[~forgotten~]'s diary

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Written about Monday 2008-12-22
Written: (5816 days ago)

I've been feeling so different lately..
It's not bad, just different.

Happier, more giggly...
O.O
and sorta.. ghetto...O.O

Oh naaaaaooooooo

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Written about Saturday 2008-12-20
Written: (5818 days ago)

WHY DOESNT EVERYONE ELSE JUST GET PISSED AT ME COME ON I DONT FUCKIN CARE ANYMORE

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Written about Tuesday 2008-12-16
Written: (5822 days ago)

Well!

I'm really happy.. I made a new friend like a week and a half ago.. and omg.. She is so fucking amazing.. I could not ever imagine life without her, she's so wonderful, I mean god, alot of people have been treating her really bad, but I've been there for her, and I always will be she's so great to me, and she makes me feel so confident..[poopbucket] is her username, and she's my bestfriend:) I love you sweety, since I met you things have been going so well, and even though, there was a fight, I still love you so much, and nothing will ever change that.:) Bestfriends^^

<3

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Written about Saturday 2008-11-08
Written: (5859 days ago)

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These are some poems that I wrote after my father left me and my mom and brother.. They mean alot to me..

Stand Alone

I am waiting for the day when you come home and tell us you love us. I sit there thinking you'll be back...until then I stand alone...I know you're thinking...but enough, just do it, come back please. Make the pain go away. Make my smile reappear...just stop the torture. I know you're scared and stressed...so are we...but I'm your little girl. Don't I mean anything? One day I say to her, he will be back...a month later and you're not. I've lost all hope and faith. Ever since I lost you...since that...I stand alone.

Lost Memories, Forgotten Love

Why'd you run and hide? Now I must divide the pain I have inside. It kills me to see that you aren't well, but what can I do? I was your little girl but now you've shown me that means nothing. Your careless ways have led you on a path to no success and the most of the depressed. You have proven that you don't care even when you say you do. We see right through your hungry lies and now you live in your own self infested world. Your eyes show your pain even when you say you have none....I see through you and all your lies, most of you I now despise. It's as if I don't know you anymore, as if you have been gone so long....I lost all memory of the use-to-be's. I think of all the happy could-have-beens...there is one used-to-be I remember. There used to be a time when you loved me, but sadly it faded and lost its purpose in this world...it's gone and so are you. so much I cannot say...so hurt..but I hide it...It'll go away...hopefully.

Cold Room

Since you left this is now an empty, cold room. No point in sleeping there...tears fall. Some days they never stop. One day turns into one week, one week turns into one month, one month turns into one year. One year becomes forever. I hate forever...it never ends. Just like the tears that slowly run down my face and fall to the floor. Now everything is like the cold room...so empty, cold and dark. Too sad to be in but so sad you never leave. I have scars on my arms for each time I cried since you have been gone...It's sad there are too many to count, I guess that means something. You being gone destroyed my life. The room of which I speak is me...ever since you left I became cold, empty and dark. My life is now like a cold room.

Holding Back The Tears

Sitting here alone...remembering our songs, the way we sang together downtown. Thinking of how fun it was just hanging out with you, learning from you. Because of you my talent has grown. Now that you're gone...I've lost all feel for singing...my dream has faded, my talent is now gone. There is no point in it if you're not there to cheer me on and help me. At first I'd sit there and think that you will be back. Now I don't wait...now I don't sing. It stopped a month after you left...why did you go? Why am I punished? Why'd you kill my hope? I want you to come back...I miss you so much. I just don't get how one day you're there, the next you're gone and she's standing in my doorway crying. It made me die inside, now I feel hollow and cold.

The brighter side, which you dont see.

So you say that you still care, that you still love her. Do you dare? If someone asked for your honesty honestly could you say you never hurt her? do you understand what you've done? do you know the concept of torture? I dont think you do. As she holds you while you cry or while your sick feeling as though you could die? do you see the brighter side of every tomorrow. Will you ever understand, we love you and this isnt the end. How come it's so hard to accept the beautiful things in life. Why must you run and hide?! did you finally snap finally get scared a cowardly feeling you must have to bear. you tuaght me to be strong but look at yourself..your words were just lies..they had to be lies..If they're not lies then why are you gone, If you appreicate her, why is she sad? when she says that she isnt.. cant you see it in her eyes.. Cant you look deep enough to find the brighter side!..guess not..

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Written about Saturday 2008-11-08
Written: (5859 days ago)

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A poem by me..

Stupid fucker.

Dumb cocksucker

Take your time with what you say.

Judging others!

were all cowards your a god but you dont see

Lifes not a game.

People feel

Its hard to deal with somene like you

You treat us bad.

you make us sad.

were just a game, but you wont see.

thats not even half of what i think of him

youll never see..

What youve done to me..

what youve done to her..

there is no cure..

for the pain the insane feeling...

of slitting your throat your wrist just all of it..

I want to die..

she wants to die..

but now thats over and we dont cry

your alone.

jacking off to porn

and were happy poor poor boy..

noone will cry at your funeral...

because they dont give a damn

so fuck you!

You use used us!

We loved you!

You killed us!

Thats over.

Your not needed!

So goodbye,

Deceiver..

119129 Link to this entry
Written about Saturday 2008-11-08
Written: (5859 days ago)

"His Heart" A poem by me

His heart out on the paper.

He told me how he felt.

How when he sees another guy talking to me it mkes his heart melt.

Just not in a good way.

He feels alone and unwanted.

Like he is nothing real, but baby what you need to know is that I am the real deal.

No guy will ever change that.

Nor will he change my mind.

This love bug hit me baby and I know that you are mine.

This careless feeling rises over you and you don't know what to do.

But as long as i am living doll, i'll always be with you.

these lies i've told before, have strangled you and burned you.

But i'll take away these sores and help you cope and hold you.

I may not be the best girl in the world.

But love me for me.

Because I could be the only girl left that will make you truly see

119127 Link to this entry
Written about Saturday 2008-11-08
Written: (5859 days ago)

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'The Story Never Told' By me

I'm letting go.
though I need to hold on,
I need to be strong.
I need to know that I'm okay.
I'm getting rid of my old memories.
The things that bring me to my knees.
Those things that make me cry at night.
I said my goodbyes, I know it made you cry. I saw it in your eyes.
So why do we still fight?
It's all I ever do.
Nomatter what we've been through.
It ends in pain and tears.
Even after all these years

I'm letting go, though I need to be strong, I need to hold on, I need to save myself from hell
I need to survive, in this life, but its all so different from the way it was, the way it use to be, will you ever see, you were a part of meCause living only leads to death..and loving you wasnt for he best, and i'm sorry if you suffered from the pain, but now you know how it feels to lose what you once gained..Don't cry for me..When I'm gone.. it only hurt you to be with me, and you won't cry for not for too long, just wait and see, it's the last for me.

The pain and suffering..Feeling so small..the dumb shit that i saw I went though it all...sometimes it was more than once, I kept living just so i could that smile rise again, but now i dont, I see the cloucds pass on the window blow through, the leaves fall fast and i'm, well I'm still blue..

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Written about Saturday 2008-11-08
Written: (5859 days ago)

Poem by me

Hiding from reality, facing the insanity, what am I to do, it's hard to pull through. This life is just a myth, A butterfly kiss, these feelings are surreal, I'm a blurr, can you feel me? can you see my shadows on the wall, I'm hidden beneath the floors, trying to shine the light on life, so I can see your beautiful face, these tears arent saddness they're repressed, you'll never know, I'll never feel, this whole life was never real, I am the dream your hiding from, the name that you keep screaming, the nightmare that you see when you close your eyes, This is the life. This is my dream, My sorrow, inside i'm hollow, but do you see the truth in me, My lips can lie, but you see it in my eyes, Just trust me when I say that i'm going to be alright

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Written about Saturday 2008-11-08
Written: (5859 days ago)

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A poem by me

This fate

Scream for the pleasure, scream for the pain, scream for the memories that drive you insane. Bleed for the wilted bleed for the sore bleed for the selfish seductive little whore. Call upon the shadows of your memories and try to blend, this is the time, this is the end, can you feel it, coursing through you like ice in your veins, drugged up fucked up its all so fucking plain, the truth is in the lies, the blessed fucking tries at being happy, caress her and hope she'll grow up not so sappy, hold on to that dream, youve seen her arms and legs this bitch is done she's fucking through she's nothin but a slave, a blade for your fun and the loaded gun, all these things go through her like air she doesnt see it it isnt there. Would you? could you? save her life? Do you see the pain inside her eyes, it's hard to miss, one single kiss.

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Written about Wednesday 2008-11-05
Written: (5862 days ago)

God, this song makes me cry so fuckin bad
Linkin park-leave out all the rest

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Written about Tuesday 2008-11-04
Written: (5864 days ago)

Blah!

I love my new wiki it rocks and people love it!

Come join!

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Written about Saturday 2008-10-11
Written: (5888 days ago)

[ Kittie ]

"Choke"

You're Hidden By Your Good Looks, Your Fake Smile
I Loved You But It Took Me A Long While
To Realize You Don't Even Care.
All The Feelings, You Had None.
There's Only One Word To Describe You,
And Thats A Hypocrite.
I Looked Over You, I Looked Over Me.
Look At You And Smile, You Fucking Pedophile.
I Looked Over You, I Looked Over Me.
Look At You And Smile, PEDOPHILE!
SEDUCTION! TIED DOWN!
DECAPITATION!
LISTEN! OHHHHH!
YOU HYPOCRITE!
THIS IS THE END! SUCK IT!
My Eyes Are Never Dry.
Its All Done.
It Wasnt Real And All But It Was Fun.
Was I Not Good Enough For You King? [3x]
I Guess Not.
I Looked Over You, I Looked Over Me.
Look At You And Smile, You Fucking Pedophile.
I Looked Over You, I Looked Over Me.
Look At You And Smile, PEDOPHILE!
SEDUCTION! TIED DOWN!
DECAPITATION!
LISTEN! OHHHHH!
YOU HYPOCRITE THIS IS THE END! SUCK IT!
YOUR NOT THE KINGYOU NEVER WILL FIND.
DON'T YOU SEE IT'S ALL IN MY MIND! (x3)
YOUR NOT THE KING YOU NEVER WILL FIND...
I HOPE YOU CHOKE!

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Written about Saturday 2008-10-11
Written: (5888 days ago)

[ Song of the day!!! ]

[ KITTIE ]

"Spit"

COWARD!!
spit i think i'll spit
For all those girls, who speak contradiction
The guy who crept through the shadows everyday
to clutch his own conclusion
Watch all the blood, as it drips from your veins you coward Godspeed,
may your death come quickly

i think i'll take this hate and , SPIT, SPIT, SPIT

Now as it's passed onto the next one I feel a bloodrush come right over me
You know you will never be right in the eyes of the ones who know
You trusted the devil and she will betray you

Low

Why do i get shit all the time from you men
You are swine
You think dick is the answer
But its not [X2]

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Written about Friday 2008-10-10
Written: (5888 days ago)

Right now I am pissed off.
I cant believe she would do that.

Okay, so I just got off the phone with my friend.
I told her she should date a certain person and I put my opinion in and that pissed her off, I guess i'm not a good friend, because I look out for people.

*crying*

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