Hmmm diary yeah... i think i'm going to redo my house... again! =P coz i feel like it yeah! XD and bleh watching most haunted series 7 ^^ so meh.
[-Brown eyes-]
STRAIGHT UP PIMPS!!!!!Sexy as hell,people with brown eyes are very attractive, adorable, love to make new friends. Will do anything for that special person. Kind and polite Can make anyone laugh or cheer them up. Best in bed can last for days.....way better than hazel eyed people.....Lov
yeah lol thats me! =P
Trying to hold things together,
When they keep falling apart,
Trying to fix it with tape,
And i've no idea where to start.
As one thing is fixed,
A hundred others break,
And i still don't know what to do,
Or how to get through each day.
bleh bleh BLEH!!!!!!!
yeah... i feel crap at the moment.. achey and tired as hell.. tired physically AND emotionally. I think i'm going to go crazy... or at least i'll be a wreck for the next 8 weeks. Seriously so much shit going on and no one to talk to. I just want someone to hug me and listen and tell me how to fix things... but that's not going to happen so. yeah. life goes on i'll get through it. Just have to keep away from people when i'm down and remember how great the ups are. balance. LOL.
Nikki made me laugh today, she said that despite the fact we've got similar sorts of stuff going on in our lives (as far as friends go) i always seem so calm and okay. She said i must be so churned up and torn apart inside. I think she knows me really well. She's the only person i know who just understands me, even if we don't talk all that much. It was nice chatting to her. <3
School was average. Life is average. Where's my knight in shining armour hay? To make everything seem amazing and make me see things with new eyes. Coz at the moment i could use a different perspective on things. I'm throwing my life away so much. Killing myself in a way. Maybe they were right. *sigh* ahh well i've never given up and i'm not starting now. onwards!
ENGLISH ESSAY DONE!!!!
and i am an official blood donor now!! I'm going to give blood at the end of the month which is something i've always wanted to do. Going to sign up to be an organ donor as well. I figure that the least i can do is help other's out when i die. Life is a gift and one i intend to pass on. After all i'm going to be cremated anyways. There's no need to burn parts of me that other's may need. ^_^ It's the whole circle of life thing, one thing dies to give life to another. I don't need to leave a legacy behind me, just knowing that if i die my death was useful is good enough for me! =D
and I AM ALMOST HALFWAY THROUGH MY ESSAY!! for english coursework yeah!! I'm feeling pretty chilled.. should finish the essay tonight and i've done my maths so i just need to check over my chem paper and i can do art all tomorrow and then school! I'm actually pretty organised.. i have quite a bit of work for my art exam so i'm not worried at all, going to do some in my free on monday.. so 2 hours of art a day.. makes 10 hours this week to do AO3 and then exam next week!! Lol i plan to spend the exam gluing and sticking! XD XD
Josh came over for a couple of hours too.. said he was bored coz no one would go to chester with him! Bless! XD lol Although all he did at mine was get bullied and watch TV while i pottered on the PC and slept! XD OHHH!! yeah in 2 weeks today i'm going to give blood! :o and then i plan to go to chester and get a piercing.. think i might have to have my nose re-done.. although i might do it myself.. but after i've given the blood! woooooo!! lol I've wanted to give blood for ages and seeming as Jim did and survived i thought i could too!! lolz and i shall watch as they drain away a pint of my blood!! hehe!! XD
So yeh i'm cheeery XD
you know what? The japanese-y looking guy from Elliot Minor is HOOOT!!! *drools* yeah... <_< Love their music too!! XD
I want some more people in my little family so come on guys and message me with what you'd like to be!! X3 (check the family section on my ET page!)
Okay i just got off the phone with Jim.. after an hour 15 minutes my LONGEST phone convo ever and we could have gone on longer if my phone hadn't run out of charge! ;_; He has such a sexy voice! X3 I think i've fallen in love with it! XD Bless him he cheered me up, he's so easy and fun to talk to, we just rambled about everything swapped tales of injuries and life experiances! ^____^ Plus the shopping.. ahh my day has been AMAZING!!!! <3 <3 i'm so happy i could sing and dance like a loon.. but i won't coz that would be painful! XD For everyone involved!
So yeah!!! I could explode with happiness right now!!
I think i might have to go lie down coz i have a pounding headache... >.<
Mwahahaha i went shopping, walked into town and it was goood! Didnt take long.. now i'm avoiding english coursework! :o as usual....
Anywho got a new dress thing which is gorgeous and £30 worth of make up coz i'm cool like that! XD Yeah all problems can be made better by spending money!! I'm going to wear the dress to school monday.. maybe over jeans maybe not!! XD
In other news i am fed up of being hit on... and harassed via PM by 30 year old guys.. =____= GO AWAY!! lol this is irrelevant to all youz my friends because you know i loves you all! X3
4 messages in the time to write that last entry??? how can that be i only have 1 online friend??? :o
rawr!! XD
I'm off for some retail therapy.. only in my local town, going to walk down (keeping my weight down ya see) and see if this dress i want is still in the shop!! It's so pretty and at heart i love my dresses.. like mega much! XD Plus i need to get out and get rid of some stress.. haven't done much except art for days now and as if that isn't enough i have science and maths papers to work on =___= bleh and exams in about 6 weeks! HELP ME!!!
Art exam is a week on tuesday and i have an engineering presentation two weeks today which should be fuun! I hope we win soe prizes i could do with the cash!! =/ lol!!
I'm having a bit of a teenage crisis at the moment and i really can't wait to get back to school and keep myself busy.. too much time to think at home! And thinking is not good!! Although everything is going to be okay... you know why? My darling Jim is going to ring me today! X3 lol yeah something as simple as that makes my day, but he really is my angel and i can't wait to speak to him! And i hate phones! :o lol
So yeah!! retail therapy, walking and hopefully complete my targets for today! English essay - complete or at least half done, artist studies drawn, last AO1 drawing coloured. *dances* Im actually pretty happy at the moment.. :o in an odd i hate myself sorta way! XD XD
Oh yeah and i'm revamping my house!! Slowly.. just with everything else changing i thought i might change my house around a bit too! =D
lol!!!
i lost another quater of a stone!! XD ugh so much school work i can't wait to finish my AS's and disappear for a while go MIA!! so if i disappear over the summer you know why!! XD
And lol... no posts for about a month!! I love my EP diarty.. i sound so. crazy! XD XD makes me feel happy!! LOL! cheh.. i'm in an oddly bright mood and ZOMG I NEED TO UPDATE MY ET DIARY!! i forgot to tell everone the Amazon packet i'd been waiting for arrived today!! MY BOOKS ARE HERE!! YES!! *is amazingly happy*
Everyone's treating me like glass o_o off one day ill and mike puts my hood up for me coz it's raining and holly makes me promise to keep warm as i walk into town o_o XD Weird!! lol
*HEADDESK HEADDESK HEADDESK*
yeah... I UBER FAILED at my physics test and it's really got to me.. i've never failed at something i've tried so hard at before. It's so demoralising. I want so much to succeed.. and i hate failing more than anything.. *rolls eyes* personality issues...
cheh that is all.
[December 23rd~ January 1st = Red]
[January 2nd ~ January 11th = Orange]
[January 12th ~ January 24th = Yellow]
[January 25th ~ February 3rd = Pink]
[February 4th ~ February 8th = Blue]
[February 9th ~ February 18th = Green]
[February 19th ~ February 28th = Brown]
[March 1st ~ March 10th = Aqua]
[March 11th ~ March 20th = Lime]
[March 21st = Black]
[March 22nd ~March 31st = Purple]
[April 1st ~ April 10th = Navy]
[April 11th ~ April 20th = Silver]
[April 21st ~ April 30th = White]
[May 1st ~ May 14th = Blue]
[May 15th ~ May 24th = Gold]
[May 25th ~ June 3rd= Cream]
[June 4th ~ June 13th = Grey]
[June 14th ~ June 23rd = Maroon]
[June 24th = Grey]
[June 25th ~ July 4th = Red]
[July 5th ~ July 14th = Orange]
[July 15th ~ July 25th = Yellow]
[July 26th ~ August 4th = Pink]
[August 5th ~ August 13th = Blue]
[August 14th ~ August 23rd = Green]
[August 24th ~ September 2nd = Brown]
[September 3rd ~ September 12th = Aqua]
[September 13th ~ September 22nd = Lime]
[September 23rd = Olive]
[September 24th ~October 3rd = Purple]
[October 4th ~ October 13th = Navy]
[October 14th ~ October 23rd = Silver]
[October 24th ~ November 11th = White]
[November 12th ~ November 21st = Gold]
[November 22nd ~ December 1st = Cream]
[December 2nd ~ December 11th = Grey]
[December 12th ~ December 21st = Maroon]
[December 22nd = Teal]
[*RED*] Cute and lovable type, You are picky but always in love...and liked to be loved. Fresh and cheerful, but can be "moody" at times. Capable with people nice, soft, and that can love you for the way you are. Likes people that are easy to talk to and can make you feel comfortable. >
[*CREAM*] Competitive and sportive. Don't like losing and always cheerful! You are trustworthy, and very out going. You choose love carefully, and don't fall in love easily. But once you find the right one, you don't let go for a long time.
[*TEAL*] You are mostly interested in your looks. And have high standards in picking love. You think and make a solution precisely, and hardly make stupid mistakes. You like to lead and it is easy for you to make new friends.You are very competitive and love to be first.
[*GREY*] You are attractive and active. You never hide your feelings and express everything that's inside. But can be selfish at times. You want to be noticed, and don't like to be treated unequally. You can brighten up peoples day. You know what to say at the right time and you have good sense of humor.
[*GREEN*] You get along well with new people. You are not really a shy person, but sometimes you can hurt people's feelings by your words... You like to be loved and noticed by your lover, but mostly you are single, waiting for the right person.
[*GOLD*] You know what's right and what's wrong. You are cheerful and out going. It's hard for you to find the one you want, but once you find the right person, you won't be able to fall in love again for a long time.
[*PINK*] You are always trying your best in everything, and like to help and care for other people. But you are not easily satisfied. You have negative thoughts, and you look for romantic love like in a fairytale.
[*YELLOW*] You are sweet and innocent. Trusted by many people and have a strong leadership towards relationships. You make good decision and make the right choice at the right time. And always dreaming of romantic relationship.
[*MAROON*] You are intelligent and know what's right. You like to make things go your way, which can sometimes cause trouble for not thinking about other people's feelings. But you're patient when it comes to love. Once you get a hold of the right person, it's hard for you to find a better love.
[*ORANGE*] You are responsible for your own actions, and you know how to treat people. You always have goals to reach and you really work hard to get there, you are competitive. Your friends are really important to you and you appreciate what you have, you sometimes over react that's because you are sensitive.
[*PURPLE*] You are mysterious, never selfish and get interested in things easily. Your day can be sad or happy depending on your mood. You are popular between friends but you can act stupid at times, and forget things easily. You go for a person that's trustworthy.
[*LIME*] You are calm, but easily stressed out. You get jealous easily, and complain over little things. You can't get stuck into one thing, but you have a capable personality for everyone to trust you and like you.
[*SILVER*] You are imaginative and fun, you love trying new things. You like to challenge yourself and you learn things easily, you're easy to talk to and you give good advice. When it comes to friendship, you find it hard to trust someone, but once you find the right friend, you trust them forever.
[*BLACK*] You are challenging, and have the "guts". But you don't like changes in your life. And once you make a decision, you keep it that way for a long time. Your love life is also challenging, and different.
[*OLIVE*] You are warm and light hearted. You seem to flow well with friends and family. You don't like violence and know what's right. You are kind and cheerful, people that are easy to talk but don't envy other people easily.
[*BROWN* ]You are active and sportive. It's hard for other people to become close with you, but you fall in love easily. But once you find out you can't get something, you give up and let go easily as well.
[*BLUE*] You may have low self-esteem, and can be very picky. You are artistic and like to fall in love, but you let your love pass by, by loving with your mind, not your heart.
[*NAVY* ]You are attractive, and love your life. You have a strong feeling towards everything. And very easily distracted. Once you get angry at someone, its hard for you to forgive them.
[*WHITE* ]You dream and have goals in your life. You get jealous easily and you don't react to things easily. You are different and sometimes weird, but everyone loves that in you.
[*AQUA* ]Your feelings change suddenly and easily. You are always lonely, and like traveling. You are truthful, but listen and believe other people too easily. It's hard to find love for you, and you get lost in love easily, Sometimes get hurt by love
I'm pink... and it's so bloody true o_o hopless romantic.. never satisfied... negative thoughts.. tries hard.. cares about people.. cheh.. o_o surprisingly accurate..
lol... and the update for tomorrow never appeared o_o i can only assume i was fine and too busy trying to survive school to do anything about it! XD Anywho next couple of weeks are going to be buuuusy! XD
*Beki's birthday on friday
*Away Next Tuesday to Thursday in Bangor
*Buffet a week on sat
*Manchester a week on sun
*X-mas eve
*CHRISTMAS DAY!! and then all hell breaks loose and i think the rellies are invading.. o_O i will be so FAT i swear i am going to the gym the first day it is open after x-mas.
This is of no relevance but my gym plan for the next few weeks is this:
This wednesday, Sunday class, Next Monday and Thursday and then who knows... XD lol Anywho should be fun!! I can't wait!! *dances* cheh!
*ish becoming more active again*
yeah so today.. pretty lazy day.. I got up late spent most of the day finishing reading the Hot Gimmick chapters that were scanlated.. buuut they haven't got the latest volume up >.< mega annoying. I waaant to know how it ends!!! It's got really really good and complicated and ahhh! >3< *fumes* stupid slow scanlation.
Anyways appart from that i have a cold.. and it's annoying me.. i sound like a hippo in a birthday cake... seriously.. bunged up nose, headache.. feels like someone's crawled into my brain and stuffed it up with insulation.. MY HEAD DOESN'T NEED INSULATING!!! GO AWAY!!!! yeah that is all.. plus my mum keeps nagging at me about school and i hate it >.< I wish she'd just leave me alone sometimes.. i don't need her going on about homework an how i need to carry on with 5 AS levels until the mocks at least. GRRRR!! majorly.. So yeah then she came in and forced me to sit with my dad and go over my physics homework which i MARJORLY didn't get... i sorta understand it now.. which is better i guess..
but i yelled at my mum, as she was leaving she went "There's a pen and paper there if you want it."
I yelled: "I KNOW! IT'S MY BLOODY DESK I PUT IT THERE!!" She was acting like she'd got it for me when all she'd done is stated that there were items on my desk that had been there for weeks.. i was perfectly aware of their existance ffs.
Yeah i'm slightly stressed now.. so i think i'm going to bed so i don't take it out on my friends tomorrow.. i need to start sleeping more anyways. But yeah so much work to do.. English Lit essay tomorrow *yawn* then the gym which is good and when i get back i have to type up notes on Antony and Cleo and write up a Physics experiment... =___= BOORING.. But cheh... 4 weeks till x-mas *squee* i'm so excited i feel really christmassy this year! 2 months till my bday. London on thursday, chester saturday, party saturday evening! <3 lots to look forward too i guess.. just need to get work out of the way and stop leaving things to the last minute so i get all stressed about them.. and sleep *nods*
Anyways on that note i'll update tomorrow! night! xxx
wow it's been so long since i wrote in a diary.. i shall do a short up-to-dater thing.. yeah <_<
Caving = BLIDDY AWESOME!!!!! It rawked my world.. loveed it! And the people are great hope to see them all in Feb!
Half Term = PHAIL.. i didn't get round to sorting out my life.. finished my room though and went to the Pleasure Beach in Blackpool with Beki which was awesome..
School = STRESSFUL!!! Still working hard at 5 AS levels.. Engineering and a load of other crap..
in other news i've joined the gym which is awesome! Art trip on Thursday! X3 My room is tidy.. still a bit bleh about stuff in general but nothing anyone needs to worry or care about.. i'm ranting at Molly about it and she's being awesome can't wait to see her soon!!! Mangavolume is phailing at the moment which is crap..
Mike's party was awesome!! So was ruth's.. and Tanz's next weekend plus x-mas shopping which should be cool! yayz! It's freezing here.. we had snow on sunday night.. zomg best day EVER!! Sunday night had the snow which was great then monday chilled day at school and then me and Beki went to Chester for a manga con.. we went to look at the market which was cooleh! Some mad swiss guys forced chocolate and hot chocolate on us.. it was so funny! XD The con was great we had an amazing time and stole some oragami boxes which we wore as hats!! coz we're that cool! XP lolz
okays i need to head to bed now.. i'm shivering my ass off!! =( One last thing that Beki will get:
YOUR FACE!!!
<_< >_>
xxx