[Teenage Buick Driver]'s diary
WEEELL My brain is out of commition for the rest of the day.
I had to wake up early as fuck to take the stupid SAT test.
It was hard... I think.
I saw a lot of people I knew...
Kathy(Kathrine from lake Air), Jackline, Liz Pacheco,Tim G(my math helper), brooke moore, Jessica Nitcholas,abig
During the test my eyes were bothering me. burning and watering inside and around hte edges of the skin. It felt like I had crust all around them. then my eyes felt like i had something in them and that made them water worse.
When I got home I took them out.
At one of the stopping places during the test where the TGiver tells you to stop, I jumped because I was startled. Everyone kinda turned and laughed at me... Not reallly laughed outloud but kinda grinned. It was embarrassing but, not too bad. No one came up to me afterword and said i was stupid.
I got home and took a lil nap and my mom made Pizza for lunch
We watched the soaps, I got online talked to a few people such as Katie and some online guy from west going to MCC. Jeff called me and asked how the test went. I forgot to call him after it was over :-( *sighs* I forgot i said i'd call him too Anyhow its really nice that he's supportive and understanding about my tiredness and that kinda crap. He puts up with a lot of my ailements, habits,psycho problems, weirdness, and grossness.
Anyhow, I should probably call him later. That would be nice
My mom and I tried to hook up this PABLO to one of the coomps... it kinda worked on one but the other one doesnt have a spot to hook it up too. It doesnt work that well and its hard to use... harder than I remember.. (Pablo- board w/ pen. Use it to draw with on the computer instead of a mouse) Guess we may need to get another one.
I also want to buy a GIF maker.... A good one. something were i can create my own drawn images move or turn my video clips from video files to short GIF clips---- anyone reading this know what program that would be????
Yesterday, Jeff and I started and finnished a 500 peice puzzle. BOY DID/DOES my back hurt! But it was fun. WE stayed up till bout 9:30 doing it. Jeff took me Go Cart racing. LOL I woulda beat him but i had the faster car the first time. and hte 2nd time i had the slow car and forgot i only had one lap left..... and did an extra. It was a bit imbarrassing..
While starting the puzzle we watched the first original Starwars.... I liked it... kinda got distracted by the puzzle.
The puzzle is put together and glued so it wont come apart.
About 4 days ago i found a pair of Mourning Doves that fell from the nest. Both had no feathers
I took them in and fed them
about a day later both were pecking at each other doing quite well..... then hte smaller one who had just begun to get feathers in, stopped eating so much
the next day, he died.
His brother who had most all wing feathers stopped eating so much.
today he wont make it
*cries*
LIFE SUCKS!
my bebies didnt make it
THREE THINGS THAT SCARE ME
01 - Roaches
02 – someone I love dying
03 - the future
THREE THINGS I DON'T UNDERSTAND
01 - science
02 - Math
03 – people
THREE THINGS I'D LIKE TO LEARN
01 – To cook
02 - express my feelings
03 - ASL
THREE THINGS I AM WEARING RIGHT NOW
01 - orange tank
02 - celtic beltbuckle on spiked belt
03 – no bra
THREE THINGS ON MY DESK
01 - Lamp
02 - massive amounts of index cards
03 - phones
THREE THINGS I WANT TO DO BEFORE I DIE
01 – Finnish up going to the last two continents i need to go to (Asia and Africa)
02 – Have kids
03 – see the future
THREE WAYS TO DESCRIBE MY PERSONALITY
01 - spunky
02 - ADD (random)
03 – creative
THREE BAD THINGS ABOUT MY PERSONALITY
01 – lash out
02 – uncontrolable
03 – nervesness
THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE
01 - German
02 - Irish
03 - Native American
THREE THINGS I LIKE ABOUT MY BODY
01 – my nose
02 - my teeth
03 - my nails
THREE THINGS I DON'T LIKE ABOUT MY BODY
01 – my eyes
02 – the things that are supposed to be growing or have grown in on my chest
03 - birthmark
THREE THINGS MOST PEOPLE DON'T KNOW ABOUT YOU
01 – How bad my temper really is.
02 – I have a habit i can not control
03 – I can write some perverted/grap
THREE THINGS I SAY THE MOST
01 – "uh"
02 – "where did(it,that,they) go?"
03 – "shit"
THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO
01 - Ireland
02 – NewYork
03 – Asia
THREE NAMES THAT YOU GO BY
01 - Stevie
02 - Amando Comando
03 - Mindy(or Mandi) Lue(Lue Who)
Today, my mom and I found a turtle.
I kept it in a green plastic kitchenmaid tub/box. 
My bf came and picked me up to go jetskiing with him, my cousins, and one of his older friends, Bryan.
It was fun. The lake was a bit chilly, but the sun was out most of the day and inside the houseboat or "The Yacht" as my dad refers to it as. We didnt need to turn the air on. So my cousins Stacy and Jean were out there, Stacy's bf Raman and her friend from Austin Sara. Then my other younger cousins, Morgan and Lauren, and my uncle Pat came. We blew up the tube to ride. Jeff and I didnt ride but it was still fun. My cousin went to Bush's chicken and brought back food. I'd asked for a box of rolls and a couple of Dr. Peppers for Jeff and me.
After we were Jetskiing, we loaded up everything and Jeff drove up to the dock on the other side of the lake to get his truck. I drove the jetski on to the trailer. GOt IT on The FIRST time TOO!
Went home, changed, and went to the movie "A lot Like Love" with Ashton Kutcher and Amanda Peet. It was really cute. I loved the end where the girl went to what she thought was her true loves wedding, only to have him run out after her. She was like , no no, I'm too late. and he's like "no, I'm not getting married. My sister is" and the sister's always saying "You're such a dick!"... actually really cute movie.
Went home again, Jeff's dad was kinda getting pissed cuz it was almost 10 oclock and he wasn't home. I had to prepare the turtle to go to jeffs place. I painted the turtles shell so that maybe if we saw him again we could Identify him. Jeff had told me earlier that he thought it maybe a Snapping Turtle. He dangled his keys in front of the turltles nose and sure enough, the turtle open his mouth slowly and you can see teeth comming up from his gums. One in the front and one right behind it. and two on the sides. Sharp lil friggers im sayin!
Well mrs siemon wasnt here today. HURRAY!! I worked on my powerpoint and i wasnt late to school today!
on of the girls in my 8th period BCIS class that i hardly ever talk to said she had a dream about me and Jeff
She said I was really sad. But couldnt rememebr what happened. she said maybe jeff died.
Kinda creepy.
Corey Morgan also told me this week he had a dream with me in it. I dont know the details on that one. He has probably forgotten about it by now.
Jeff brought his two kittens to my house for me to meet. We took them to Petsmart. And they wanted to run around and everything. It was so funny. They would crawl on the back of Jeff's seat while he was driving and stick their lil sharp claws int he back of him.
We went to fazoli's for food. Through the drive thru of course. Went by BlueCat Video to rent a movie. We took the kittens inside and Jeff's friend brandon played a lil bit w/ one of the kittens. We rented Flight of the Phoenix and I bought a Symphony candy bar then went back to Jeffs house to watch the movie. 
After the movie i played a lil on Jeffs really nice OVATION Guitar. I love the neck on it. It's smaller than on my guitar! Makes it easy to hold and place my fingers! It's strings havent been tuned in 6 months and were in tune when iplayed it. The sound was great, very whole sounding.
Lovely guitar eh?
something i learned about friends in highschool
they wont be around forever
they care for a moment...but can drop you at a moments notice.
They take you for granted.
they ignore you. and can never be hurt.
match box 20- push
I wanna push you way 'round
well i will, well i will
I wanna push you down
well I will, Well I will
I wanna take you for granted, yeah yeah yeah
I wanna take you, take you
yeah well I will, I will, I will, I will, i will
push you around
yeah well I will
Last night was prom!!
or TONIGHT WAS...
Got picked up in a sea foam green 1957 Chevy Belaire.... restored to next to perfect condition by Jeffy boi wearing his tuxido which he looked really good in... fixed up all nice :-)
went to take pictures at camorn park, Miss Nelies pretty place
went to eat italian food at Vitos
Stole the flower from the table
went to prom w/ Jeff
danced.... like a wyld thang... w/ jeff nearly all the time
wore us out.... i cant really dance.. he tired to teach me to two step... didnt work
i kinda got between everyone booty bounced off everyone.... like amanda... Richard... time and samantha... took pictures of lynn... Robbie wore this old gangster getup... w/ the chain from the pocket and suspenders! Carlton bolder hat. Sean had a complete white tux.... w/ tails... looked good on him... Derrick can do the michael jackson walk... hes a really good dancer too
Danae and i traded ... so i danced w/ her date Cory..... he's actually a really good dancer and i was getting his pattern... didnt step on his feet much at all!
Jeff n i havent got much of a syncopated rythem... we both dance to the beats of different drums... btu thats okay cuz we can bout laugh and sing in each others faces ... like backstreat boys songs.... thriller.... gangsters paradice....sa
sang n Jeffs face.... Took lots of pictures
lots of random pictures
stayed till the end 12 AM. only thought id stay till 10 or so...
went home. changed
went to DANAE's, watched blue comedy tour
Theres yer sign
jeff drove me home
saw UFO's
they were really street lights reflection on my window
the dog was still in the same spot(on the chair in living area) as we left him when we got home to change
I wore the poofy orange dress.. he wore the tuxido w/ yellow vest and long tie...
i need to get richards pic and put britney boobies on him
me and Danae are gunna learn to poll dance this summer
Everytime i had to get back in the car... jeff had to tuck me in because my dress was so massive! it got annoying... but it was really sweet of him to do all that... and be a perfect gentleman allll night long :-D
great night
3 AM i got home
whats on TV... MOOSE.... yet the huge antlered animal woot
its time for bed!!
night
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DAMN i found out my newspaper teacher is leaving. i wont have her for next year.
we'll prolly end up getting some teacher who wont let us go get chicken, or let us goof off... or let us say cuss words...., or wont sit and just talk to us. sucks huh?
Last night my bf jeff came over. He said he had a suprise for me. He had been hinting at it all week. He said he was going to take me some place and wanting me to guess. I guessed right then he kinda changed it so i never did know what to think.
He came over before 5:30 and brought me a dozen red roses for no reason.
He really didnt take me anyplace for a suprise. The roses were the suprise.
He knows that no guy has ever given me flowers before.
Im looking for a way to preserve them. Hes really sweet like that.
We went out to eat at Fazoli's. then we went by Hastings so i could pick up the new 3 Doors Down CD and then next door to Office Depot to get iron on tshirt transfer paper.
We got home and watched the rest of my moms soap opera One Life to Live(or something like that) while making the rest of my tshirt and setting up his design.
NOW my Boycott Spencers shirt is complete!
YAY
TODAY
we had a quiz i failed in algebra
Im making a 73 in English and i though i had tutorials today but i didnt. So i went to theatre and set up everything to get my letter jacket :-D yay.
I thought i would fall through.
drama teacher had me run all over the school to get stuff. i went to one of hte office workers to give her purchess request sheets and to pick up a couple more. she said, "this woman is going to drive me to drinking" its kinda funny.
yep.... so far thats it
I have a violin lesson later on today and imma spend the night doing absolutly nothing probably, hopefully.
I hope to go to the zoo over the 4 day weekend.
Saturday---
Last night I went to bed at like 12 at night and my mom got me up at 8:15 to get ready for this movie stuff I wanted to do. The paper advertised for a couple weeks that they would need "extra's" to play zombies in the movie The
I called my boyfriend to go with me because no one else would or could go.
We got to the set a little after 10am and got our numbers and waited in a line. I felt sick that morning and hadnt eaten. I felt like I was gunna puke.
We looked around and I saw my friend Morgan( also a symphony belle) chillin with a couple of her friends (Alec and Wes and someone else that i forgot the name of)
We talked awhile and then about an hour and a half later they asked us to get in numerical order.
All sorts of people were there. People that even looked like they wouldnt be interested in that sort of thing. there were also a few scary lookin people. Not scary cuz of the makeup either.
We waited untill about 3 :30 before we actually got to do anything. People had blood ( corn syrup with red food coloring) all over them... gashes in their faces. It was awesome. there were a punked out guy w/ a green mowhawk. he was friendly
Finaly my bf and I got in a shoot where they sprinkeled very little blood on us.( some got more) We were towards the front of the building and they were filming from the back. I doubt that I will be seen but if so, Im a blonde girl in a yellow t-shirt next to a tallish skinny guy and getting pushed by some scary lookin pervert.
We had to yell and scream like zombies for a voice recording.
3 people were arrested for sexual harrassment duing that day. They would not tollarate profanity either. They said they would warn you once and then they would kick you out if you did.
It was interesting to say the least. LONG Tiring day.
Made of steel you hearts not real
As you whisper in my ear
lies of hopes and dreams you think i will forget.
Everlasting regret
keeps me pulling from you
but your selfish buys you time to give you what you want
Its all about you and only you
your lies your likes
WORD ASSOCIATION
Sharp: Knife
Blood: hypnotic
Happy: clam
Sun: moon
Rain: cold
Cat: tiger and fluffy
Giant: nothing
Home: sleep
Yellow: my cousins fav color
Darkness: sleep
Oblivion: where i'm at 24/7
Death: far future
Hope: always
Lies: betrayal
Trip: stress relief
Run: fast
Life: ever evolving
Money: green
Cigarette: asthma
Scar: memories
Pain: sorrow
Heart: ache
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Ive been waiting for these feelings to leave me
Denying what you had done to me.
but I cant stop thinking about that last time together
this type of thing, will stick with me forever.
When I told you No
you didnt even listen
When I felt like crying
you couldnt even tell
I couldnt find the words to speak
I didnt have the nerve to leave.
You held me down, you held me back, you betrayed me and my trust, dont tell
I'm not listening
I'm not feeling
I'm becomming Numb to you
I'm just fearing and
I'm just wishing that
you will never come back again.
You left me a year ago,
Never explained to me so,
why did i take you back after all that.
I knew you'd hurt me again.
My heart is entangled
in shambles
in peices
Have you ever felt it in your heart, the pulling strings just fall apart. unraveling something real.
Well I just thought that I knew, Something that would be so true. I thought that I was in love with you.
But now thats all gone, and now i'm just now moving on. I would always be a alone with you.
When I told you No
you didnt even listen
When I felt like crying
you couldnt even tell
I couldnt find the words to speak
I didnt have the nerve to leave.
You held me down, you held me back, you betrayed me and my trust, dont tell
I'm not listening
I'm not feeling
I'm becomming Numb to you
I'm just fearing and
I'm just wishing that
you will never come back again.
You left me a year ago,
Never explained to me so,
why did i take you back after all that.
I knew you'd hurt me again.
No more No more. I am gone now, No more No more. The numbness takes me in.
A woman pregnant with twins, a girl and a boy, went into labor.
She was in a difficult labor for the loooongest time.
After she finally gave birth the Dr's gave her some heavy pain medication to help her rest.
She was out like a light for 8 whole hours!
Upon awakening the new mother's brother entered the room. "You were asleep so long that I had to name babies." He announces to his exhosted sister.
Knowing her brother wasnt the brightest crayon in the box, the woman dreaded hearing what kind of names her children would have.
"What's the girl's name?" The woman asked.
"Denise," her brother replied grinning.
Now thats not such a bizzar name she thought. She could deffently live with that.
"What's the boy's name?" she asked.
"Denephew," her brother replied grinning just as big
I thought it was kind of cute and funny.
I'm a little excentric
but thats okay.
I wouldnt ever change
I like myself this way
I wish I could be like you
Talk so smooth and look good too.
But I'm just a little excentric
and its what im used to.
I wouldnt be someone else
not even for you.
I cant hide who i am.
hideous and recluse
I could be just mute
an unlikely koot
Oh i wish that
i was just like you
loud and obnoxious, wanting and unbound.
Oh i wish that
I could be me too
Im just a little unordinary just under par from extrodinary
Thats me
Just a little excentric
but it's okay
You'll get used to it
Richard- "3 members are quitting 1Act."
Me- "GREAT! maybe i can get in now"
Richard- "yea"
Me-"What kinda parts are they"
Richard-"major characters"
Me-"thats okay, who?"
Richard-"the three leading male roles"
Me- "Damn. I could still do it. Put my hair up or cut it and i'd look like a boy"
Richard- "Yeah all you have to do is wear one of those things that makes you look like you have no boobs."
Me- "I dont have anything."
Richard looks at me
Richard-"yes you do!" "You have theses!" going for my hoodie .Steals the mini wheats from inside the pocket of my hoodie
sometime new i have concluded today
sometimes the best/nicest people get hurt. and you could never understand why.
Sometimes the best/nicest people do the hurting. and you could never understand why either.
what is this madness?
Written about Wednesday 2005-01-19
Written: (7238 days ago)
Eric now he's an exbf since he hasnt called me n a week or so and tried to force sex on me. if i say knwo why does he keep going on, humping me like im a chair leg. i couldnt tell if it was his fingers or his penis causeing hte pain i felt because he kept humping me like a fucking dog. i dont know what to do. sometimes i wish i could die for this betrayal
Eric need to fuck off
i wish i never see him agian
i wont melt for him
ill ignore him