I seriusly feel lyke im dyin!
ive been REALLLLLLY sick 4 a wile now!
ive puked everyday 4 the last month!
...dont let my mom find that out!
i dont want her or any1 2 worry!
i feel lykeim gonna puke right now....
oh crap....
i gotta stop writin this b-4 i

damn it!..I puked agian!
(good thing i had a garbage next 2 me!)
this is not the best winter break!!!
o well

i deserve it!

~♥~Sissy~♥~
p.s. i doubt u wanted 2 kno that but o well!

the dirty looks,
[the jealous stares,]
the best part is,
[YOU THINK I CARE]
catch ur breath,
[pinch ur wrists,]
baby its true,
[I DO EXSIST]
i'm the person i wanna be so
[DONT FUCKIN LABEL ME]
im a rude Ass bitch when i need to be,
[but im cool as fuck when ur real with me]

Hey Guys!
This Is Gonna B The LAst Tyme Im ON Till MOnday!
Im GOin 2 SOUTH CAROLINA!
2 c my AWEOSME bubbby! AKA [the_new_me2]
YAY!
He said hes really Buff now!
were gonna b takin TONZ of pics
when we go!
so ill update u on how sexifull
he is when i get back! lol

what sux is we are leavin tomarow mornin at fricken
1 in the morning!
I guess its worth it 4 my bubby!
well i X-pect tonz of messages tellin me
how much u guyz miss me when i get back!
lol
SO WRITE ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Love YA ALL!
Lyke HARDxCORE FrEaKz!
-♥Sissy♥-

God I Hate B-in Sick!
My throat is sore,
My nose is Runny and Stuffy,
i keep coughin and hackin,
the cold medicine is makin me tierd,
and the cold is keepin my awake!

URGH!

SUM1 SAVE ME! PLZ!

UR JUST JEALOUS CUZ I LOVE GAY PPL! HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA!!!!!!!!


People at N-Dub are so fuckin imature!
they talk about stupid shit do stupid shit and like stupid shit!
WHAT IS W/ THEM AND STUPID SHIT!

I DONT BELONG THERE!
W/ Those ppl and there fuckin stupid
shit!
for example adma h. (not harrison)
had metal balls and keep talkin about ppl playin w/ them and shit
then theres Tyler and Darryl who act like the are fuckin gettin me in the ass or sumthin!
STUPID SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

People sit there and talk about how
there representin!
and how fuckin ghetto they are!
but they have no fuckin clue
what the hell they are talkin about!
when u throw up an EASTSIDE sign and
yell out SOUTHSIDE ur GONNA get ur ass KILLED!
expatually if u do that shit around
WESTSIDE! DUMB FUCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
DONT SAY UR FOR BOTH CRIPS AND BLOODS
WHEN U HAVE NO CLUE WHAT THE HELL THEY ARE!
U get that Samantha???????
GOOD! lol

I HATE FAKE FUCKERS!
they talk about a person then
act like they are
that persons friedn!
LIKE ALLY AND ALYSSA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
first point they are fightin and callin each
other whores and shit!
the next they are goin trick-or-treatin together!
like best friends! WHAT THE FUCK!!!!!!!!!!


well thats all 4 u dumb fucks 2 read 2day!
PEACE!
LOVE U ALL LIKE HARDXCORE BITCHEZ!!!!!
-Sissy

HES GONE!

WHAT THE HELL DID I DO??

I just relized what all Ive Missed
and Im gonna miss w/out my Dad!
I can never truley be Daddy's Lil Girl!
I Can never Dance w/ my Daddy @ the
Daddy Daughter Dance!
I Wont get 2 have my Dad Walk me
Down the Isle @ my weddin
I Wont have the Father
daughter dance @ my weddin!
I dont get 2 be spolied by my dad
....................................
I dont even kno why my mom keeps me!
She didnt want me!
My dad did!
....................................
well w/e i guess ill have to spend
my life w/ out bein Daddy's Lil
Girl!...:( *tear*

What are you afraid of?


[ ] the dark
[ ] staying single forever
[ ] being a parent
[ ] being myself in front of others
[ ] open spaces
[ ] closed spaces/ heights<<
[ ] cats
[ ] dogs
[ ] birds
[ ] spiders and/or other insects
[ ] driving or being in cars
[ ] flying
[ ] flowers or other plants
[ ] being touched
[ ] fire
[ ] water
[ ] the ocean
[ ] failure
[ ] success
[ ] germs
[ ] thunder/lightning
[ ] frogs/toads
[ ] mice/rats
[ ] jumping from high places
[ ] snow
[ ] rain
[ ] wind
[ ] cotton balls
[ ] cemeteries
[ ] clowns
[x] large crowds
[ ] crossing bridges
[ ] death
[ ] Heaven
[ ] being robbed
[ ] men
[ ] women
[ ] having great responsibility
[x] doctors
[ ] tornadoes
[ ] hurricanes
[x] diseases
[ ] daylight
[ ] sharks
[ ] Friday the 13th
[ ] poverty
[ ] ghosts
[ ] Halloween
[ ] school
[ ] trains or railroads
[ ] odd numbers
[ ] even numbers
[ ] being alone
[ ] being blind...
[ ] being deaf
[ ] growing up
[ ]monsters under my bed
[ ] creepy noises during the night
[ ] bee stings
[ ] not accomplishing my dreams/goals
[ ] needles
[ ] blood
[ ] long words
[ ] Being kidnapped

I only got 3 man im 2 brave! lol

I give up i cant take this shit anymore!!!! fuckk it all!

Sissy!!!!!!!!! The Bitch w/ no reason!Missing: </b>

Love Can Sometimes Be Magic But Magic Can Sometimes be an Illusion!
Love is Like a Book…If You Tear a Page, You Rip The Heart…And Have to Pay For Both!
Love is Like Honey and Lemon, Sometimes Sweet and Sometimes Sour
Love Me Now or Love me Never But If you Love Me, Love Me Forever
Diamonds Are Nice, And So Are Pearls, But Nothing Compares To u





First Time I Saw You…I Knew It Was True…I'd Love You Forever And That’s What I'll Do!
For Love I'd Do Anythign For You I'd Do More!
I Dropped A Tear In The Ocean When I Find It, Is The Day I'll Stop Loving You!
If Loving You Is Wrong I Don't Want To Be Right!
If The Only Possible Way We Can Be Together Is In My Dreams…Then I'll Sleep Forever
If You Love Me Tell Me It's True…If You Don't I'll Still Love You!
I'll Love You Forever I'll Love You For Always As Long As Im Livin My Baby You'll Be!
Im Falling For You..Please Catch Me!
One Day it Finally Came True, I Saw the One I Trully Loved and That one was you
Tell Me That You Love Me, Tell Me That You Care, Even If Your Lying, That’s All I Need To Hear!
The Face Is The Mirror Of the Mind, And Eyes Without Speaking Confess The Secrets Of The Heart                       

Y Do I even try 2 pretend like my life is all nice and dandy?.....


I Guess The One Person who didnt give Up On me All the Way Just did!!!!


im so stressed its not funny!
between my brother leaving(im gonna miss him 2 death), Findin a way 2 get money, workin around the house, dealin w/ all my friendz problems, dealin w/ all my problems(if u wanna kno details ask), and tryin 2 keep everyone else happy!

I Keep pilin my stress on others and it keeps pilin up twice as much on me!

one of these times im gonna completly snap and no one will be happy!!
they'll see how i feel
I can never be happy and keep others happy
its alwayz about everyoen else!
and the thingz that i do, do that keep me a lil happy every one judges me for and yellz @ me for!

the one thing that keeps my stress down a lil bit Eric flips out about!
cant he see how unappy i am
I dont want 2 start bein stupid and goin back 2 the fuckin razor blade!
im about 2 say FUCK EVERYONE ELSE!!!!

ITS ABOUT 2 BE ABOUT ME!!! fuck every one else and how happy they wanna be!

I LIVE 4 ME!!!!

alright what ever im out!
~*~Sissy~*~AKA No Longer Ur Saint! But MINE

Kissing Is A Habit
Fucking Is A Game
Guys Get All The Pleasure
Girls Get All The Pain
10 Minutes Of Pleasure
9 Months Of Pain
3 Days In The Hospital
A Baby Without A Name
The Baby Is A Bastard
The Mother Is A Whore
This Woulda Never Happend If The Rubber Hadn't Tore!!



Sex is like math
You subtract the clothes
Add the bed
Divide the legs
And Pray to god
You dont multiply




Roses are red
Grass is green
Open your legs
And I'll fill you with cream




Hickory dickory dock
This bitch was suckin my cock
The clock struck two
I dumped my goo
And dumped her to the end of the block



Sex is good
Sex is fine
Doggy Style & 69
Just for fun
Or gettin paid
Everyone likes gettin laid



Sex is evil
Sex is a sin
Sins are forgiven
So stick it in!!!


roses are nice
violets are fine.
ill be the six
if you be the nine

30 things to do to piss your parents off





1. follow them around the house every where
2. moo when they say your name
3. run into walls
4. say that wearing clothes is against your religion
5. stand over them at four in the morning with a huge grin and say"good morning sunshine
6. pluck someones hair out and yell "DNA!"
7. wear a sticker that says "im retarded"
8. have 20 imaginary friends that talk to you all the time
9. in public yell out" no mom/dad i will not make out with you!"
10. do what they actually tell you to do
11. jump off a roof trying to fly
12. hold there hand and whisper "i see dead people"
13. everything they say yell "liar!"
14. try to swim on the floor
15. tap on there door all night
16. pretend to have amnesia
17. say everything backwards
18. give yourself a swirly
19. run around with a lamp shade on your head screaming "the sun! its dying!"
20. sing at the top of your lungs while running around the house...in your underwear
21. have nervous spasms at spontaneus times
22. snort loudly when you laugh then laugh harder
23. run in circles
24. recite a whole movie 3 times
25. pretend to beat yourself up
26. slither evrywhere
27. wear you pants on your head and your shirt on your waist....tell them your making a fashion statement
28. try and drink out of a glass the wrong way
29. super glue your finger to your nose
30. talk to a pen

Hey Im Goin 2 Cedar Point so i wont be on till maybe saturday! so yall betta leave me tonz of mesages! ight?
i love u all tonz and tonz!
PEACE!
-♥-Sissy

I Want A Man So Sweet!!!

Hello All! How Are U All?....I am Okies! Bored but OKies!

I WANT THIS GUY!

I Love The Way My Fingers Just Fall Into Yours I Love How Your Taste Still Lingers On My Lips After That i Special Goodnight Kiss, I Love How Whenever I Go To Call Someone I AutomaticallyDial Your Number, I Love How You Look At Me With Those Gorgeous Eyes And Then You Smile That Sweet Smile.. And I Know Right There, That You Will Always Be Mine.. I Love How You Hug Me With The Intention Of Never Letting Go.. I Love i You More Than Words Could i Ever Show


I mAy NoT gEt 2 See U As 0fTeN aS I
Like I mAy n0t GeT 2 h0Ld U iN
mY aRms aLL ThRu thE NiTe*BuT
deEp DoWn I Kn0w iTs TrU
No MaTTa WhAt
I'LL aLwAys LoVe U

And more sweet stuff that i dont kno who its for!

I Loved U Once...<3
U Loved Me Not...</3
I Loved U Twice...<3
But I 4Got...<3
...
U Neva Loved me...</3
U Neva Will...</3
But even So...<3
I love u Still...<3
4Get the times he walked by...
4get the times he made u cry...
4get the times he spoke ur name...
Rember ur feelins arnt the same...
4get the times he held ur hand...
4get the sweet things if u can...
4get those times and dont pretend
Remmber now hes just a freind...

That is 4 sumone that i kno never really wanted 2 be w/ me! but yet he did! Im not sayin who and if u ask i wont respond.....just let it be known

You cant say "i love you" unles you know you do. look into ur heart to find the truth not a need. Ture love can only come from ture happiness and ture happiness has to be found in the heart. Never say "i love you" unles you know its in your heart and not in your head...

These Are My Diary Entires From When I Was At Camp!

Here goes

I cant believe My Uncle would do that!
He told Skyler theat His Uncle Was a crackhead
That shot him self which is true but he didnt tell him all the goodstuff about him! He didnt even tell Him I wasHis Cuzin!!!

When Skyler Mentioned Him I wanted to Die I almost Burst into Tears!I wanted to go back to the cabin and slit the shit outta my wrist if i coulve found my siccors i would have! I didnt kno where they were! I almost used a needle I found to cut my wrist!

There was Alot more but im not gonna put it on here!!!.....


This Is a Really gay poem I wrote!

[*Hugs*]
My Sweet Love
My Only Love
not mine 2 hug
buthers tohug
forever pain
for you pain
when the blood
rushes down
u wonder
why I frown
I frown for you
I break down for you
can u see how i feel
do u see my heart peal?
for you id die
for u i cry
you are the one i will
forever love
You I wish to hug
Till your mine 2 hug!

ya i kno its gay!!!</h1>