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Written about Sunday 2007-01-28
Written: (6510 days ago)

well i dont know where to start...or where to begin really...

nichole....is both...my best friend...and...and my lover really...i mean shes really...a woman...who i could only hope to have...i dunno...its just...odd...becasue...before nichole...it was just sort of "life" really...it was boring...and...long and...i seriosuly thought i was going to die alone....i mean...its almost as if...shes become...

"my day" really

...or...my goal...at the end of the day...something i know i have to come home to...and she...just doesnt make me feel lonely anymore really...and...i cant help but...need that feeling....everyday...just to talk with her...and to hear that shes loves me...is more than...anything i could need really...

i dont even feel the need to impres anybody anymore...liek i normally do...because...all i have to do is impress her...and thats all...

and...shes...she just makes me feel alive...more so...than any woman...has...ever...really...

and...i count everyday...as nothing but a blessing...that im sitll here...with her...

i love you, nichole newman...with...all my heart...because...you...get me through the day...and even though were apart sometimes...i can still remember your voice...^^...and thats all i need...<3~<3~<3~<3

i love you baby....xoxoxoxoxoxoxox...

(woh...that was hella cheesy....>.>...sorry all innocent onlookers...>.>)

93270 Link to this entry
Written about Thursday 2007-01-25
Written: (6513 days ago)

for tonight...i just...i just need some sleep really...-__-

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Written about Monday 2007-01-15
Written: (6523 days ago)

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well...so ive sort of a had this random thought about the war in Iraq, even though im not aware of the details, and i dont know everything but...i belive everything happens for a reason...i belive in "miracles" you could say. but...even though some of us hate the president,and hate what he stands for and all things about our goverment, lets not loose the often forgotten idea of our troops who walk tall,even in the worst situations, they follow orders and they do what they are told without hesitation...holding thier complete confidence in the United States, those men are partiots of the truest form...and people often lose sight of what they really are...human beings...and not machines...they have feelings...love,hate...and so do thier familys who suffer every passing moment wandering if thier children have made i through the night...or if they recieve a flag in replace of that son(s) or daughter(s)...and...i think this song really...describes that...

My Dear Son, it is almost June,
I hope this letter catches up to you, and finds you well.
Its been dry but they're calling for rain,
And everything's the same ol' same in Johnsonville.
Your stubborn 'ol Daddy ain't said too much,
But I'm sure you know he sends his love,
And she goes on,
In a letter from home.

I hold it up and show my buddies,
Like we ain't scared and our boots ain't muddy, and they all laugh,
Like there's something funny bout' the way I talk,
When I say: "Mama sends her best y'all."
I fold it up an' put it in my shirt,
Pick up my gun an' get back to work.
An' it keeps me driving me on, Waiting on letters from home.

My Dearest Love, its almost dawn.
I've been lying here all night long wondering where you might be.
I saw your Mama and I showed her the ring.
Man on the television said something so I couldn't sleep.
But I'll be all right, I'm just missing you.
An' this is me kissing you:
XX's and OO's,
In a letter from home.

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I hold it up and show my buddies,
Like we ain't scared and our boots ain't muddy, and they all laugh,
'Cause she calls me "Honey", but they take it hard,
'Cause I don't read the good parts.
I fold it up an' put it in my shirt,
Pick up my gun an' get back to work.
An' it keeps me driving me on,
Waiting on letters from home.

Dear Son, I know I ain't written,
But sittin' here tonight, alone in the kitchen, it occurs to me,
I might not have said, so I'll say it now:
Son, you make me proud.

I hold it up and show my buddies,
Like we ain't scared and our boots ain't muddy, but no one laughs,
'Cause there ain't nothing funny when a soldier cries.
An' I just wipe me eyes.
I fold it up an' put it in my shirt,
Pick up my gun an' get back to work.
An' it keeps me driving me on,
Waiting on letters from home

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91326 Link to this entry
Written about Monday 2007-01-01
Written: (6537 days ago)

happy new year...

91278 Link to this entry
Written about Sunday 2006-12-31
Written: (6538 days ago)

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sometimes the craziest of things can happen...even when you dont expect it...especially for me...and my dear nichole...it seems ive met a match for myself...^^....and im enjoying it everyday...its almost like a carnival...happening everyday....*^^*...were taking ti slow...and letting things progress more and more with each day...and...im actually enjoying her company...so much..

i know this makes me seem so vain and...i know im just gloating but...i just wanted to...say what i feel i guess...=/...

90765 Link to this entry
Written about Monday 2006-12-25
Written: (6544 days ago)

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merry christmas everyone...^^

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Written about Sunday 2006-12-24
Written: (6545 days ago)

well...it seems for me...this weekend has been the most slowest yet...and i dont know why...maybe im in anticipation of christmas...but i dont really know...i know what i got...mostly...i just dont have any idea why im somewhat excited...while getting new things is not bad...i dont know..

growing up sucks..-_-...lol

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Written about Saturday 2006-12-23
Written: (6546 days ago)

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and so another piece of random information...

if you ever find yourself caught in a tight spot...with..like "life threatening" situations(i.e. not auseless trick to use on friends for pleasure!!...XP)

well if you do have a knife with you...the best way to "subdue" an opponet without "possibly" killing him...woudl be to simply take any knife of any size really...and simply stick it into any place of the opposer...possibly the leg if you simply just want to run away and twist the knife, thereby enabling the wound to not heal and only increases pain...enough pain for him to forget about you and get a twisted knife out of his body...though if i might suggest, it woudl be better to have a "twisted" knife as seen above...to increase pain and sipleasure and only give you more time to run away...though when "finding" a place to stab said oppser... if taken form the back and held....or held in any posistion really aim for the hip...the most middle part of the begginings of the leg and the thigh so as to kill most motor fucntions...unless hes hopped up on about 5 morphine drips...

anyways...this is advice nothing more....DONT TRY THIS AT HOME...this is meant for any women or men who are in a situation!...thats all!

thanks...this...was said...for a friend

90505 Link to this entry
Written about Friday 2006-12-22
Written: (6547 days ago)

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wouldnt it be awesome to be called "shovel fighter"...?...

that woudl be prety kick ass to kill somebody, to like...fight with a shovel...0.0

>.<...sweetness....

90398 Link to this entry
Written about Wednesday 2006-12-20
Written: (6549 days ago)

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this makes me so happy....^^

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Written about Monday 2006-12-18
Written: (6551 days ago)

Snow:Red Hot Chilli Peppers

Come to decide that the things that I tried
Were in my life just to get high on
When I sit alone come get a little known
But I need more than myself this time
Step from the road to the sea to the sky
And I do believe what we rely on
When I lay it on come get to play it on
All my life to sacrifice

Hey oh
Listen what I say ohhhh oh
I got your hey oh
Now listen what I say oh

When will I know that I really can't go
To the well once more time to decide on
When it's killing me when will I really see
All that I need to look inside
Come to believe that I better not leave
Before I get my chance to ride
When it's killing me what do I really need
All that I need to look inside

Hey oh
Listen what I say ohhhh oh
Come back and hey oh
Look at what I say oh

The more I see the less I know
The more I like to let it go, hey oh
Whooooa ohh ooh oh

Deep beneath the cover of another perfect wonder
Where it's so white as snow
Privately divided by a world so undecided
And there's nowhere to go
In between the cover of another perfect wonder
And it's so white as snow
Running through a field where all my tracks will be concealed
And there's nowhere to go

When to descend to amend for a friend
All the channels that have broken down
Now you bring it up, I'm gonna ring it up
Just to hear you sing it out
Step from the road to the sea to the sky
And I do believe what we rely on
When I lay it on come get to play it on
All my life to sacrifice

Hey oh
Listen what I say oh
I got your hey oh
Now listen what I say oh

The more I see the less I know
The more I like to let it go, hey oh
Whoa

Deep beneath the cover of another perfect wonder
Where it's so white as snow
Privately divided by a world so undecided
And there's nowhere to go
In between the cover of another perfect wonder
Where it's so white as snow
Running through a field where all my tracks will be concealed
And there's nowhere to go

I said hey, yeah, oh yeah
Tell my love now
Hey, yeah, oh yeah
Tell my love now

Deep beneath the cover of another perfect wonder
Where it's so white as snow
Privately divided by a world so undecided
And there's nowhere to go
In between the cover of another perfect wonder
Where it's so white as snow
Running through the field where all my tracks will be concealed
And there's nowhere to go

I said hey, yeah, oh yeah
Tell my love now
Hey, yeah, oh yeah

i dont now exactly why i feels o frustarted right now...but im just really...annoyed at some things...and really there all pretty stupid things...even though a lot of you dont understand...im really trying to just not get mad and keep my cool but...i think what i really need is some time off...or somehting...thisng have just gotten kinda chopped and screwed...more over because of my own idiotic way of dealing with things and ive felt lie ive yelled at a couple of persons i really shouldnt have...and i appologise for that....but i dunno...my mind is just heretical right now...

yours,
The Beast

89809 Link to this entry
Written about Thursday 2006-12-14
Written: (6555 days ago)

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well it seem by a series of unfortunate events i...ahve once again throughly proved my own name....in a way...but...i guess bad things happen...when things go so well...seems to be my lot in life...

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89680 Link to this entry
Written about Tuesday 2006-12-12
Written: (6557 days ago)

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i am...doing better....today

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Written about Tuesday 2006-12-12
Written: (6557 days ago)

i seem to be...sick...of late...m not feeling very well at all...my stomach huerts...so im not planning on moving very mcuh...and i will more or less be of short temper...more than usual....i am....sorry but i just might not be in the best of moods for the night...if at all...im planning on taking a short lived holiday for tomarrow...i need to get over this sickness...

yours,

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89484 Link to this entry
Written about Saturday 2006-12-09
Written: (6560 days ago)

its snowing here now....

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Written about Friday 2006-12-01
Written: (6568 days ago)

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well...for those of you who are actually reading this for once...well...i have updated my profile...hopefully as a better suiting title and description...than what i had so vainly put before....to think that i myself called myself somehting as "Chivalry"....was ntohing but putting shame...to my own name....as i am not....for what i ahve done to someone....who willl remain secret....to which i will not utter a word of whom....but...i have been depressed...and...saddened...atwhat they are going through...though...i emant ntohing of what has happened to them...and i cant and wont ask my forgiveness form them...becasue...(as cheesy as it sounds)...i dont deserve such reassurance....

but to the point....im still the person you know...if not somewhat different....

and...thats all i have to say really....i just wanted to...somewhat update...on what and...why i changed...my own profile...and...my mood as it were...

"*covers face with hands*....im just fooling myself....what i really am....is a monster...."-Beauty and the Beast

yours...
fooled by his own misgivings....

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