this is what my heart feels like

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i loved u shayla y did u hurt me like this u had another guy the whole fucking time didnt u i loved u shayla and u hurt me beyond the point of no return so ty for breaking my heart


[U SAID U LOVED ME THEN U DID THIS Y DID U DO IT]

[^^^^^WHAT SHE IS GONNA DRIVE ME TO DO]

[pick wich one ill use]

[MA FAV ITS ALREADY GOT BLOOD ON IT NOW CAN I PUT MA OWN ON IT]

[OR MAYBE I SHOULD STICK MA BLADE THRO MA HEART]

To The Fallen Homies Homies of my Hood...I will carry ur Legacie on till i die homies!

I'll be here to defend ur names when all that pussie try to spit on ur memory...

I'll be the one to defend the Hood no matter wat the cost...

I'll be the last Homie standin in the Hood...

I'll be the one poruin the 40's out fo the HOmies we lost durin the strugle of the war...

I Promise My Life Is Decaited To The Hood And The Fallen Homies...

i did u so wrong i never deserved sombody like you. But i want u and i cant have u it took me time but i realised ma love for u was true and had always been true it just took me time tyo realise it and by the time i realised it it was to late. I geuss its better to have loved and lost then to never have loved at all but what happens when that love dosent die no matter how bad u want it too die it wont.

there is this girl

there is this girl i know that i love so much but she cant see it. If she could only see how much i love her then maybe she would realise how serious i am. Can u ever move on from a love like this. Dose a true love ever die? the awnser is no because true love never dies. but to have true love it has to be felt on both parts. i know what i feel is true but did u ever feel it? Did u ever think we would last or was it just one big trip? I know i was the reason for all are problems i am the reason ur not in ma life the reason ur not ma girl my baby anymore. ME I AM THE REASON FOR ALL THE PAIN FOR ALL THE HEART BREAK

P.S. ma love for u will never die because i dont care if its felt on both sides ma love for u is true.....

dedicated to some one very dear to ma heart


sory there is more to come

why must this be so hard y cant are love just die y do we keep faith that we might be us once agin when with all the shit we have done to each other all the pain we have caused each other.. If we did become us agin would it work could we trut one another i hope that i could trust u but would u try and trust me after what i did well here is what i have to say about that....... yes i know i was wrong in what i did i know u may never forgive me for what i did but cant u see i have changed i am not liek i was after all the pain of losing u it changed me for the better it made me wanna become what i was who i used to be before i was screwed over so many times before all the heart break in ma past but can u take ma word I AM NOT LIKE I WAS I AM A CHANGED MAN I AM GOING TO BE TRUE TO WHO I AM WITH AND I WANT U BUT CANT HAVE U "sits alone in the dark corner with ma poetry book and starts to write and cry at the same time"


[THE ONE I LOVED AND LOST]

[^^^^^WHAT SHE IS GONNA DRIVE ME TO DO]

[pick wich one ill use]

[MA FAV ITS ALREADY GOT BLOOD ON IT NOW CAN I PUT MA OWN ON IT]

[OR MAYBE I SHOULD STICK MA BLADE THRO MA HEART]

If you had me alone, locked up in your room for 24 hours, and I had to do whatever you wanted me to do, what would you do with me?

mmmm that looks like fun can i use the gun when urdone

Let me draw you a picture
I'll draw it with a twist
I'll draw it with a razor blade
I'll draw it on my wrist
And if I do it right
A red fountain will appear
Washing away my pain
Washing away my fear



If you see me walking with someone new, its not because i want to...
Its because you weren’t there to walk beside me.
If you see me smile, its not because I’ve forgotten you...
Its because I’ve gotten tired of crying over you.
If you see me living my life again, its not because I’ve moved on...
Its because i hate the fact that you easily live your life without me.
So if i fall in love with someone else, its not because i want to...
Its because you weren’t there to catch me when i fell for you

That Very First Day


There's been something I've wanted to tell...
When I first saw you- I fell.
Right now I'm still falling for you
And this feeling I'm feeling- feels so true.

Whenever you pass by with your sparkling eyes
I don't say a thing, ‘cause I'm just too shy.
You always smile when I walk by...
I say nothing but I just wanna die.

Been so many things I've wanted to say,
When I first saw you, that very first day...
I thought you were pretty, I thought you were fine.
All I wanted was for you to be mine.

You're the prettiest - over any other girl!
You're richer than diamond, or a pearl.
I just wanna spend time with you,
but my shyness always pulls me away.
Too scared to tell you how I feel, every single day.

Been to sacred to hear a "no" or "I just wanna be a friend,"
Because I really do want our hearts to blend.
These are some things I've wanted to say
Ever since we met... that very first day.

The Truth


There was a feeling... But I never knew it
There was a fire... But I just walked through it
There was tear... But I never cried
There was a truth... But I just lied
I always told you that you were just a friend

But the truth is... I love you
But I don't want to tell you
(Like an answer you know you'll get wrong)
I love you
But I can't make myself say it
(Like a failure you can't give up on)

I'd rather turn a cold shoulder
Than face the cold fact
That if I told you how much I love you
You might not say it back

There's no enthusiasm in my hello
There are no sonnets, no surprises or jokes
I hope you don’t look back when I call out your name
When I greet you, there's barely a smile
I can't act excited at all

But the truth is... I love you
But I don't want to tell you

Like a lie that I don't mean to tell
I choke on these words I can't say
If I've seemed estranged lately, a bit out of touch
Maybe this helps to explain
There were times when you held me
Though you never reached out your arms
It seems I’ve made up my mind now
I don't want to lose you and so I hold on
The only way I know how

But the truth is... I love you
But I can't make myself say it

I'd rather turn a cold shoulder
Than face the cold fact
That if I told you how much I love you
You might not feel the same

When times are hard you're always there
You just seem to understand
Maybe it's because you care
In my heart I feel you're there
In my dreams I watch you so close
In my mind I see your flare
In my life you're the most

If I told you
I don't know how you'd feel
You might smile
Or you just might cry
Either way I'll wonder why,
Why didn’t I let you know

The truth is... I love you
And I hope you feel the same