I wish I knew where my orange~ nail polish was. *pout* But it's alright, I gots green instead! ^^ I'm wearing soooo much color tomorrow! Purple, green, pink, yellow, ummm...I think there's a hint of blue, and orange! :D And I don't look tacky! Woo! (I'm cool like that) xD 2 hour delay! Aka, school is tomorrow! Yay! Hmm, I wonder who's gonna be at my lunch...

I cant log in to facebook, and it's making me mad! >:(

Skin white as snow, freckles within. Hair bright hair as fire, not red, but orange. So unique, rare, don't you think? Eyes that change color with her mood, she's cute, funny and...rude. This girl stands at a height of five-seven. It's a fright. And she isn't thin, it's a sin. Her teeth aren't straight, or like pearls. Her hair, more in tangles than in curls. Her feet too big, her ears too small. I guess she isn't so pretty after all. 

I probably can sleep, but I'm choosing not to. I'm sure I could turn over and pass out in a second flat, then again, so many things about one person are buzzing in my head. I wonder if I'm obvious. Probably am. Oh well.

I'm So Ugly.
No, I'm not talking about my outter looks, but my in. I've kind of noticed it before, the little evil things I do just make me look so gross! Cussing, hating, holding grudges, and having a short temper. It's sad, and unattractive. I want to say I'm sorry to everyone who I ranted to. Especially Aiden. I'm sorry. I see you. <3

So my best friend got hit by a car. Found out this morning and freaked out. I wish I was there cause I would make him noms and be the best helper ever!

In the morning, I wanna make coffie for everyone, let his mom play with my hair, and let Aiden paint my nails. I wanna play dress up and paraide around the block. I wanna wear my orange scarf and go meet his friends. And when the coo over the scarf, I wanna proclaim that Im the Bekah behind the scarf. I wanna braid Ty's hair, then Aiden's, then try to braid them together. But most of all, I want to actually meet my best friend's face. No matter if we do those things or not, I just wish I was there...  

Oh! I wish I was in CO. with Aiden. I just need to get away from this state. I want to dance with Aiden, then show him our big chair and dresser, then get the crap outta here. I wanna go see the big blue bear, and the foxes. I want to go to the mall, and play in the snow. Later, I wanna step out onto his roof and gaze up at the stars, I wanna make a cake that would send you to the dentist just looking at it. I wanna snuggle with Aiden, Raja, Bigdog, and snail as we fall to sleep.

The only place in this county was here where he wasnt, until now. I've brought him here! And for what? Protection? The only protection I need, is from him!

Is dating Devin. I didnt know it was possible, but hey! I guess it was ment to be! YAY!

today I broke my computer. eeeeeeeeeee excuse the random 'e's ...the 'e' broke off and Im tring to fix it. eeeeeeeeeeee im skrewed, the 'e' wont pop back into place. Dang it. And no, glue wont fix this problem, not glue, or tape, not even duct tape would work!.. yeah I know.. its that bad.

I'm at a low point in my life right now,
Eyes stubornly fixed on him.
No I dont feel sorry for myself,
For I know I will win.
Perhaps not the one I'm seeking for,
but one's heart I will treasure for my own.
Impaient for my mystery man to come and make me his own.
But the longer I wait,
The fonder I'll be.
When we finally meet.
(yes I gave up on rhyming... and spelling)

I had a really weird dream about robbing a store, but I was smart, I only took a lil bit of money and stuffed it in my pockets. And when the fuzz came, I got down on my hands and knees and pretended I was only a victum. Which worked, and then I went home, and Devin was there, cooking. And he was mad at me cause he hates it when people steal and lie, so I was sad that he was mad, and thats when I woke up. 

Dang! Why couldn't I be 14 like the rest of my friends? Now theres no chance in hell that I'd ever date Devin. D: I know, Petifile. I am, ..well not really cause I cant help my age, and my mom is 3 years older than my dad, so I didnt think my age would matter, but I guess it does to a mom of a 14 year old son. And I see her poin of veiw. I wouldnt want my 14 year old son to date a 17 year old girl. I mean im practically a adult and he's barely a teen. But it really sucks to like someone and realize all hell and Earth is doing everything to keep you two away from each other. SUCKS! >.<!!! Majorly.

OMG! I can finally have a looonnnggg diary thing today! Im on a computer HECK YEs! But anyway...

Today I hung wih Devin, Ena, and Caitlin. It was fun, but first, Caitlin, Ena, and I went to B&N Bookstore, and I bought this book, and a small book for Devin since he couldnt be there. So after buying books, we sat outside for 2 hours, waiting for Caitlin's mom to pick us up.. and of course, I was jacketless. So i was freezing. D: But after her mom showed up, we went to the mall and met up with Devin. So yeah it was fun. I bought a DS game, and my friends bought me dots. Nom nom. ^^ I shared my dots with Devin, and of couse, being Devin, he didnt want to use his hands so I had to feed him. LOl I love him. But anyway. Yeah. Devin stole my book and I prolly wont see him until January 4th so blah.. I miss my book. But its all cool. ^^ First time in a long time I actually get out of the house and I hang with my buds. ^^ WOot woot! <4

I love how when I was finally sleeping, a dream was forming, and I was so warm and comfy, and snuggling with Bigdog... Thats when Mclovin starts barking. And of course I just kinda layed there thinking josh'll gettem. Moments passed and his barks became frantic. Thats when I hauld myself outta bed, no glasses, just caprees, and short sleeves. Grabbed his leash and my Gir shoes, and walked him in the snow. Fun. 

So I webcamed with Aiden, and saw the mountains all in the same night. ... We never could find that baby Jesus...

Best Christmas Eve ever! Today I showed Aiden the grand tour through my house, (Webcam) showed him the tree and my christmas stocking arrangment on the fire place. showed him my room, and all its messy glory. Showed him bigdog, and my shoes, and my make up station, and my christmas hats... and the hallway. It was fun. Next my bro and I went and drove around. We went to the mountains, got lost, almost got murdered by the hill-billies and did several illegal U turns and whatnot... it was amazing!

For the first time in a long time, I actually looked in the mirror and thought, "Wow, I look really pretty."

It's almost my aniversery. Friday, aka Christmas, is Bigdog's and mine's 12th aniversery! I'm so happy! (oh, please excuse the misspelling) 

D: dad
M: mom