever:
Im done.
True friends are not real, they act like it, but they are not fucking real, I'm not staying on this site, it's shit.
So, maybe I did have a problem, but, hey! I won't talk about them anymore, who knows I might bring someone down, oh no, already did.
.......
I don't know what to feel anymore..
I fell for someone and I love him so much...
Yet, I'm crushing on her.. It's so different.. I've never felt this way about a girl.. ever... I guess i'll just have to forget those feelings and remain, I mean, I love my boyfriend, I do, and i feel like a slut for saying these things, but I'm not going to lie, I fell for a girl, and confused her.. and I hurt her.. and I regret it all:(...
You are the air in wich I breath, one of my closest memories, yet not to far away, so sweetheart, won't you stay. We've asked you time and time again, because you are our great true friend, so stay with us and keep believing, there will be noone decieving you, and if you want to, you've got me, and all your friends on here, there's no need to shed a tear we'll do, anything to see your eyes light up, when you smile^.^ so please just smile, I love you<3
It's not my best and for that I'm sorry.. but I love you Shanelle:)
I ish happy!!
I has my buddies and I don't need anyone else:):)
Made a choice yesterday,and I hope my friends can learn to accept it.
I don't like fighting with people nomatter what they've done in the past, I like to make things better...
God, people are so fucking irritating sometimes.
I said I was ugly, I didnt fucking talk shit about anyone.
and I have people bitching at me and telling me to stop causing drama, since when is caling yrself ugly a thing that causes drama, it isnt, honestly I should write in my diary more often, it's better than fighting with idiots all day.
I feel like I cant say anything without someone going completely fucking insane, and then for the last month or so, I've had to deal with "effexxxor" and it's like dude seriously, I'm sick of her, and I havnt said shit to her, if I was that immature i would sit around and toss insults back and forth but I am not. Sometimes I do say stupid shit, but I am not a little child and I'm sick of people acting like I am. I love my friends alot, they rock especially[ShanelleRenee],[Ritsuka-Kun],[wolvie],[MON CAUCHEMAR CHIMIQUE] Jonathon, and others and it's like I love them, but I am getting so tired of this site. There is really too much drama on it.
I've been feeling so different lately..
It's not bad, just different.
Happier, more giggly...
O.O
and sorta.. ghetto...O.O
Oh naaaaaooooooo
WHY DOESNT EVERYONE ELSE JUST GET PISSED AT ME COME ON I DONT FUCKIN CARE ANYMORE
These are some poems that I wrote after my father left me and my mom and brother.. They mean alot to me..
A poem by me..
Stupid fucker.
Dumb cocksucker
Take your time with what you say.
Judging others!
were all cowards your a god but you dont see
Lifes not a game.
People feel
Its hard to deal with somene like you
You treat us bad.
you make us sad.
were just a game, but you wont see.
thats not even half of what i think of him
youll never see..
What youve done to me..
what youve done to her..
there is no cure..
for the pain the insane feeling...
of slitting your throat your wrist just all of it..
I want to die..
she wants to die..
but now thats over and we dont cry
your alone.
jacking off to porn
and were happy poor poor boy..
noone will cry at your funeral...
because they dont give a damn
so fuck you!
You use used us!
We loved you!
You killed us!
Thats over.
Your not needed!
So goodbye,
Deceiver..
"His Heart" A poem by me
His heart out on the paper.
He told me how he felt.
How when he sees another guy talking to me it mkes his heart melt.
Just not in a good way.
He feels alone and unwanted.
Like he is nothing real, but baby what you need to know is that I am the real deal.
No guy will ever change that.
Nor will he change my mind.
This love bug hit me baby and I know that you are mine.
This careless feeling rises over you and you don't know what to do.
But as long as i am living doll, i'll always be with you.
these lies i've told before, have strangled you and burned you.
But i'll take away these sores and help you cope and hold you.
I may not be the best girl in the world.
But love me for me.
Because I could be the only girl left that will make you truly see