how can you truly trust someone?
how do you know if whats going on is real, so that you won't get hurt,but then you want to put your heart into it?

things are so hard to understand and believe,but i think i can manage.

well so far,i've been enjoying my boyfriend,but he's busy for the while,so i've been kind of depressed w/o him.Never felt this way with any guy else and yeah he is everything.But,i am in need of satisfaction and lol,um yeah,so i'm going to be going on tour for 2 weeks,starting december 1st until the 14th,but i will have my laptop with me.
I love you all *especially you chris*


feels like i need to say sorry to this person,for being what i was to them,but then i dont know if it's because i'm lonely or i'm actually feelin that way. i just don't know.

insatiable: always wanting more: always needing more and impossible to satisfy

always wanting more: always needing more and impossible to satisfy

[this song is what i feel when i'm in love]

You And Me" by lifehouse

What day is it? And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time

Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

All of the things that I want to say just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping on words
You've got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here

Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

There's something about you now
I can't quite figure out
Everything she does is beautiful
Everything she does is right

Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

What day is it?
And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive

Okay,so this is my 1st entry like ever. Um,well i'm just going to talk out of my mind and say things,it might be random but i can't put in order the things that are on my mind.
my sister is pregnant and is due later this month, i think on the 29th,lol,oh well. her husband however,kind of doesn't get the point that i'm not "into" him,he's fuckin married,eww,and to my sister? hello? dude your married now,and with a baby,wake up! i'm not your mistress.
also, i've been going on dates n stuff with my friends,well only 3 of them. trying to see what i want,and yes i've had sex with all 3,but my point is that,i only like one of them and thats the dude named nathyniel. i just call him "nat". um so anyways, he's kind of awesome and i really like him,but knowing me i like to be single. i dont want to be tied down,but its between Nat and my Ex,dustin [chevyman],yes you baby. [the thing is that,he broke up with me because he wanted to see if i actually loved him,i dont know if anyone else agree's,but um what the fuck,dude? you gotta break up with someone just to see if their "in-love" with you? um,no i'll never understand that]. i don't have a heart to waste of dumping me and shit.but on the other hand,he's an awesome guy,i just don't want to trust it for a while.

AND THATS MY RANT FOR TODAY.bye kids.