no reason to stay

i wore this mask 
so you couldn't see
the truely depressed side of me
but you found it anyway
all my fears, anguish and tears
you found everything
everything i was
and everything i now am
but do you understand
i did not choose to be like this
i did not ask for it
it is a burden i must carry
a price i pay for being me
i changed it once
but i cannot change it again
its holding me back
i've gone to far in
everyday i try to think of a way out
a way to set myself free
but i've only found one
and then everyone would hate me
my heart has been broken
i have let go of all my hopes and dreams
i hold on to all my fears and scream
i've done everything wrong
or so it would seem
is there anyone out there who can save me
pull me from this dark, dreary place
into the light so i can finally see
i thought you were the one
you could always amaze me
you always made me happy
and i almost got free
then you left
and i went back
to the sadness and grief
and now im growing mad
i cannot live like this anymore
my life has no meaning
no purpose
so end it now
go ahead take my life away
i have nothing to live for
i have no reason to stay