[sadgirlnchucks]'s diary

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Written about Wednesday 2006-01-25
Written: (6878 days ago)
Next in thread: 52094

GUESS WHAT???

PEOPLE CALL ME F L A W L E S S

51970  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2006-01-25
Written: (6878 days ago)

Don't worry
Nothing can hurt me now..
Just the pain is soo deep you can reach in and grab it any more..
But hey ! It's okay now..
The razor will never run aginst the wrist ..
My crimson will never spill for you..
My heart is in my chest.. Is that okay?
It inches it's way into my throat..
Maybe its better..
Words can't describe How I feel right now..
Half is just pure joy.. The other half.. I feel kinda empty like a part of you is gone?

But the one thing that I am sure about is tha I love you.. You are the one that has helped me through this..
You are the light at the end of my tunnel and all i can say is thank you..
I love you more then i love anybody or anything..
I adore you ..

ps.. My bf owns yours.. ! <3

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Written about Monday 2006-01-23
Written: (6880 days ago)

TALKING TO YOU MAKES MY HEAT SKIP A BEAT
YOU SEEM TO FIND A WAY TO MAKE EVERYTHING BETTER..
ALL I CAN DO IS JUST THANK YOU ...
<3

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Written about Friday 2006-01-20
Written: (6883 days ago)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YEW <3

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Written about Thursday 2006-01-19
Written: (6884 days ago)

I am in soooo much pain right now..
My teeth are killing me which makes my head just throb..
I am ready to curl in a ball and just throw up... *rubs my eyes* It hurts a bunch and everytime I bend over it makes it feel worse.. >.<

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Written about Wednesday 2006-01-18
Written: (6885 days ago)

Hey guess what... YOU .. YES YOU..
I <3 YOU LYKE WOAH <3

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Written about Tuesday 2006-01-17
Written: (6886 days ago)

I thought pain was the nature of the beast..
Maybe it is Maybe its not.. You have shown me its not..
The rain outside pours from the skys..
Something so pure will wash anything away..

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Written about Thursday 2006-01-12
Written: (6891 days ago)
Next in thread: 50017

Okay so I woke up this morn and the only thing i could think of was..
TO HOT TO TROT.. *scratches my head as my cat ears go back* WTF.. where did that even come from..

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Written about Friday 2006-01-06
Written: (6897 days ago)
Next in thread: 49227

I HATE MYSELF..
More then I will ever know..
I WILL NEVER FORGIVE MYSELF..
I WANT TO END THIS SHIT..
I HATE THIS FEELING.. My heart is in my throat..
CAN I GIVE UP YET?
IS IT MY TIME..

49220  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2006-01-06
Written: (6897 days ago)

i <3 you [mfdspanky]
I just wanted to tell you so you will know..

49066  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2006-01-05
Written: (6898 days ago)

Why am I so confused...
I think i just pissed you off..
Maybe I should pop some pills and just stop it all..
I care for you.. i don't know if you do me like we used to be..
I am confused. I want to fix it..

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Written about Sunday 2006-01-01
Written: (6903 days ago)

Dear world,
Is it okay if i give up PLEASE.. I hurt the one person I never wanted to hurt.. Sometimes I want to wave the white flag and say STOP WORLD.. I GIVE UP.. NO MORE PLEASE .. NO MORE PAIN FOR OTHERS.. I am sorry.. World.. I AM SORRY.. I will never heal the wounds I have created.. I am sorry.. i wish to take them away and put them on myself.. Put THE HURT ON ME TAKE IT AWAY FROM YOU.. you said you have become so cold.. Look what I have created.. I HATE Myself for it..

47898  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2005-12-28
Written: (6906 days ago)

You are the LAST person I wanted to hurt..
Trust me on this one..
I rather Put pain upon myself then EVER EVER HURT YOU..
I have hurt you in so many ways then one.. It kills me everynight to know this..
I have to live with my mistakes and the major one is hurting you..
I can't Live withmyself for doing such a horrible thing to such a sweet person.. i am sorry..
I am sorry ... These words will never mend what I did to you.. NEVER..


46987  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2005-12-21
Written: (6913 days ago)

One last diary thing.. Guess what i <3 Dustin ..i don't care anymore

46985  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2005-12-21
Written: (6913 days ago)

The rain will NEVER wash away this pain I am feeling..
For its not MY pain.. But the pain of others..
I hate myself for doing this..
This is already my 3 journal post..
I can't stand it anylonger..
I want to throw up..
I want to go to sleep and never wake up.. Just not right now..
I hurt yall.. i am sorry.. I am through.. I am happy with him but that is not good enough anymore.. I can't STAND IT ANYMORE.. This game I don't wanna play .. I wanna raise my white flag in defeat

46984  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2005-12-21
Written: (6913 days ago)

I have hurt so many people.. i feel like I am going to throw up.. I wanna run away and hide and never come out.. the tears I shed WILL NEVER BE ENOUGH.. NEVER.. i am happy.. But I am losing sooo much.. I hate myself because of the fact I am hurting my friends..

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Written about Wednesday 2005-12-21
Written: (6913 days ago)

I am with somebody now..
But I hurt the people that in one time meant so much..
For all of you i am sorry.. I am happy now.. He makes me happy.. *sighs* I Don't wanna let go of my friends that ment so much.. Please don't make me let you go..

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Written about Tuesday 2005-12-20
Written: (6914 days ago)

I don't wanna play this little game anymore....
My heart can't take it.. Hell for that matter I CAN'T TAKE IT..
Where is the rain when I need to ..
Least the water will hold me close and wash away the tears

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Written about Wednesday 2005-11-30
Written: (6934 days ago)
Next in thread: 44228

Have you ever felt like your heart was gonna drop in your throat? Well now is the time to do that

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Written about Tuesday 2005-11-29
Written: (6935 days ago)

I hate you! *rawr* I hate you evil class.. yes yes I hate you .. *sTAB*oKAY SO its half my fault considering the fact I had 3 months to do it *laughs* Its funny how 3 months now turns into 2 days to do it.. *falls over* I will see what I can do..

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Written about Friday 2005-11-18
Written: (6946 days ago)

I am glad we are together..
You make me feel alive..
You make me feel wanted..
Stay with me forever and I shall be this whole person

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