- The Poem of My Life -

I used to be so happy
but now i am so mad
i used to be so carefree
but now i am so sad

and now im all alone
i cant stand this
im breaking down to the bone
and its all because of you
this house is not a home

all i want is to come home
i dont want to have to deal with you
i just want to get on the phone
but with who?
im all alone.....


im sick of it all
i cant stand the pain
so i put the knife to my vein
and go insane
as i watch the blood drain

but if i keep doing this
i wont have any skin left
to cut....

so what do i do....
what to do next...
what should i turn to?
i turn to sex!

it makes me feel better
about myself
its just so simple to me
like putting a book on a shelf

but then i realize...
that they really didnt
care for me
they did it for them

so what do i now?
you ask
i turn to drugs
now look at me... im a bad ass

i feel so much better now
in my own magic wonderland
but here is where i will stay
i will take me stand
in this wonderful, wonderful, wonderland....

i feel like i have
my old life back
im happy
and carefree
all over again

but a "high" only lasts
for so long
soon i'll be back to
the same old shit........
               TO BE CONTINUED