well i just got the news that my great grandmother isnt going to make it though the night.. it hurts so much. like i dont know what to say, think, or do. she means a lot to me and i dont want her to pass. but i know she will be looking down on me from heaven. its hard to even talk about it right now so when im able to ill write more.
ah i just wish it all would stop right now.. im sick of all the fighting and all that stuff here at home. i know none of you really know what im talkin about so i should prolly expalin.
okay i moved out of my moms for a few months so i could calm down and collect myself and give her time away from me also. well i moved back in thinking things would be at least a little different and stuff and i was totally wrong. now some days i wish i wouldnt have moved back in because of everything. I dont get along with her boyfriend one bit and he doesnt like me either. my mom doesnt seem to notice that hes just pushing her out of my life and she doesnt care to what i see.
well for the past week or so hes been yelling at my mom and making her cry and i cant stand that. i hate to hear my mom cry. well he got what was coming to him last night by brother. well he got all in his face telling him that he needs to get off his ass and all this and all that kinda stuff and i was glad he did dont get me wrong cuz someone finally got the balls to do it and all but its like i just want the fighting to stop for a while and everything to cool off. i wish robbie would leave and never come back. but like that will ever happen in my life time. i dont know i just guess that im sick of me having to keep shut up about everything that goes on and stuff and not be able to say a word i guess thats why i am the way i am right now cuz i cant say anything or i get kicked out and have to live with my dad. so yeah. i just want things to calm down for a while and things to just go my way for at least one day. but i should go for now ill keep yall updated on what happens for who ever reads this.
About the one i posted a while back. i am still not sleeping all that well and im still dealing with the problem. i havent heard any more information on it yet but when i do ill let yall know about it. just another thing thats always on my mind if he will do it again and to who. that guy is a perv and needs to get his ass where he belongs and thats not in this town. i was his grand daughter and he had the nerve to do that. what a sick sick man and i trusted him. i feel really stupid now for doing something like that for him. well talk to you later..
love always ~smurfy~
My whole life just took another spin and its not that good of a one either. Saturday night and early Sunday mornging was the worst i have ever felt in my whole life well not the worst but the same worst as the last time it happened to be but yea im just really hurting right now nad its like im not sure what to say, do, think or anything any more i cant eat or anything i cant sleep i need help i know
ALLEGAN -- An Allegan County boy died after a semi truck hit him while he was riding his bike.
The accident occurred around 1 p.m. Wednesday along Western Avenue, also known as M-40, in Allegan.
Police refused to release details about the crash. Allegan Police Chief Rick Hoyer says they are not releasing information out of respect for the family.
Friends of the victim's father told 24 Hour News 8 the boy's name is Leigh Crisman of Pullman. He was apparently visiting friends in the area.
The kids were riding their bikes on a sidewalk along what local residents call Water Tower Hill - a heavily traveled portion of Western Avenue.
Apparently the boys came down the hill when Crisman lost control of his bicycle and fell into the road, in front of the semi truck.
Police say there is no criminal investigation, and we assume the driver of the truck has been cleared of any wrongdoing. A large skid marks in the road shows where the driver tried to avoid hitting the boy.
Friends of the boy' dad - members of the Wolfpack Motorcycle Group - say they will work with the city to figure out a way to construct some kind of barrier between the street and the sidewalk.
The group says it is planning a ride for later this summer to raise funds for whatever project they can come up with to build the barrier.
~may he rest in peace and may god be with his family and friends as they go though this hard time that has come apon them~
i dont know what to think any more...
its been a while from the last time i wrote in here..man i think im going crazy..i dont know what to do any more i ran away twice...now my bf is so pissed off at me he wont even talk to me i think he wants to break up and i dont want that cuz i love him with all my heart i would die for him...i dont know what to do...
i dont know what to do any more it seems like one of my really good friends think that i dont trust him but who knows i like this one guy but i dont know if i should ask him out or not im sick of getting my heart broken and im sick of breaking the guys hearts...if you know what i mean....i went to the lake today got sun burn that sucks ass...i just dont know any more what to do i dont want to know what to do either so yeah
im sick of all the bitching just leave me alone
the pain
no one understands me,
they dont know how it makes me feel,
they always criticise me,
they make me feel like im not real,
some times i wonder why im here,
most days i wish i would just drop down dead,
and put everyone out of their miseery,
so i lie here on my bed,
wiht a knife in my hand,
do i dare?
to kill my self,
if i did its not like theyd care,
i push the blade through my brain,
i feel the blood rund down my face,
im going to go to hell now,
its a far better place,
im leaving all my troubles be hind,
and all the people who made me sad,
im leaving the world were i once lived,
and all the things that made me mad,
all the times i felt that i,
just could not go on,
all the times i felt that i,
was being stranded upon,
but now those times are over,
because i have ended my life,
and all of this was possible,
with the sharp edge of a knife.