hiding in the shadows,
waiting for him to come.
Wondering if this world
Has come to an end...

Yea,...
It didn't go very good!!
Idk what to do anymore...

blah blah blah...
She says he's too shy...
I don't think he is...
He seems to not be shy at all...
but w/e
We shall see how it goes...

My my, what beautiful eyes...
He told me i have beautiful eyes.
He told me i have a beautiful smile.
But what was he really saying???

I've been holding on too long
And it's killing me...
I've been sittin' here
Waiting for you to come
Back to me...
I'll miss you
And even though you don't want me,
I'll always want you...

WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!! LALALA...
Sorry about that... I'm feeling so rebelious right now that i planned to take trip to sweden sometime soon... going with my half-brother's mom..
(For all of yous who don't know Darrin, he died.... suicide...)
Anyways, wish me god luck... i'm planning on going in about a week... hopefully or maybe sometime this week... friday?

ugh... boys are so complicated sometimes and i just don't understand them that often!

I guess according to my friend, I was really flirty towards the guy I like today! I hope he will end up going out with me, because all my friends said we'd be a very cute couple!

Here's another new thing!
I have the biggest crush on a guy that i think he might like me!
But i'm to shy to see for myself!
So i had a friend ask him and she said that he said he will think about it!
I hope that it will be a yes!
Even though he told her he has his eye on someone else who already has a boy!
I hope she's teling the truth and not lieing to me!
I hold everything dear to me now!
I hope it's the full and honest truth!
Gotta go!

It seems as if the world is changing and everything is rearranging!
Everything is coming clear and everything you hold dear will be no more!
So don't forget to tell the truth and be honest to the ones you love the most.
'Cause when they're gone you will finally see,
That you meant more to them than you will ever be.
So look inside the deep lies and figure out where you belong in this world and find a place where you will be happy and free.
'Cause when you lose everything you'll find me!

Okay, so here's a new thing!
I'm so poed right now I want to hit something!
A wall maybe!

Anyways, i have about 4 mintues to type so here it goes! I found another guiy but then i broke up with him because he doesn't express his feelings enough, so then we got back together and then he broke up with me because of his parents and that it had nothing to do with me. he told me he was tryin to please his parents and that his parents wouldn't allow us to date me because he's almost 18 and everything was just screwed up! but anyways, yea, i'm still single even though one of my exex bff asked me out and shit, but i don't think that me'n him would last that long because he's going to college in Florida! Grr....

I'm so confused right now! I'm at school and bored to death and I actually want to go home right now! We have a stupid cornation today and I do want to go, but then I don't! I don't know! Everythings just so confusing now! My ex-bf is still in love with me even though he has a "Arranged marriage" with someone in Wisconsin! And the promise ring he gave me, he wants back, but I gave it to my BFF! ~lol~

Okay here's the thing!
I broke up with my bf, but then he was all shitty towards me, so we got back together and then I found out that he was all huggy and shit with my bff the day after we broke up so now it's a forever broken up dealy! Ya fuckin jackass is sayin he still loves me and i hate him 4 life! W/E!