haha could this really be happening...i've been lied to the whole fucking time. am i seriously that dumb...umm yes i am. why even put myself out there if all i do is get lied to and hurt ...well you know what i say fuck it and fuck them...words mean absolutely nothing anymore....you really gotta prove shit to me now..i'm to the point that I CAN DO BAD ALL BY MYSELF...WHY THE FUCK DO I NEED YOU TO MAKE SHIT WORSE....oh well fuck it..if you true to me and down wit me, then i love you for that but if you a fake ass fucker...GET THE FUCK OUT MY LIFE...I DON'T NEED YOU

[Really could my life be anymore fucked up than it already is? I sit here day to day just wondering if there is something more I can do with my life. Hey I do go to school, that's a lot more than others can say. I use to have a job before those big time companies bought us out and fired everybody. My phone broke and i can't afford a new one [THAT MEANS TO ALL THE DING DONGS THAT LIKES TO CALL ME...DON'T!!! GET IT NO PHONE..MEANS NO TXT OR CALL CUZ I WON'T GET BACK TO YOU] My family is going through some hard times. I really have no one here with me to help me through this. Well I do have someone(s) April [☆♫♥Mrs.Pitbull 74♫♥☆] and jazz [Dopped up cracker] and krys [loveex3] plus my favorite fag austin [the one you don't know] and my wiccan lauren [~Get a taste of religion_Lick a witch~]but damn there is days that I really don't want to be here and today is one of those days....i really don't know what to do...hey I am looking for a job but the job i had was more than enough to pay for my classes and my books for the semester...oh well its pretty sad that this is my first diary entry and it sounds like this...haha oh freakin well I'll find a way out.