[It takes a disaster to learn a lesson]'s diary

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Written about Tuesday 2005-11-01
Written: (6963 days ago)

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my life has been destroid and ruined , i wish i was dead i hate everyday now .i have given up on everything yes i have .time passes by and i still wonder y , y me ??? y ???]

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Written about Monday 2005-10-31
Written: (6964 days ago)

am so bored so so so fucking bored

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Written about Monday 2005-10-31
Written: (6964 days ago)

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i had a very good halloween , and people though that my clothes was a custom lol . i got alot of candy and like 10 bucks so now am happy . i miss someone alot and i wish i could tell that person . tom i have to go to school yey cause id idnt go today . i tried to takes pics and i couldnt cause i didnt buy a camera.]

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Written about Sunday 2005-10-30
Written: (6965 days ago)

tell me wats going on , tell me tell me

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Written about Sunday 2005-10-30
Written: (6965 days ago)

u created me to make me suffer and cry and all i ask is y ??? i want to leave this world but , my heart tells me that am not ready to go

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Written about Sunday 2005-10-30
Written: (6965 days ago)

i cried today , my heart hurts so bad and i just want to desaper from this crap called life , u tell me am crazy but yet all u do is hurt me and not give me a hand or a shoulder to lean on y???

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Written about Sunday 2005-10-30
Written: (6965 days ago)

is everybody going crazy ??? tell me whats going on tell me whats going on

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Written about Sunday 2005-10-30
Written: (6965 days ago)

fucking life of mine , y me??? y????

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Written about Saturday 2005-10-29
Written: (6967 days ago)

i need a life

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Written about Saturday 2005-10-29
Written: (6967 days ago)

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am so bored and tired , wow i cant believe that am going to gradute in june 2006 am so happy and at the same time nervous . i know that am going to cry , and i will aslo laugh to show all the bitches out there that i made it and there r feeling stupid .that goes to my fathers family 4 all yah mother fuckers that r always talking shit .tom i have to wake up early and go to school , i went to parents teachers conference and my mom spoke to my teachers .i failed 2 classes but am doing better now and my goal is to pass all my classes and get in the honor roll i know i could make it and make my mom smile . i wish i could make her happy and not dissapointed , and most of all i want to make my self feel happy and smart and feel good about myself.]

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Written about Thursday 2005-10-27
Written: (6968 days ago)

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:) :o :p :y :( :) :) :( :( :):(

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Written about Thursday 2005-10-27
Written: (6968 days ago)

STEPHANY M VALERIO

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Written about Thursday 2005-10-27
Written: (6968 days ago)

EILEEN MICHELLE VALERIO

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Written about Thursday 2005-10-27
Written: (6968 days ago)

BORED

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Written about Wednesday 2005-10-26
Written: (6970 days ago)

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THIS FUCKING WORLD GOT ME TIRED

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Written about Wednesday 2005-10-26
Written: (6970 days ago)

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:(hahaha am so fucking bored , would u speak to me ????? lol :)

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Written about Wednesday 2005-10-26
Written: (6970 days ago)

[well today i had a very tiering day , i had to wake up ma early and i got to school at 8am and came out at 6pm .i had day school and pm school,its good cause i am getting challenges to see if i could achive them and i know i can and i will try very very hard .i had alot of homework and i did all of it cause i want to work hard to show my mom and family that i can be what i want to be and i could do what ever i put my mind too .am also happy cause there is a new person in my life and i dont know wat decision to make it is hard cause am getting weird feelings and i dont know how to act lol . wow life is crazy and all i can do is live everyday and try to chage wats in my way lol.][

:)gay face :P

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Written about Saturday 2005-10-22
Written: (6974 days ago)

[<3>well today i feel good and bored , but am still thinking about my life and i wonder y i've meet people that r mean and two face . i hate bitches , fucking stupid bitch i will like to get my hands on u and kill u . they day i find u talking about me i will make ur life miserable. oh god help me i will kill someone . well am going to wake up at 7:00am cause i have to be in school at 8:00am , then am going to pierced my touge yey . am happy cause i got my english test and i had 100%+ ,i was so happy about that yey amso happy ,i missed my government damm i should of taken it but is my brothers fault he made me cut and then he left me standing in the cold while he was in class.i spoke to a special person and he made me happy but then as we talked then i started to get mad cause of a thing that he asked me .</3> ]

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Written about Wednesday 2005-10-19
Written: (6976 days ago)

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today has been the day for me to find out a whole bunch of shit , i nevered thought that i was that blind and dumm , oh bitch i just want u to do something and u will regret it i suer to my mom chicken head hahaha biach i fucking hate u u hoe ]

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Written about Tuesday 2005-10-18
Written: (6978 days ago)

[HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME]

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[today is my b-day and i had fun but it was boring at the begining. when i woke up this morning i didnt even remember that it was my birthday . my mom gave me 20 dollars , my grandma from dad side gave me 40 dollars , my grandma from my mom side called me . my two cuzz and my aunt came to see me , my big sis merlin and my cuzz ricky called me . my other aunt and my three cuzz called me , my uncle rensi called me my other uncle alberto called me and my aunt carmen also called me . i pretty much had fun , my dad didnt say a word to me , well i dont fucking care he can go to hell, i 've learned that i cant change myself to plase no one , now am legal and am happy , am getting my touge pierced , and my friends in elfpack r so nice and wonderfull , two of them made pics for me cool i like them alot , the others send me messages wishing me the best and] [¤VÕÐKÃ¤][ made me cry with her birthday card thanxs alot lil sis i lova yah alot , and] [chicks dig me why dont u?][is going to take pics of her son to send me i feel special , yesterday was] [Dirty Lil Juggalette][birthday i hope she had fun and i will send u ur present i hope u like it, tom is her dads birthday i hope he has fun ] ]

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Written about Saturday 2005-10-15
Written: (6981 days ago)

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umm am so bored and tired , damm today i feel like crying and i have no reason to cry at least thats wat i think . there is something inside of me thats killing me softly and i dont know how to express it . it is so hard for me to open up to someone and tell them how i feel. i wouldnt understand no one does unless they r going threw the samething or have pass threw it .damm my b-day is monday and am not really excited i mean yea i change my mood here so i could remind myself that is my b-day there was once when i forgot my on b-day and thats sad . i mean am going to be 18 and there is nothing special in that day , i wont get any gifts i wont have no one there , i need love and my family and so called friends dont notice that . when i was growing up i never would of though that my life was going to be this sad , not even in a million years i would of pictured this . yea i have made mistakes and the one thats is up there and suppostly loves us has to understand me and take me for who i am and for the mistakes that i have made as a human being .they say that he made me special but i dont see anything special about me , my mom has never spoke to me like daugther to mother , i have a father and it feels like i dont ,i really dont know y he is here .oh yea i know to make myself miserable .i just wish that everything changes , but i know that it wont change till am out of here. and thats when the real siriouse problems will happend , who ever is reading this is like this chick is crazy but i know , it wont get better till like a few years from now and thats sad . am going to live my life the way i want , and i wont let no one put me down and i will stand up for myself , and god if ur up there dont u think is time to help me be happy , thats all am asking cause i think is time ]

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