I miss you...

Week 19...also known as the week I started lactating =.=

Well, I woke up yesterday morning with the front of my top wet, I kinda paniced at the sight but then on closer examination realised I was indeed, Lactating. Some people might find this embarrassing but I just laughed and realised it was gettin closer and closer til my little one would be here.

I had a lovely conversation in boots with the lady about which breast pads were the best for fast flows and leaking lol something I never thought I would do :)
I got them home and it was like trying to unravel the mysterys of the universe...there were no instructions on how to use them or anything...took me ages to figure those bad boys out but I finally got it :)
They arent that comfy but they save me from leaking all over my tops so week 19 welcomes the breast pad :L

Oh...and before I go...stupidity of the day...I tried to put the kettle in the fridge when making tea...Baby brain, I has it :D lol

The King Blues...

Even if someone were to call you a liar and try to hurt you with heartless words or if the world won't believe in you and place a crown of thorns upon your head, I'll be your one and only ally. I know that loneliness and pain...

Aren't you gonna answer me?
When I am crying out your name and I'm lost in shame. Lead me on my way, and give me words to say.

It's better to be unhappy alone than with someone - Marilyn Monroe

My name is SKRILLEX

God is a character created by a bunch of insecure men who can't stand the fact they're goin to be alone forever, cause they have no tolerance for the opinions of others, the end.

I don't want to be JUST ANYBODY, I want to be your only...

Misery really does love company..

Missing: </center>

On a mission...

It musta been love but it's over now. It musta been good but I lost it somehow.

Some men just want to see the world burn....

Mootash Smileys <333
:{)

By the power of grey skull, by the beard of Zues!!!

Garlic bread and beans <333

Hellzapoppin'

Penguins can't fly, I can't fly...Therefore, I am a penguin <(")
Waddle waddle waddle waddle waddle YEAH

More Questions...

51. Zodiac sign:
The scales :))) Libra.
52. Male or female:
Female, I think.
53. Primary school:
Moyle Primary.
54. Secondary School:
Larne High School.
55. College:
Larne Skills & then Newtonabbey Tech.
56. What kind of weekend would you like:
Sunny, as if in this country LOL
57. Last time you saw your mother:
Last night just before I got into bed.
58. What's the one thing you wish you could change:
I wish I could make men be more reliable.
59. What are you listening to right now:
Olly Murs ft Rizzle Kicks - Heart skips a beat.
60. Who's getting on your nerves right now:
Kane =.=
61. Most visited website:
Facebook.
62. What's your real name:
Lyndsay Elizabeth Simpson Gorman
63. Nicknames:
Tooooo many :L

This year have you
64. Made a new friend:
I've made a few, yes. ^^
65. Laughed until you cried:
LOL Yessum
66. Met someone who changed you:
Yeah.
67. Found out who your true friends were:
And which ones were shit stirring cunts (Conor)
68. What did you do for your birthday:
Abs nothing, I was too tired :L
69. What time did you wake up at today:
about 9am, that's a lie in for me.
70. Name something you cannot wait for:
Smudge being born'd ^_________________________________^

I need you tonight..

So lately, been wondering who will be there to take my place.
When i'm gone, you'll need love to light the shadows on your face <333

One man's fuck up is another man's golden opportunity!

Thank God you blew it, thank God I dodged a bullet!!!!!!

Last night I had a dream, I told you how I felt. Told you how when i'm with you it's my heart that melts.
I watched it all play out, the rest of our lives. my life was wonderful, you were by my side.

Should I just give up or should I just keep chasing pavements, even if it leads no where...

I really fucked it up this time, didn't I my dear? :/

......

21. Turned someone down:
Yeah.
22. Cried when someone died:
Yes.
23. Fallen for a friend:
Yes.

Your future
24. Want kids:
Already in the middle of brewing one, I want 2 :)))
25. Get married:
Nope, I never want to get married. I think it's a pointless insitution.
26. Career:
I want to be a youth worker to help teens with addictions, like I had.

which is better
27. Lips or eyes:
Eyes <3333
28. Hugs or kisses:
Hugs <333
29. Shorter or taller:
Taller.
30. Older or younger:
Older.
31. Romantic or spontanious:
Both :)))
32. Nice stomach or nice arms:
Nice arms?? WTF?? O.o
33. Sensitive or loud:
Both :L

Firsts
34. Piercing:
My ears.
35. Best Friend:
Jade McFaul.
36. Sport you joined:
Hockey.
37. First vacation:
Butlins :D

Right Now
38. Eating:
Nothing, for once LOL
39. Drinking:
Nothing.
40. I'm about to:
S'plode!!!
41. Listening to:
Rihanna - We found love....It was filmed close to where I live ^^
42. Waiting for:
Text messages.

Misc
43. Favourite band:
The cure ^^
44. Height:
Tall for a girl LOL I'm 5foot 8inches
45. Do you have a crush on someone:
Yes, unfortunately.
46. What do you like about yourself:
Nothing....I dunno.
47. Piercings:
I've had loads, only have my lip bar in now though :)
48. Tattoos:
I have a few ^^
49. Righty or lefty:
Righty.
50. Relationship:
Single...not so ready to mingle :L
...........

Questions :D

1. Had more than one bf/gf at one time:
Nope I have not.
2. Did you sing today:
I'm singing right now.
3. Ever cheated one somebody:
Yes, I have :/
4. Would you go back in time:
I'd love to, like Bill & Ted or Marty McFly :D
5. What moment would you choose:
I dunno, there are too many!
6. Are you afraid to fall in love:
I'm afraid of getting hurt.
7. Do you like the way you look:
Sometimes, not all the time.

Believe in
8. Yourself:
In what way exactly???
9. Miracles:
Not exactly.
10. Love at first sight:
No. Lust not love.
11. Heaven:
I believe you go somewhere...
12. Santa Clause:
Obviously.
13. Kissing on the first date:
Yes lolololol
14. Angels:
Nooo.

Have you ever
15.Kissed a stranger:
Yeah, quite a few :L
16. Drank hard liquor:
lololololol
17. Lost glasses/contacts:
Yes -.-
18. Sex on the first date:
OMG lol
19. Broken someone's heart:
I think so.
20. Been arrested:
Yesssss -.-
................

It doesn't matter if you win by an inch or by a mile, winning is winning - Vin Diesel

Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyong measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are meant to shine as children do. It's not just in some of us, it is in everyone, and as we let our own lights shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.

Depress-Ohhh

The things I need to say will never be heard. They will linger in the deepest recessess of my mind forever but my body, my body is his. my mind shall never scream the words I long to say. They will always remain within the very depths of my unstable physicy.

Never trust anyone. People were made to lie && deceive each other. What you want will inevidably change, nothing is ever perminant. Nobody is perfect, always look after number one. Don't fall in love, you'll just get hurt. Never bare your soul, you'll just get destroyed. Everyone is judging you, but who are you judging?

First of the year {Equinox}...

And once again, I give away too much and get nothing in return.
I feel stupidand also irritated, cross and many other emotions that I'm not sure I
can describe.
I think I let my imagination run wild which I shouldn't do when I'm vaunerable.
God, I feel so so stupid. I feel like I've been such a fool, like I had expectations that were totally false.
I should completely just forget everything and go back to myself....

Got Skrillex on the speakers and the bass up HIGH!!! Let's do this DIARY!!!!!

How come I forget you when you're always on my mind?
How come I do not want you when you are all I want inside?
How come i let you go when I can't see us apart?
How come I do not love you when you control my heart?

Sometimes I listen to my head because my heart keeps getting it wrong.

Road To RuIN!!
How can we make you understand all you can be is given in your hand..You won't need.
Trust in me, take me by the hand. Dreams are strewn across the sand, you won't need money.
Well all the bent-back peddlars, the jugglers and fools, they're driving me crazy. I'm climbing
the walls. Oh show me the way, the way to my stool 'cause i'm so sick, just so sick of it all. And when
the penny drops.....Trust in me, take me by the hand.

~Always be yourself, unless you can be Batman, always be Batman.

~Hey! Mario! Remember me? I wasted my childhood saving your Girlfriend!! >.<

~Saying "I'm almost there" when you haven't even left the house.

~Yelling your own name during sex because you're that fucking awesome.

~I hate it when I walk outside and a cow throws a fridge at me =.=

LOLzzzzz...

Listening to dubstep (mainly Skrillex) and the baby is loving it, I can feel Smudge moving about ^^
You Go Little DUDDDEEEEE <33333

Week 18...and 3days

Hello week 18 of pregnancy :D This week my little womb tenant is about 15cms long and fully moving about like a wee trooper :D The little one can do some complex things now, like frown and somersault :D I can deffinatly say my little one has mastered the somersaults :L

This week Smudge is also starting to get covered in gross stuff called Vernix which will keep the skin from goin all wrinkly like sittin in a bath for too long :D

This week I'm also looking like Buddha and waddling like Pengu <333333

Read all about it

I'm not censoring myself for nobody,
I'm the only thing I can be,
All that is good, all that is bad, all that is me, Oh.
I wanna sing, I wanna shout,
I wanna scream til the words dry out
So put it in all of the papers, I'm not afraid.

:))))

This week my baby is the size of an onion :D

Onion Smudge ^^

BABBBBBBBBY SMUUUUUUDGEEEE

Today I am 17weeks and 5days into my pregnancy and I felt my first "startle". It was amazing :D
I can feel little Smudge moving and making my tummy flutter ^^ I've never been so proud :)

Also, It may be a tad premiture but I have completed nesting (will get pics up asap) I have went a tad mental but my baby is worth every single penny :D

My little sisters have started singing and talking to bump, even though it can't fully hear yet (still waiting on those wee ear drums to toughen up)

Roll on week 18 and all the excitment it has to offer <3

Hiiyah Baby

Hello week 14 of pregnancy...
I cannot wait til I can feel my little Smudge, Got my bump on the go now :D
Soooo excited//terrified lol
My little smudge is the size of a lemon this week XD

Linzi Likes(Y)
Lucozade, Chicken Teriyaki, Bracelets, Chicken Nuggets, Smoothies, BBQ Sauce, Nivea, To Laugh, HeadBands, Zombieland, Dazed and Confused, The "BAD GUY" In Most Movies, Hoodies, Taking Pictures, Vanilla Oatmeal, Baby Lotion, Brushing My Teeth, Writing, Photography, BAM MARGERA, Gladiator Sandals, DOLCE & GABANNA THE ONE, Trampolines, Hot Tub Parties, Steak, Movies....& I Don't Know 

Linzi Dislikes(N)
Cold, Lakes, Sand, Sunblock, Cheaters, Fish, Most Girls, Slaughterhouse-5, Greasy Hair, Yellow Teeth, Opera, When People Don't Text Me Back, Not Having Money, When People Make Fun Of My Voice, People Who Can't Spell, Needy People, Clingy People, Heat, Feeling Sick, And Probably More, I Dislike ALOT

I'm not most girls...
- I have completed exactly 47 Sudoku puzzles in my life - I can eat more chocolate/chocolate covered/chocolate infused products than anybody I know - My biggest ambition is to learn how to surf, and then hopefully the rest of my life will fall into place, allowing me to live by the beach and surf everyday for the rest of my life!