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[SAM-x-buca]'s diary

106621 Link to this entry
Written about Sunday 2007-10-07
Written: (6258 days ago)

i basically think that me and tony are gonnna be broken up by the end of this weekend,.
it's been over 2 weeks since i've seen him
and i only talked to him like, 3 or 4 times.
fucking rediculas. he would tell me he's busy, and juust han gwith his friends
ugh
i dunno.
i'm really miserable right now.
and i've been crying all day
so i'm gonna give my eyes a rest
and sleep for a while.

105341 Link to this entry
Written about Sunday 2007-09-09
Written: (6286 days ago)

alright well, this is going to be a long one. i dunno what to think / do anymore. i debate whether i actually LOVE tony or not. all the poems i've put in here, are all about tony. i really care about him ALOT and i want everything to do with him, but i dunno if i can acutlly sit here and say that i LOVE him. a huge part of me thinks i do, because of how i feel around him. but when i was talking to my other friend about that, he told me "you clearly don't love him if you have to question yourself about it" but then i thought. well. you HAVE to question what love is first, in order to know if you DO love that person right? :S when i thought about it. before i told my ex boyfriend taht i loved him. but what did i really mean when i said that. i had to just sti there and think. when i think about it with tony, i would basically give my life for him. i care about him so much and i iwhs that i could just show him off ot the world becuase he's so amazing. now me and tony are 4 years apart, he's turning 20 in november, and i'm 16. most people are against the relationship because it's such a big age difference. at first, everyone ragging on me cuz of the age was really bothering me, but then i thought about it, the number between an age shouldn't have any effect of the persons feelings. it shouldn't limit it. right? i dunno, thats just how i think of it. it just sucks cuz i have so much more that i'm thinking of, but i just can't seem to sort out all my thoughts so it would make sense here. and i know no one really reads these things, i'm just mainly putting it on here just to rant. i just wish i could think of other things, but right now i'm just way too tired.

104605 Link to this entry
Written about Thursday 2007-08-23
Written: (6303 days ago)

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Number Eleven

It’s sometimes hard to believe
I’m so young, and yet
I’ve already found the boy
To spend forever with

Some of the things we went through
Were like a nightmare
But I would never give up
A single moment I ever spent with you

You opened my eyes
Made me see the beauty
In everything around me
Including myself

You opened my heart
To different emotions
That I’ve never felt before
Emotions I had no ides existed

104604 Link to this entry
Written about Thursday 2007-08-23
Written: (6303 days ago)

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Number Seven

My flaws are my perfections
My weakness is my strength
My fear is my courage
My confusions my composure

Only when I’m around you
Does any of this make sense
You showed me the light
Away from the darkness

Things are different now
In my eyes before
I was never good enough
For anything or anyone

Because of you, I realized
My imperfections are beauty
And I don’t have to change
For anything or anyone

I was a fine mess, absolutely unsure
With my eyes wide shut
Silently scream, gasping for air
Never thinking anyone could hear

But you came to me when I was lost
Showed me the path
That was right in front of me
Leading straight to you

104308 Link to this entry
Written about Monday 2007-08-20
Written: (6306 days ago)

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Number Nine

just a toke of you
takes me to this place
this high that i'm feeling, is so unreal
can't you see ;; you're simply addictive

the kiss i can't decline
the touch i can't deny
the feelings i can't describe
can't you see ;; you're simply irresistible

everything about you makes me weak
you're eyes can melt me through
as your arms help me to stand
can't you see ;; you're simply captivating

all your thoughts inside your head
hidden and kept away makes me more intrigued
to learn everything about you
can't you see ;; you're simply mystical

you keep me hooked, coming back for more
wanting you, needing you
teaching me more about yourself, and life
can't you see ;; you're everything i need.

103708 Link to this entry
Written about Friday 2007-08-10
Written: (6316 days ago)

Number Six

i want our hearts to beat as one
a soft rhythm only we can hear
i want your hand to grasp mine
and never lef me go, my dear

from the frist kiss
down to the last tear,
i would never give up a second
that i've ever spent with you

i want to freeze
every moment that im with you
every second im in your arms
every kiss that we share

you broke me out of my cage
released me from my misery
brought me to a paradise
to live, just you and i forever

you gave me air and taught me to breath
you gave me light and taught me to see
you gave me words and taught me to speak
you gave me emotions and taught me to love

you've taught me so much mroe
how joy really feels
how heartbeats really sound
how tears really taste

they say that love is a thing
which cannot be discrived
but once it's felt
it's understood completly

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