So why don't I just end it? Life pretty much sux. No, There's something stopping me.

Yeah so I am prety much different. Yesterday I was weird all preppy clothes and my make-up is all pretty and everything.


Today I am wearing all black. Its totally weird.

I am crushing on a guy from a different school. I think he is really cute but others..well they think differently. I was shy at first....then i talked to him for a minute then he had to go and i started to jog around town and he honked at me. Everybody is like...teasing me. I bet shelby will tomorrow.

Lifes good for me!

Does anybody know, when your hopes and dreams get crashed? I do.
I liked this guy...and i was hoping and dreaming i wasgoingto be withhim.then i saw he has a mate. Now im crushed.
Crushed like crushing likea popcan. I feel like a tiny ant andat anytime...itsgoing to ber squished with a human shoe. I feel like nobody cares for me...that nobody likes me,that i have no friends. Everything seems so dark now. Nobody cares for this ant. Nobody knows when they are going to crush me. Even ifthey do, they wouldn't care. Thats how i feel now.



yesterday:
I wasplaying volleyball at the YMCA andi was googling at the boys there. They hadtheirshirts off when they saw us. They tooktheir shirts off right infront of us. I was staring and smirking. Then i looked at my sister andshe was down ready forthe volleyballto be spiked at her. I spiked it at her and she missed and i was like" OH YEAH!" Then she spikedit at me and she brused my arm. Now it has red dots all over and a big bruise on my arm. Then i tried to spike it at my sister, my fingersbent all the way back and snapped up and i fell backwards on my back. My fingershurt right now but at least i cantype. =\ I almost sprained my ankle when i fell. My ankle already has a bruise on it. AINT THIS JUST FOR SUMMER HUH?! Lol WHY DOES THISHAVE TO HAPPENTO ME DURING WINTER?! =]

I WANNA SEE THE HOTTEST MAN LIVING ON THIS EARTH..or...on a different planet..xD srry..im in astronomy. =] XD
=\ Idk what to do because im bored...Im really bummed out because i didn't make it into Drama, neither did nina, im srry. =[ DAMN RACHEL B! She took the part I REALLY WANTED!!!!!>=O go to hell..=\ gawd i h8 it. Nobody is going over to my house either..CAN ANYTHING GO WORSE TODAY? SERIOUSLY CAN IT? She told me personally..the drama teaher person...>=\ she wants me to be on a crew but i HAAAAD to say yes. I really...GRR!!! idk. im just really mad because i wanted that part. The part...waiter...Rhonda. >=\ THIS FUKKIN SUX MAN! I am seriously p|ssed. >=\ I really want to hurt something. PUNCH A TREE WHEN I GET HOME! That would be better. >=\

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