(con) For all the times she should of said, 'no.' The girl crawled onto her bed and cried herself to sleep. Wishing that once, once things would go right. Just once would life let her be happy. Just to know what's its like to be loved, and to be cared for. To know what its like to be in love.
The girl felt an unbarable sting of saddness as she spiralled into a mild depression. "What's wrong with me?!" she cried. Tears rolling down her cheeks, a sign of failure and weakness, she thought as she brushed them away angryly. What's wrong with me? Do I not deserve love, am I not pretty enough?' These thoughts burned into her brain as she silently weapt for all the times she was forgotten, for all the times she was all alone... (to be con.)
I dunno what but i think I sleep walked last night. Its odd cause when I fell asleep, the lights were out. I woke up, and they were on. I know it was me who turned on the light cause last time I sleep walked I turned the fan. (same light switch as the light)
Maybe some day i'll believe, that we are all apart of some little plan. But tonight I just dont give a damn. So shut your mouth cause if the world is ending, I'm throwing the party!
If you're alone, then in the end, we're all together in that too...
Cooking all day for Turkey Day since my mom cant. I guess i'll just throw on an appron and play cook. Stressful day, I can tell already.
i promise to call. watching a movie right now and im about to start cooking. Talk to you soon, okay fine ill let you listen to me babble in and out of english...agai
Cooking all day for Turkey Day since my mom cant. I guess i'll just throw on an appron and play cook. Stressful day, I can tell already.
i promise to call. watching a movie right now and im about to start cooking. Talk to you soon, okay fine ill let you listen to me babble in and out of english...agai
Its 12:38am and the only one on my mind is Aiden.
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Im kinda worried about you Aiden, sorry about her. Im here for you. And i wish i could call you. :( I hate how if youre having a hard time with someone, thats when all the love songs come on the radio. :/
I 'll call sometime today, and I hope you'll feel happier later on.
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alright im gonna try to catch some shut eye.
- Bekah
oh wow. I just spent the last 2 hours sitting in a Golden Coral with my cousins. Listening to unapproperate dreams and watching my cousins and sister give themselves ice burns. Them after that I spent another 1.5 hours relaxing and listening to Rachel's ipod and playing Sonic. xD
Heading out to my state capital. 1:30 drive. talk to y'all later. :)
*crys and holds mouth in agony* I wish the dentists woulda fixed my tooth today!!! T×T
Is painting nails green! Mouth is in pain, boys suck (as usual) and I dont like devin anymore.
I gave blood today. :)
Its really not that bad. The only part that hurt is when they put in the straw like needle. (Yeah the needle was as big as a straw)
Im brused. But im afraid to take off the bandage. :P They said to keep on the bandage for 5 hours. (My bandage is purple. ^^ Its so prettyfuls. <3 I needs sleep now so bye.
Guys are just flippin' retards! Yes I feel completly secure of having this new upcoming generation to have TOTAL IDIOTS sitting around Freaking farting on random passer-byers such as myself! I mean what idiot farts on someones leg as they walk by?! (And thank you, you immature idiots out there who are laughing their heads off) But seriously...if the dude tries that stunt again tomorrow I swear I'd kick him so hard in his pea size balls, they'll turn blue! Im so glad i have some combat boots! ;D
I just figured that I cant paint nails to save my life! xD
Oh well... well i was (key word) trying to pait my nails orange, my fav color, and of course I was doing fine until I spilled the paint on my white rug. :\ And of course I tried to clean up the paint whem my nails were still wet. Dumb idea I know. So now my poor nails are a wreck. *sigh* at least theyre my fav color...
I'll sit in my room all night, waist deep in thought cause when I think of you I dont feel so alone... <3
As many times I blink, I'll think of you. Tonight.
its 12:39am & i have to wake @ 6! D: plus all i had today was 3 handfuls of chex mix, 4 cheese sticks, & a poptart.