ok today is the beginning of my new diary...

to start it off i will tell you about my friend trevor. Trevor has been my best friend since i moved here but now i am stuck all alone because he doesn't want to deal with the drama of my parents. You see, he wanted to take our relationship to the next level and i thought that would be great because i know him sooo fucking well... Then yesterday He called me up and told me about how we can't be friends or anything any more because he doesn't want the drama. well now i am depressed and my mom is about to put me in a mental facility because i get depressed so seriously... But that is all for now because i am starting to cry. SEE YA!!! ~*~*~*~*~Kayla-Nicole~*~*~*~*~*~

FAKE ASS FRIENDS: Never ask for food.
REAL FRIENDS: are the reason you have no food.
FAKE ASS FRIENDS: Call your parents Mr/Mrs
REAL FRIENDS: Call your parents DAD/MOM
FAKE ASS FRIENDS: bail you out of jail and tell you what you did was wrong.
REAL FRIENDS: Would sit next to you sayin "Damn ... we fucked up ... but that shit was fun!"
FAKE ASS FRIENDS: never seen you cry.
REAL FRIENDS: cry with you
FAKE ASS FRIENDS: Borrow your stuff for a few days then give it back.
REAL FRIENDS: keep your shit so long they forget its yours.
FAKE ASS FRIENDS: know a few things about you.
REAL FRIENDS: Could write a book about you with direct quotes from you.
FAKE ASS FRIENDS: Will leave you behind if that is what the crowd is doing.
REAL FRIENDS: Will kick the whole crowds ass that left you.
FAKE ASS FRIENDS: Would knock on your front door.
REAL FRIENDS: Walk right in and say "I'M HOME!"
FAKE ASS FRIENDS: Are for awhile.
REAL FRIENDS: Are for life.
FAKE ASS FRIENDS: Will take your drink away when they think you've had enough.
REAL FRIENDS: Will look at you stumbling all over the place and say "Bitch drink the rest of that you know we don't waste."
FAKE ASS FRIENDS: will talk shit to the person who talks shit about you.
REAL FRIENDS: Will knock them the fuck out
FAKE ASS FRIENDS: Would ignore this
[REAL FRIENDS: Will repost it ***************

THIS IS SO SWEET!!!!!
If I were to die
To pass away
To leave this world
My soul to stray,
To Forever stride
For another day
The darkness roams
And im its prey


Your love is all I need
To escape this knife
Your eyes are my gateway
To the better life
When your not here my heart continues to ache
Like a rusted dagger
My soul to take


Losing you is the pit of my fears
Missing you
sheds my tears


Holding you in my arms
Is all I need
The kiss of your gentle lips
My heart to feed


Now I must go
But theres one thing I wish for you to know.
I will always love you
For who you are
Through the tears
And all the shine in the stars
You are my angel
Sent from above
With the key to my soul
And the grasp to my love.

hearts that bleed
eyes that cry
love thats broken
do we even know why?

the sun goes down
the moon comes up
its now easier to hind the pain we feel

people talk
lies and all
oh god please let me
die in this fall!!!

off the building
i know i can jump
not scared of death
happy to go.

you cause the pain
i no longer feel
so i cut away
to make sure i am real.

i hope i die
life sucks
your a bitch
and im a "hoe"

so if we all
are equally shit.
why can't we get along?
or do i even belong?

thats the question i ask to all
please answer me
should i die from the fall???

     


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 hey hope you guys are all great today! ummmm today i found out that my old best friend ran away from home 4 days ago. although her grandma doesn't seem very worried i am. you see her storie is that her dad killed her mom then commited suicide. so she is living with her grandparents. well her grandma is the porn pitty me type and her grandpa ia an abusive acoholic. her grandma says that this is no big deal but i think different. the reason i know that it IS a BIG deal is because a couple of years ago i tried to commit suicide with her when both of our lives were hell.

so right now i am a total desaster because i am sooo sooo soooo worried. if any of you guys know any kids from kearns, utah please let me know. maybe they know somthing about my old bff trisha!

  my parents are hangingall over each other like teens. its kindof funny because now my mom seems alot happier with her NEW man. And he is a man compared to my jackass ex-stepdad Tom!!!! he won't quit following us around.
love always ~~~~kayla