I didn't go to chester i slept in by accident! >.< lol but on the plus side i'll have been payed by the time i go next week! =D more money! yay!
I did go for a long walk.. it was ALOT of fun! I'll put pictures up soon *nods*
Oh and i split up with my boyfriend (i dumped him) and i feel so relieved not to have to worry all the time about whether i'm going out with him for the wrong reasons. I didn't realise until now how much it was weighing over my head. I'm sorry if any of you think i'm a bitch.. i probbably am but that aside i always think that if you're not a bit selfish in relationships you get stuck doing everything for the other person and being miserable yourself. I talked to him about it a couple of weeks back but nothing changed it didn't get better so i got out. Thats just me.
I'M GOING TO CHESTER TOMORROW!!! lol XD
on the spurr of the moment i'm going to go have my nose pierced and meet up with some friends and.. cheh.. just have a good time with a different crowd of people.. i need to do something without plannig it and arranging. I have chantelle's number so i'm going to text her when my nose is done and go meet up with her and hopefully cal and gemma and people! ^_^
I have nothing of relevance to say except i love my EP house.. it's very uncluttered and to the pointg! =D yay.. although i need to write a bit about me.. at the moment i just sound like some myvi obsessed ninja loon.. which is mostly true!
ZOMG!! The Anti-Prom It rawked so much! well what i can remember of it did! X3
wow i actually have quite a few diray entries here.. o___O i don't rant much on EP.. but seeming as the libary pc is being nice nad letting me online i might as well have a ramble. That and [Beki in Wonderland] missed her bus and won't be meeting me till about 12:30.. so peh! ^__^
OMG!! i had issues last night.. hyper and mellowed out on rum. So yeah.. you know how i can tell? I said i'm going to bed coz it's s:so instead of 3:30 (am) -_- i'm amazed i managed to type anything of worth.. anyways back to revision i guess!
Copy and pasted from ET (coz i'm lazy! XD)
*is trying not to yell and scream and bounce off walls as parents are asleep and are likely to kill if woken*
<.< yeah.. explination? right? well whether you want one or not you're getting one.. so woop de doo! *dances* okay.. in the spirit of things..
fine thanks i enyojed your photo so iwant meet you .... i am in msn messanger now my email adress yalniz_ferdi@h
... i have several problems with this message..
1)he enjoyed my photo? I DO NOT want to know how he was "enjoying" my photos... PERVERT.
2)meet me? yeah he wishes.. 1st i don't meet people i'm not friends with and 2nd i don't want to end up one of those lost rape victims.. so no thank you.
3)he is in messenger? I would be worried.. something is seriously wrong if he managed to fit in a computerised messaging programme.
4) NO under no circumstances do i give a person my msn after 2 messages.. especially not if it's after a message like that..
*shakes head* I need to find a "I do not want to be harassed be strange guys who care about nothing but sex." sign.
1. Do you remember the person you first kissed?
no.. -_- *sarcasm* yeah i do.
2. Have you ever kissed someone you weren't dating?
yup
3. Ever kissed an ex after you broke up?
god no.. that just causes problems they take it too seriously
4. Have you kissed anyone in your friends list?
*looks at list *... uhh yeah XD I've kissed a couple of them.
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5. Ever cheated on someone?
<.< yeah
6. Kissed someone with a gf/bf that wasn't you?
.. i don't get this question.. is it asking if i've kissed someone other than myself???? or a 3 way kiss... i've had a 3 way kiss.. i've had a 6 way kiss.. that was interesting.
7. Ever kissed someone younger than you?
*thinks* nah i'm not in to younger guys
8. Older than you?
try everyone! xD
9. Have you ever kissed someone you didn't like?
no i don't think so.
10. Ever madeout with someone who was a really bad kisser?
.. not really bad no..
-------I'VE--K
I've kissed/been kissed by someone:
[x]on the cheek
[x]on the forehead
[x]on the nose
[x]on the lips
[x]with tongue
[x]in your room
[x]in the park
[x]in public
[]on a ride
[x]on a bench
[]upside down
[x]sitting on their lap
[x]laying down
[x]in broad daylight
[]at a fair
[x]at night
-------YOUR--L
1. The last time you kissed someone?
this afternoon
2. Was it a game (truth or dare, spin the bottle, etc.)
no
3. Was the person your age?
nope..
4. Was it a friend?
yeah
5. Do you regret this kiss?
no waay! REGRET NOTHING!
6. How many people know about the kiss?
oh gosh.. a couple.. more now lol!
1)Crushin', Interested, or in a Relationship?
... having fun! =P
2) Are you happy with where you are?
at the moment yeah i'm really happy! I have options and i don't have to commit right now.
3) When you meet the right person, do you fall fast?
what off a building "oh my god i'm in loooo....." *falls off skyscraper* ..5 seconds later *splat* and well that was the end of that i guess... stupid question.
4) Have you ever had your heart broken?
honestly? no i haven't i'm the heart breaker usually.. or pretty much always.
5) Do you believe that there are certain circumstances where cheating is acceptable?
no it never is acceptable but there are people who can live with it and people that can't. If i find myself cheating i end the relationship.. coz i'm obviously not in love with my bf.
6) Would you ever take someone back if they cheated on you?
never. They don't care about me if they've cheated.
7) Have you talked about marriage with another person?
... god no!! i'm 16 i want to have some fun before i sign my life away and become responsible.
8) Do you want children?
yeah 3 or 4.. a set of twins would be nice! XD
9) How many?
3 or 4
10) Would you consider adoption?
yeah if i couldn't have my own kids
11) If somebody liked you right now, what do you think a cool way to let you know would be?
hmm.. A kiss would be nice!
12) Do you enjoy playing hard to get?
yeah it's fun being a bit flirty and coy. make them work i say! XD
13) Be honest, do you play the "game" when you are dating?
the "game" ??? to me that is code for gay sex... so no..
14) Do you believe in love at first sight?
no.
15) Are you a romantic?
yeah but i don't think people would think i am.
16) Do you believe that you can change someone?
i believe i can try but it's not fair to change people and it often ends badly.
17) If you could get married anywhere, money not an object?
i would love to have a big traditional white wedding out in the sun in a garden, the grounds of a big rustic mansion with lots of people, flowers, children running around in pretty frocks..
18) Sex buddies - good or bad?
*shrugs* fine if you're not in a relationship and as long as you both know where you stand.
19) Do you easily give in when you are fighting?
depends if it's something i believe in strongly then no!
20) Do you have feelings for someone right now, whether they know or not?
yeh i do.
21) Have you ever wished you could've had someone but you messed that up?
no not really
22.) Have you broken a heart?
yeah..
23.)What would you do if you found ur bf/gf with another person in bed?
I'd tell them we were finished and hit them.
24.) Would you ever fight somebody over your significant other?
no whats the point if they don't choose me anyway they obviously don't care that much.
25.)What would you say about your last ex?
meh.. too serious for me.
hmm whats this? fifth entry? well i got some more friends now so i'm going to use this more often to ramble.. which i am good at! lol so recently:
*i got bitten by Viper (which hurt)
*I put a second piercing in my ear lobes (with a badge) [And i'm doing Beki's for her on saturday before the hemp fest! XD]
*Viper soaked me.. (grrrr!) which then resulted in Beki Viper and Andy slapping my arse -_- yeah i love you guys sooo much! =P
*I have a count of wives/husbands thats reached double figures
*Me and Beki are starting a webcomic
*I'm now writing 3 stories at once
*and oh yeah.. as an after thought i'm doing some revision!
lol there's a quick run down of things lately! =D woof! XD woof?? meh it seems to fit.. only don't pronounce it like a bark say it as if you've just been sat on!!
Fuck it. Fuck them all. I'm fucking done. I've had it with people. I've had it with everything. I've had it with pretending and listening. I've had it with being the one no one cares about. I've had it with always being used. I've had it. I've had it with crying and knowing no one cares.
http://www.you
GazettE - ace J-Rock band! <3 i found them thanks to this vid.. hold on i need to find the link!! In a slightly related topic Malice Mizer, Gackt, D'espairs Ray, Dir en Grey and ChthoniC are also great J-rock bands! Und here is the linkeh to the vid that explains J-Rockers:
http://www.you
Second entry.. not that anyone will read this.. i have no frieds! xD LMFAO!! hehe.. that amuses me..
anyways.. i just thought i'd have a ramble coz i feel odd today.. like i'm not really here.. callum says i'm high.. but i'm not! honest! I've only been up 3 hours.. and i want to go back to bed.. i feel like i can't cope with the world today! ARGGGGHH! I'm going insane.. i'm loosing touch with life the universe and everything.. yeah i know that was bad..
In other news i have returned! :o i have decided to try and be more active here becuase the few people i do know make me laugh! xD (yeah thats a good enough reason for me!) so meh.. you're stuck with me..
First diary entry on EP and guess what? It's a re-post this thing! >.< ahh well thats normally what i use blog/diary things for.. reposting stuff that is stupid/ranting
FRIENDS: Never ask for anything to eat or drink.
BEST FRIENDS: Helps themselves and are the reason why you have no food.
FRIENDS: Calls your parents by Mr. and Mrs.
BEST FRIENDS: Calls your parents DAD and MOM
FRIENDS: Would bail you out of jail.
BEST FRIENDS: Would be sitting next to you sayin
"We fucked up ... but that shit was fun!"
FRIENDS: Have never seen you cry.
BEST FRIENDS: Wont tell everyone else you cried...just laugh about it with you in private when your not down anymore.
FRIENDS: Borrows your stuff for a few days then gives it back.
BEST FRIENDS: Loses your shit and tells you, "My bad...here's a tissue."
FRIENDS: Only know a few things about you.
BEST FRIENDS: Could write a very embarrassing biography on your life story...
FRIENDS: Will leave you behind if that is what the crowd is doing.
BEST FRIENDS: Will kick the whole crowds ass that left you.
FRIENDS: Would knock on your front door.
BEST FRIENDS: Walk right in and say "I'M HOME!"
FRIENDS: Are only through highschool.
BEST FRIENDS: Are for life.
FRIENDS: Will be there to take your drink away from you when they think you've had enough.
BEST FRIENDS: Will look at you stumbling all over the place & say "Bitch drink the rest of that you know we don't waste."
FRIENDS: Would ignore this letter
BEST FRIENDS: Will repost this shit