Oh tear of my soul why do you hurt me?
Causes my mind to be disarray in spell of season upon me,
Why cause me this pain? Are you happy? I'm broken....
My soul, my heart, my faith, my love is broken. Are you happy now?
Oh my tears you can spill free from my soul now...I give you your freedom...run free...run free!
Oh wait no come back and never go. I shall not let you go.
My pride bands me from setting you free, oh my tears I am sorry but you'll never run free.
Not as long as my pride controls me....pride of my life, soul, heart, faith and love.
My pride is strong it will keep me from being weak even tho I hurt on the inside even tho I keep smiling on the inside.
By Michelle Louise Pratley
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Right well I'll be leaving a few rpgs because I feel like I'm getting left behind but I also don't want to be the cause of some rpgs dieing. So yeah sorry.
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Right my boyfriend troubles are getting better because he is talking to me about his worries and everything but we're talking over text. I'm just glad that he is talking to me about what is worrying him but I'm still not happy about the flirting he is doing or the fact he never cuddles me at college but we'll see if that emproves on monday or not.
Well I've got boyfriend troubles. My boyfriend is being a dickhead. You know how I'm a person who likes their space and to give others their space as well? Well thats what I've been doing with my boyfriend, I don't want to seem like a needy girlfriend. My boyfriend is in the same class as me at college, so we see each other every day but we're not that coupley at college...well not all the time. I sometimes hardly talk to him when I'm having a laugh with my mates or if I'm in a bad mood. If I want a hug or cuddles I go to him and get them but he never hugs or cuddles or kisses me at college but when we are on our own he is cuddley and everything. But this week I've been giving him his space because on monday he wouldn't talk to me when he was upset, I knew something was wrong so I left him to sort his head out. But I asked a friend in my class to talk to him and he has been talking to her. He says the spark his gone between us and that the date we went on didn't go the way he wanted even tho I was upset and in a bad mood the date of our date. So that upset me when Cherene, my friend, told me that. But on wednesday we where so coupley and everything but today he sat next to a girl in my class called Karice and she fancey's him even tho she has a boyfriend. And they where flirting! Now I'm a naturaly born flirt and everyone knows that but he isn't a flirt at all! And that pissed me off that they where flirting in front of the whole class and in front of me!
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I got out of college early again so I'll be back online in about an hour and 20 mins :-D
Today was really emotional for me because of my gloomly boyfriend. He hasn't been his normal self, I mean mondays I'm use to him being grumpy because he hates mondays like most people do.Before I went for lunch I hugged him and asked what was wrong because he was more grumpy than normal and he looked upset as well. He told me that he didn't want to talk to me about it, and that hurt me. I felt so upset that he couldn't talk to me about it but then a reminded myself that when he is ready he will talk to me. So I left him to be all gloomy and I asked Cherene a girl in my class to talk to Chris because he trusts her. And I found out that he feels like the spark bewteen me and him has gone...and that our date two weeks ago didn't go as he planned. But I was really tired that day because I didn't get enough sleep, also people in my class where coming to me with their problems and that just put me in a even darker mood than I was already in. So by dinner I just really wanted to go to Sean and Racheal's because it's like a save place for me to be where I don't have to worry about anything. And he asked Cherene if I talk about him, which I do...alot. I'm just worried that I'm losing him. I just feel like crying...I've never felt like this not even when I was dating Anna, my ex girlfriend. I just wish he would talk to me about it but I know he won't, I want to talk to him about it but I know he will just push me away. So I've been giving him his place alot of space, I haven't been hugging, kissing or anything with him. But if he does break up with me I will let him go because I won't force him into staying with me but I'll still be his friend.
I'm sorry I've been ranting and none of you need to be bothered with my problems but...I just needed to get it all out...right am going to cry for a little bit...
How I feel right now....just sad...and worried.... http://www.you
Right am not aloud to leave too early but I'll be getting out in 2 hours then I'll get ma bus back home :-D so I'll be online an hour earlyer than normal :-D
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Right YOU all need to know this cause some of you might be happy or annoyed lol
Anyways if you remember when I went back to college after the x-mas hols, I came home early on a tuesday thats because I can't do higher maths or english because I'm on a lower course so they can't make me to the tests. So there is really no point me even going in for maths and english on tuesdays. So my college teacher, Sharon was meant to ask Ann the head of the business course to find out if I can leave college early on tuesdays, well Sharon forgot but she talked to Ann yesterday so I'll find out today. I'll put up a diary entry saying if I'm coming home or not after my 10am break :D So keep in mind that I might be able to get online earler than normal :)
Join my new rpg -----> Cartoon Land :D
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Right I have a test on Monday so I have to go study now but I'll be back later :)
Hey guys :)
Right I have a few things I need to get done today before I never rp properly!
List of things to do:
~ Wash the dishes >.<
~ Clean my room (which will never happen lol)
~ Go pay some bills (store cards are evil >.<)
~ See if my ordered books have arrived at the book store :D and get some flash cards to quiz myself on college stuff :/
Ummmm.....yeah thats pretty much it, so yeah I'll be back as soon as I can :D
Join my new rpg ==========> North Berwick :D
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Right well I'll be back home tomorrow about 3-ish in the afternoon my time. I just thought you would all like to know that :D So yeah I'll see ya all tomorrow when I get home ^^
Thanks with love
Michelle xxxxxxxxxxxxx
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Right well as some of you know I kind of got the wrong dates of mine and Chris's two month anniversary, well tomorrow is mine and Chris's two month anniversary :D He is taking me to dinner after college then we'll be catching the bus to Chirnside with my mate Robert to hang out with mates. So I will NOT be online until late Sunday afternoon (my time).
I will be online just before I go to college :D
I'm well happy cause I got out of college early! Since I am doing higher maths and english my teacher can't give me tests, so it's is pointless me even being in those classes! So I'll finish college at 12! How awesome is that?!?! :D
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Right well I haven't been getting much sleep this whole week because I'm having to get back into the college routen sleeping pattern. And right now my eyes are falling closed like every few mintues. So I'm going to sleep but I'll be back in the morning (my time). Night All :)
Okay things are better. Chris told me this morning over texts while I was on the bus that he was coming in today and that he wasn't going to drop out of college, even if he failed Phil's test. Oh! Both me and Chris passed our test in Phil's class! :D Anyways I did talk to my college teacher and she told me that I should ask my admin and business teachers for advice but she thinks I should go for admin course next year. So I'm leaning that way at the moment. I'll think over it this weekend when I'm visiting Sean, [**Yummy**Mummy**], the godkids and my bf Chris.
Oh! And I almost forgot that today isn't mine and Chris's two month anniversary, it's in about 9 days. I just got the dates mixed up hahahahaha! I had such a blonde moment lol xD And yes if you are wondering I did get lots of cuddles and one kiss off him today :D
*sighs* Boyfriend problems!!!
My boyfriend, Chris, he texted me when I had just got asleep saying that he won't be in college today and asked me to texted him if he passed the test we did in class yesterday. So I texted him saying I'll call him but he never picked up, so I finially told him why dose he think he'll fail? He told that he wasn't good at computers and he wanted to do an Art course. So I getting kind of annoyed and very tired. So I tryed to call two more times and he still didn't pick up. SO I said I would help him with databases and spreedsheets, and told him that he HAS to be in college today. So hopefully he will be because I'm going to have a talk with that boy! Grrrr...and if life wasn't bad enough am worrying about what course to do next year. And my mum might lose her job because her boss doesn't think she is fit to work, so she is going to a doc soon to see if she is or isn't fit to work. What a great way to start my two month anniversary with Chris :/ I better get a hug and a kiss today off him!!!!
Got a big scare today at college! On the 21st of March is when you have to have your College application form in. My college class was told that this year will be hard to get into, there will be fierce competition to get into college next year. I was like all "Oh my fucking god!" I couldn't believe that I have until March, which may seem a long time away but it's not, to pick a course I want to do next year. So I have picked two courses but I can't choose which one tho! It's either NC Administration & IT or NC Business & IT. Grrrrr......ha
Oh But I have good news! On Tuesday 11/1/11 will be mine and my bf, Chris's two month anniversary! :D I know I'm so happy but I just hope we last...
Hey guys *yawns*
Sorry but I have been up for 20 hours and I really need to get some sleep. So yeah I'm going to bed now but I'll be back online when I wake up :) Night
Thanks with love
Michelle xxxxxxxxxxx