IN LOVE WITH MANDI!!

well, i guess this is the time that i pour my heart out on here, .....well first thing, ....there is a girl that i like,......well im in love with her, but she only knows that i like her, .....i dont want her to be all freaked out and stuff, ......i love talking to her all the time, ........i wish i could explain whats all running through my head right now, .....but i cant, its way way too incomprehensable

The only thing that stays the same, is everything changes

Life is soo unexpected and uncertain, you can be here on minute and gone the next, nobody knows exactly when there time has come, ...one day you will feel strong and invincible, the next, you can feel beaten, broken and near death, this is life tho, we all have good days and we all have bad days, some of us have been cursed with illnesses that are completely devistating, and leave us asking why, while the ones who deserve it live a full life with no troubles at all, it is the innocent that suffer for years, months, and sometimes a few days and then their life is over, its sad to see these things happen to young children, ones with disabilities, ones with incurable illnesses, ones who dont even have a fighting chance to survive another day, ....in general, life isnt all that great anymore, i mean no matter what there is always some sort of illness wheather it be leathal or non-leathal that will always nail you no matter what, why does life involve living in constant pain, in constant agony? why cant there be just one time, one time to be free of pain, free of stress, free of aching and free of being sick? .....i guess thats a question that will never get answered, but to be pondered for all of eternity

well, i have lymph node after lymph node swelling up one right after the other, ...which isnt good, ....i know its more serious than what everyone else thinks, and i know that it will ultimatly claim my life, ....not sure when, but it will happen eventually, ...... why me?

Restless Heart - Bluest eyes in Texas

That lonesome texas sun was setting slow
And in the rear view mirror, I watched it go
I can still see wind in her golden hair
I close my eyes for a moment, and I'm still there

The bluest eyes in texas
Are haunting me tonight
Like the stars fill the midnight sky
Her memory fills my mind
Where did I go wrong? did I wait to long?
Or can I make things right?
The bluest eyes in texas
Are haunting me tonight

Another town, another hotel room
Another dream that ended way too soon
Left me lonely, prayin' for the dawn
Searching for the strength to carry on

The bluest eyes in texas
Are haunting me tonight
Like the stars fill the midnight sky
Her memory fills my mind
Where did I go wrong? did I wait to long?
Or can I make things right?
The bluest eyes in texas
Are haunting me tonight

For every heart you break, you pay a price
But I can't forget the tears in her blue eyes

The bluest eyes in texas
Are haunting me tonight
Like the stars fill the midnight sky
Her memory fills my mind
Where did I go wrong? did I wait to long?
Or can I make things right?
The bluest eyes in texas
Are haunting me tonight

NEWS FLASH

STEM CELLS FOUND ABUNDANTLY IN FAT!!!!

holy shit, us americans must be sitting on a goddamn gold mine of them,

with valentines day coming up, and people getting stuff for the ones they love, it makes me think, ...what if that is the reason we live, just to be loved, for one to feel the greatest feeling ever, a high that cannot ever be re-created in an artificial form, people search and search for love, when it finally finds them, they dont know what to do cause then it makes them think twice on wheather or not it is real, ....dont let that happen to you, ...live for the moment, but plan for the future, cause the moment you are in right now, and that is what deicides wheather or not you will have a future

Screw drivers and Electrical outlets make for a shocking expierence

This is life the one you get, so go and have a ball, because the world dont move to the beat of just one drum, what might be right for you might not be right for some, you take the good you take the bad you take'em both and there you have my opening statement,..... sit boo boo sit

Is your hog on drugs?
how would you know?
how could you tell?
look for these here warning signs
sudden weight loss
euphoria leading to paranoia
stealitization of your things
and jibbery style oinkery what make no sense at all,
warn your hogs about the dangers of meth, before its too damn late
im Early Cuyler and that concludes my court ordered community service

i dont know whats going on with me anymore, ..i keep having this weird feeling, like if i were to blink my eyes for even a split second, that time would literally pass by me, i have been having that feeling more and more that time leaves me in the dust, and i cant quite keep up with it, ....im not saying that im not going anywhere in life, im just saying that everything around me is going faster and faster, life passes by soo quickly now that its unreal, and me......it feels as if im left behind

well, if im not on here much anymore im sorry about it, my father is moving up north here in about a week, and i will have lost everything, im still gonna try to keep my head on straight, but i dont know how long i will last with that, but i did start crying earlier today, cause i have no other way of expressing it

In 1972, a crack commando unit was sent to prison by a military court for a crime they didn’t commit. These men promptly escaped from a maximum-security stockade to the Los Angeles underground. Today, still wanted by the government, they survive as soldiers of fortune. If you have a problem, if no one else can help, and if you can find them, maybe you can hire the…A-Team. 

song lyrics that really mean somthing,

All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places, worn out faces
Bright and early for their daily races
Going nowhere, going nowhere
And their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression, no expression
Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow
No tommorow, no tommorow
And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
'Cos I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very
Mad World, Mad World 
Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday
Made to feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen, sit and listen
Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me, no one knew me
Hello teacher tell me what's my lesson
Look right through me, look right through me
And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very
Mad World, Mad World
Mad World, Mad World

i love this song :D


I think I'll go down to the ocean
I think I'll go down and lie by the sea
Sit alone and watch the waves break
I don't think I'm ever going to leave
To leave, to leave

Find a girl that looks like an angel
Take her home just to be by her side
The kind of girl you'd love to marry
Someday to be your brand new bride
Your brand new bride

I think I'll go down to the ocean
I think I'll go down and lie by the sea
Sit alone and watch the waves break
I don't think I'm ever going to leave
to leave, to leave, to leave, to leave
to leave, to leave, to leave, to leave

Well I know I've got this mission
Things to do and things to say, every day
And if you give your heart permission
I know you'd feel the same old way
The same same way

I think I'll go down to the ocean
I think I'll go down and lie by the sea
Sit alone and watch the sun set
I don't think I'm ever going to leave
to leave, to leave, to leave, to leave
She'll be waiting by the shore
And I will be, I don't wanna be alone anymore

I think I'll go down to the ocean