today....
is one hell of a shit and stressful day.
i just ....
i just want to be with her. i can feel peace. calm. quite. serene. everytime i'm with her. my one and only. the one i gave my heart for. *sigh* yeah, there will be a lot of sighs whenever i'm alone.
right now. what is right now? EMPTY! that is it. it is EMPTY

E-M-P-T-Y!!!

i've been wondering through the darkness seeking for my guiding light. i was all alone. thoughts passings in and out of my head without leaving any messages. million sighs i have made but in all those things, nothing can calm me down.

i miss you.

la notte fonda e la luna piena 
ci offrivano da dono solo l’atmosfera 
ma l’amavo e l’amo ancora 
ogni dettaglio è aria che mi manca 
e se sto così..sarà la primavera.. 
ma non regge più la scusa...

after all the fuck ups and the hassles of the long ride i had to hike for more than a mile. looking for a place where i could avoid rents and just pitch tents near the shore. build fire at night and sand castles at daylight. choose our booze from wine, tequila, beer, or vodka..... even gin and juice. but hey! it would be better to have a mix of everything that there is until we loose our cruise. but knowing that the more we loose our cruise..... and knowing the fact the more fucked up we'd get is the best road that we're all headed. 'cause that's why i'm here. so i asked myself:
"Why are you not here?"
"where you at?"
"where you've been?"
i kissed the sun and held the moon by my hand.


they swam like there was tomorrow and gazed the stars with their shadows as their burrows. we never slept. we got sleepy because we got drunk, and dizzy, and nauseous... and maybe just too spaced out in a state so dreamy. i was then with my friend, MaryJane, and it it would be underrated to say that she just took my pain away. while Captain Kirk along with his crew, and Superman didn't show up just like you. but that's okay. ^.^ i got hit in the brain anyway by a few lightnings while watching the sunset. then i bumped into J while lining up waiting for the concert. so i just asked myself this a lot of times:
"Why are you not here?"
"where you at?"
"where you've been?"
i kissed the sun and held the moon by my hand.


faced the ocean
closed my eyes
stood against the sun

i gotta do something that's what they say because time is ticking away.
i gotta get a job and work 8 hours a day because time is ticking away.
i gotta quit my school and become a famous DJ(?!) because time is ticking away.
i gotta travel the world and learn spanish someday because time is ticking away.

time is ticking away
and there are too many things I wanna say
like "i love you", "thanks for being there"
"seize the day", "enjoy the moment"
because time is ticking away.

99 red ballons

.....and so, i'm home, i had a flu, been coughing for three days now.... finally, the sun found its way out of the clouds. YAY! it's sunny outside. maybee, i'll just go out with Spike! and Slimer by the lake shore and "meditate" to look for some peace and relaxation. call my boss this morning. he said i can take my vacation that i miss due to my stay in the hospital. so tomorrow, i'll leave for a week vacation at Liguria Region. i might stay either in Livorno or Genoa. i'm not sure yet.

i just need to be alone for a while.

home at last! actually, i arrived last wednesday but there was a thunderstorms that lasted 'til friday. caught a flu and... guess what?! in bed again for two days with 38.5°C to 39°C of fever!!! i was blabbering all the time (according to my bro). it always happens when i'm ill.
i just dropped by to look for news and mails but my head was turning and, literally, don't understand a thing of what i'm doing.
the storm was over and it's hot again (it's supposed to be autumn already) but i was frezzing. never been that bad since i was 13 years old..... decades ago!
now, i feel better... uhm... mostly. aside from the car accident remembrance, the sore throat due to excessive coughing (i can immitate The Godfather's voice! ^_^), and slight cold, the rest is going so-so.


i'll take my vacation on Monday. let's hope for a good weather this week. maybe i'll be out of town. but this time, i'll gonna take the train to go there. my "BEAST" is a total wreck and can be repaired but will cost like a brand new one... so *sigh* i'm looking forward for another 206.


and.....
Slimer kicks ass! Spike! cannot stand a chance when their playing. the Sunshine, the kitten loves playing with Spike!'s tail. i must capture them in video next time. and Buster, the cottontail dwarf rabbit, is the same lemme-eat-and-leave-me-alone mood. he's kinda boring for a pet anyway. he's just cute.

good thing the doctor say that i can use the computer if there's nothing to do at the hospital's reception.
they caught me yesterday while using the internet. but they didn't say a thing. i just said: "i'm just reading [get-well-soon cards]!" lol

HAHA!
i'll make and fulfill a lot of promises just to log-in!
i know it's pathetic. but hanging around in this boring hospital for 3 three weeks is like hell! i mean, still with those dog foods that they bring, this hot and sticky bed, with this "armor" i have to wear. it's not the hell io wanted!!!!
ii got a new "room mate". same accident but he's the one responsible. he'll be staying here for4 days only!!!! and THAT pisses me off too! DARN IT!
well, times up folks. maybe next week i can go back home. i can't wait. i just need the final x-ray this friday and let's hope that evrything's fine. *fingers crossed*
time's up! gotta go. I MISS YOU ALL! *KISSES*

change my pasword here too

copied from Elftown

finally, i found a way to log in (thanks to the nurse here who's very nice). been lying here and almost pale. can't move without a wheel-chair. damn two weeks is like eternity. good thing there's that "bastard"->(a way of expressing how much i love my bro) of a brother of mine who kept me updated to what was going on here and the othew site. messin' up with my diary, wikis.... even made a wiki for me without my permission. can't delete those photos. good thing he's on vacation so he can access my house any more. gotta change my password again.
i don't know if it's good or bad to be back. but i'm at ease now that i FINALLY *punches both arms upward* i made it in just for some seconds although, finding out that i loss one Relation, it's very sad. i know it's my fault if i'm me. can't be like [former user#5].(thanks bro, if ever you'll read this.)
WHAT?! even uploaded my songs without permission. oh well, i guess this is his revenge for those stuffs that we've done(brotherly thing).
i'll be adding another thing in my pumpkin poems. i made a lot dduring my stay here in the hospital. this boring hospital.
i guess, it's bye-bye for now. i don't know when will i be back here. i really hope sooner. can't stand it anymore here. I HATE MEDICINES!

Jon's not feeling good emotionally these days.
Maybe, he misses Elfpack or something.

By the way, he wrote this one:

for you

I've been watching this house and wikis, and I find it very interesting that from all the sheets of papers, sketches and drawings, notes and poetry spread around his bedroom walls, he finally found a place where he can show everybody his works (in orderly manner).

           -Christian-

Jon is awake now but will be confine for 3 weeks in the hospital.
He misses everybody specially Ash.