[Deg]'s diary

108361  Link to this entry 
Written about Saturday 2007-11-24
Written: (6187 days ago)

You got tired of me and took me to the shelter. They were overcrowded and I drew an unlucky number. I am in a black plastic bag in a landfill now.
Some other puppy will get the barely used leash you left. My collar was dirty and too small, but the lady took it off before she sent me to the Rainbow Bridge.

Would I still be at home if I hadn't chewed your shoe? I didn't know what it was, but it was leather, and it was on the floor. I was just playing. You forgot to get puppy toys.

Would I still be at home if I had been housebroken? Rubbing my nose in what I did only made me ashamed that I had to go at all. There are books and obedience teachers that would have taught you how to teach me to go to the door.

Would I still be at home if I hadn't brought fleas into the house? Without anti-flea medicine, I couldn't get them off of me after you left me in the yard for days.

Would I still be at home if I hadn't barked? I was only saying, "I'm scared, I'm lonely, I'm here, I'm here! I want to be your best friend."

Would I still be at home if I had made you happy? Hitting me didn't make me learn how.

Would I still be at home if you had taken the time to care for me and teach manners to me? You didn't pay attention to me after the first week or so, but I spent all my time waiting for you to love me.

I died today.

Love, Your Puppy.

107718  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2007-11-02
Written: (6208 days ago)
Next in thread: 107887, 107888, 107889, 107890, 107891, 107892

Decisions , Decisions and a truth full of ♥lies♥,
L.i.f.e is forgotten, dead, and gone from your eyes
[How|can|you|fly] from Hell if the wind isn't blowing?
You were broken beaten from the start, and yet you're still going
♥Broken|| and ||faithless♥, your life's sad [♫song♫]
Repeating the chorus; past, present, and all that goes wrong
_~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~_
Stuck
behind ☺the mask☺ that is your last d|i|s|g|u|i|s|e
All along [never seeing] it would be your very...(first)...d-e-m-i-s-e


© Shauna Hanrahan, 2007
107238  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2007-10-23
Written: (6218 days ago)

Are you abused, alone?
[W.a.l.k.i.n.g] with broken bones
If you feel you've been ♥forgotten♥
Let this song guide || you || home
106301  Link to this entry 
Written about Saturday 2007-09-29
Written: (6243 days ago)

*To every guy whos never cheated....

*To every guy that's said, "Sex can wait."

*To every guy that's said, "You're beautiful."

*To every guy that was never too busy to drive across town to
see her.

*To every guy that gives flowers and a card when she is sick.

*To every guy who has given her flowers just because.

*To every guy that said he would die for her.

*To every guy that really would.

*To every guy that did what she wanted to do.

*To every guy that regrets hurting her.

*To every guy that cried in front of her.

*To every guy that she cried in front of.

*To every guy that holds hands with her.

*To every guy that kisses her with meaning.

*To every guy that hugs her when she's sad.

*To every guy that hugs her for no reason at all.

*To every guy who would give up their jacket for her.

*To every guy that calls to make sure she got home safe.

*To every guy that would sit and wait for her for hours just to be
able to see her for ten minutes.

*To every guy that would give up his seat.

*To every guy that just wants to cuddle with his special movie
partner... and not fall asleep

*To every guy that reassured her that she was beautiful no
matter what...

*To every guy that believes in her.

*To every guy who told his secrets and fears to her.

*To every guy that tried to show how much he cared through
every word and every breath.

*To every guy that thought maybe this could be the one.

*To every guy that believed in her dreams.

*To every guy that would have done anything so she could
achieve them.

*To every guy that never laughed at her when she told him her
dreams.

*To every guy that walked her to her car.

*To every guy that wasn't just trying to get LAID!!!!

*To every guy that actually listened.

*To every guy that gave his heart only to have it shoved back in
his face.

**TO EVERY GUY THAT PRAYS THAT SHE IS HAPPY EVEN IF YOU
ARE NOT WITH HER.

Not all girls appreciate nice guys. There's not many left out there...

105927  Link to this entry 
Written about Saturday 2007-09-22
Written: (6250 days ago)

Month One
Mommy, I am only 8 inches long, but I have all my organs. I love the sound of your voice. Every time I hear it, I wave my arms and legs. The sound of your heart beat is my favorite lullaby.

Month Two
Mommy, today I learned how to suck my thumb. If you could see me, you could definitely tell that I am a baby. I'm not big enough to survive outside my home though. It is so nice and warm in here.


Month Three
You know what mommy, I'm a girl!! I hope that makes you happy. I always want you to be happy. I don't like it when you cry. You sound so sad. It makes me sad too, and I cry with you even though you can't hear me.


Month Four
Mommy, my hair is starting to grow. It is very short and fine, but I will have a lot of it. I spend a lot of my time exercising. I can turn my head and curl my fingers and toes, and stretch my arms and legs. I am becoming quite good at it too.


Month Five
You went to the doctor today. Mommy, he lied to you. He said that I'm not a baby. I am a baby mommy, your baby. I think and feel. Mommy, what's an abortion?


Month Six
I can hear that doctor again. I don't like him. He seems cold and heartless. Something is intruding my home. The doctor called it a needle. Mommy what is it? It burns! Please make him stop! I can't get away from it! Mommy! HELP me!


Month Seven
Mommy, I am okay. I am in Jesus's arms. he is holding me. He told me about abortion. Why didn't you want me mommy?


Every Abortion Is Just...
One more heart that was stopped. Two more eyes that will never see. Two more hands that will never touch. Two more legs that will never run. One more mouth that will never speak.


.::If you're against abortion, repost this::.

105848  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2007-09-20
Written: (6252 days ago)

Fallen, broken, simply dissolved into an incomplete thought. An empty shell, cracked and disfigured. With no remorse I have been blinded by the darkness; with no disdain, I have recieved my punishment. And with no haste, I await them...


I see Fallen Angels, when I try to go to sleep! And their always watching...I've seen Fallen Angels, as I'm walking through the streets; Silently preparing, what they'll do to me!
104787  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2007-08-26
Written: (6276 days ago)
Next in thread: 105223

Ra - Don't Turn Away lyrics

Under the sun I stand
Over the wings of Fallen Angels
I can't believe the things you show me
In my dreams I have you next to me
Forever gone is love
Out of control I fall in trenches
And if you leave me empty
How will I design the world I need
In your eyes you see it done
Colors drained away like water
Distance all but disappears
And nothing can be done
Don't, Don't turn away
Don't let it take you over
You cannot give in
Don't let it take you over now
And in your eyes I catch
A tiny glimpse of heaven calling
You try to stay in touch but can you
End what has no real beginning
In your eyes you see it done
Colors drained away like water
Distance all but disappears
And nothing can be done
Don't, Don't turn away
Don't let it take you over
You cannot give in
Don't let it take you over now
And I walk away
I leave you right where you stand
I'll never regret all that I said to you
But you never turned away
You never turned away
You never turned away
You never turned away
Don't, Don't turn away
Don't let it take you over
You cannot give in
Don't let it take you over now
Don't, Don't turn away
Don't let it take you over
You cannot give in
Don't let it take you over now
And I walk away
I leave you right where you stand
I'll never regret all that I said to you
But you never turned away
You never turned away
You never turned away
You never turned away
Don't, Don't turn away
Don't let it take you over
You cannot give in
Don't let it take you over now

101149  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2007-06-20
Written: (6344 days ago)

Well, I looked and it said that this diary was "sad and empty", giving me a rather pathetic guilt trip. So, I am writing in it! DON'T BE SAD AND EMPTY, LITTLE DIARY!! TIS OKAY!!! *strokes lovingly*

...


Okay so anyways...this is my new username, though I am not a new user of Elfpack. My other account is [Psycho7907], and long, long story short my account was hacked and I can no longer access that account. Feel free to look on that page for some cool stuff, but don't leave a message since I will not be able to get back to you.
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