Lead me to the sun        23/9/05

No strength within me
To stay alive
No strength inside
To try to survive

Cutting releases my pain
And helps me to cope
When I want to die
And have lost all hope

I am suffering from depression
An anxiety disorder too
I wont go to the doctor
I dont want it to be true

I slice away my pain
In hope of a better day
I will keep on pretending
And to God I will pray

Help me please Lord
I need a helping hand
I need an angel
someone to understand

Someone who has hope
for a better day to come
Someone who is encouraging
And can lead me to the sun



Kate

Cutting  16/7/06


I feel the cold blade run down my skin,
It helps release the feelings I hold within.
I look down at my hand as my blood flows free,
I think about all those times I wished to be anyone but me.
I’ve been raped, beaten, drugged and used,
Cutting helps me forget all the times I was abused.
I’m feeling tired and my thoughts are fading,
I’m tired of doing nothing, my life I am wasting.
I have scars on my body, my wrists and my thighs,
I cry as I slice away for each of the lies.
Im petrified of people, im scared of school,
I don’t cut myself cause I think its cool.
As I bleed out, it eases my pain,
It helps me forget and relive the shame.



Kate

Im going to fill this "Diary" with a heap of poems i've written. I hope you like them all. And if you don't i don't care and don't want to know.