Things to be happy about right Now In life.
1.[Sky Chord] Is NOT leaving Elfpack!
2. [My Sky's The Limit]s Computer Is behaving now ^^; heh heh
3. [ILY;;] Is baaackk!! ^___^
4. [ritsuka.] And [TeejayTERROR.] Are doing fine and are very happy!
5. [Grobbo] And I are closer than ever! :D <3 YAY!
6. I'm getting my room decorated again, the way I want it this time! :P
7. I've got all my school stuff for when I go back, clothes,shoes and bag ect ^__^ no worries there
8. Homeworks all done!!!!! finally!!
9. Parents are really happy and bubbly lately, I dont know why but its nice hehe!
I'm sooooo Happy!! :D
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dum..dee..doo! ^^;;
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I love this film and Ive got in on dvd!
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I love that song and film! <3 Aladdin!
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*gasp* LOOK AT ALL THE NEW CHARACTERS!!!!
I cant beleive Gary (cathys) has left elfpack.. how boring......;_
Awwww Gary come back sooooooooooooo
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*Clenches her fists, eyes shaking*
I'm such a fool, I don't know what to say or do, I feel like I'm being left out from his life, I'm trying so hard to keep it together and be ok for the both of them, I cant please two people, Im sorry I cant. *Closes her eyes*.. Im losing him, A gap has formed, he's happier with her now, he smiles with her and means it, with me its forced. *Opens her eyes slightly* Im sorry..
I've got a bad feeling..
^^ Yup!
MY Alexander is in there!! ;_; *cries rivers*
*eyes tear up* ed....
&& she would go
through all her
limits just to be
with him
& what do i want mostly?
a guy who has the best
personality & can make me laugh-
i don't care for
what he has on the outside
i think at some point
you like your best guy
friend just a little more
& she would never
stay with the guy
who would hurt
her more than once
hearts are as fragile
as glass but most boys handle
them like careless footballs
i love how we can be
so ourselves around
each other
if we're trying, i
believe there's not a star
in heaven that we can't reach
i can never fit into a card
all the memories we had
together because we already
have too many to cherish
all i need are great friends
who will forever be there for me
be my escape
to heaven, happiness,
&& love
& after she met him
all her insecurities quickly
faded away
& what she loves most
is when he holds her like
there isn't anything
else important in the world
& he kissed her even
when her mouth was blue
from ice pops and her hair
was in the messiest condition
friends would be helping you
fix something
real friends would be breaking
whatever you just fixed
girls want you to be there
when they really
need it, hold them when
they cry, & care for them
no matter what
my hands were made
for you to hold them
i've never imagined that
someone could just be gone
just like that-
always live the moment
to the fullest
the phases of the moon
remind her of all
his sudden changes
& every single time
she hears his voice
her heart beats just
a little faster
after we became friends
i became instantly hooked
because he accepted
me for being me
the one thing that
makes everyone enjoy
life is love
i want to spend my life
finding all the people i
truly love- what else
is there to live for?
i sit here & fold
little paper hearts
& wonder if anyone will
ever take them
friends with benefits;
one way to destroy a friendship
there are some times
when people tie you down
to do things but what's there
in life but to explore?
when i'm with you,
i feel like i'm flying
with wings on my back
& all she needs to know is if
you love her or not
let's stop playing games
love isn't about doing
anything for him
but doing something
for yourself
we don't need bracelets
to represent our friendships
nothing is equivalent
to real friendships
nothing is compared
to what you do
to make me
adore you
time is always the
best answer to heal
deep wounds in your heart
when i was little,
i always believed my father
would be the only guy in my life
as i grew older, i discovered
there was more
i want to look at
photographs of us &
20 years later, i want
you to be there to laugh
at all the great memories we had
& she dreamed about being
that girl he would always
be afraid of losing
i never found the words to say
that you're the one i think
about each day
no matter where life takes you
you'll never forget about your
first true love
every night, thoughts &
memories of you always
race through my mind
say anthing else but
the word: friends
honestly, you were
the one who made
me believe in myself
i'm so set for the
rest of my life
because of you
you're one of the
most incredible people
i've ever met in my life
&& he's the only one she sees
& she loves the way he looks
at her
people who start drama
are usually people who are
bored with their own life
i can show you the world
shining, shimmering, splendid
let your heart decide
who you love
not your mind
i would run an infinite number
of miles just to be with you
i've been dying to tell you
how much i miss you,
but somehow it never
comes out
i don't want this to
just fade away, i want this
to really happen
&& she could never walk away
from his deep blue eyes
i don't care about the stars
saying that we shouldn't
be together, just as long as
you love me, i don't care
Right! Ok! Loads of People have been wondering, What my sudden diary rubbish is about, So I might as well fill you in. . .
I live In London as most of you know, Its pretty rough, drugs, sex and rape you know...Well My dad was ment to pick me up from a friends house, but his car is broke so he couldn't use it, he didn't want me walking home alone since it was late and stuff, so he came to my friends house and I wasn't there I'd gone to a party (Which I didn't tell them about) So he started walking back home, and got beaten up by some drunk guys, he doesn't know what they look like or anything but recently these guys have been hanging around our houses, Max's mostly, throwing rocks at peoples windows, scratching cars and graffiti the lot, My mom called me on my phone, I was drunk then sort of, So I wasn't with it she told me to come home or something and I exploded say all this shit about her not being able to control me and that I wasn't her slave. I only know this because Max and Tyler where there and they told me on the phone the next day. Anyways! When My friends mum was giving me a lift home, we saw loads of police cars and we couldn't get past, 'coz they where blocking the road, So we parked and waited for it to be sorted, but when they started putting someone on the ambulance, I recognized him, My dad. I don't remember what I did, I think I threw up or something and My friend and her mom was shouting at me.
I must've fainted from shock or because I was so out of it or something because when I woke up, I was in bed at home, My head was fucking throbbing soooooo badly it was the worst, I was still in the clothes I went to the party in though. I got up and no one was home but there was a note on the table, saying "I'm at the hospital, call me - mom" something like that, then I remembered my dad and that he was ment to pick me up, he had offered at dinner. I started crying and I couldn't call my mom, I feel so shit right now, I sat at the window for nearly 5 hours without moving or doing anything. My mom came home around 8 or 9 and told me what had happened, I just stared at her and she hugged me. I couldn't help but think "OMG I COULD'VE KILLED MY OWN DAD!" Ya see, My parents are really loving and caring, they would NEVER hitt me, they NEVER have they hardly ever swear at me or at anyone else when me or my brother is around. They always kiss me goodnight. I love them so much so this broke me up. Its been a week now, My dad came home on Thursday, I was good at hiding all this at first but then it started to get to me. I am going to tell my mum later, The thing is I think my dad "does" blame me, he keeps looking at me when I walk past his bedroom, since the doors open for when he needs to call mom, he gives me the ashamed look. When he is better I think, I am in for hell.
- Kai. xxx
Happy now? ¬_¬
P.S I really didn't want to tell anyone about this, I'd have dealt with it 'coz I know you all probally won't beleive me or give a shit. I don't mind but you asked. So I told you. It can't be helped and I can and will cope with it. I love my mum and my dad I'd do anything and I mean if it was dying to take back what I did. So when I was dancing some big man must've been hitting my dad. ;_; That scares me, Im such a selfish bitch! I'm a fuck up!
I am not attention seeking! Or Lying! Ask Max [ritsuka.] If you must. But I don't care what you lot all think but thats what you get for living in "god-damn" London.
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HAHA!
AWWWWWWWWWWWWW
The only good thing about having your
heart broken is that sooner or later there's
nothing left to break
she's going through an emotional
hurricane inside but nobody knows.