[Skadia]'s diary
[Something you gotta do..]
[Only you can do it..]
[We can't help you..]
[Go...!]
I could have walked
I chose pain and agony..
Foolish, you may say
But I'd walk this road every day
If it brought a smile to her face
Even just once...
"You can erase my memories,
but afterwords..
promise me we'll still be friends?"
[If Only The World Were That Simple..]
A lost little nothing
without the ones I love,
because they are truly..
everything to me..
And my best friend..
My "Ebil Kitteh Appwentice"..
You, the two of you..
Are my only.. my only chance..
..at life..
"Cut me down and I'm gone for good."
..Such an easy phrase to utter..
But such a hard phrase to stay truthful to.
And I know who brought me there..
Not just one..
But two..
That I don't deserve.
An appology is all I can offer..
That, and my loyalty..
But they had that all along..
Where this road will lead me, I do not know.
What will happen on the way, I do not know.
The only thing I do know, is..
If I don't follow this road,
I'll never forgive myself
for abandoning the ones I love..
[Take it, or leave it..]
for being a bitch tonight.. I'm sorry..
for making her feel bad.. v.v
for being a niave halfwit.. ~.~;'...
Heartrate increase
Loss of Motivation
I'm to blame.
OnLy This
I missed Kara by 54 seconds... 54..! v.v;'...
That's like, "Omg I'm going to go hide" worthy.. >.<;'..
All that matters to me..
[On Any Given Night]
Everything will be all right.
All the love in the world,
-eMipu
It feels like an eternity without her.
She tears gently at my thoughts.
Ever so silently growing within me.
Until I could burst..
Keeping me in line.
Keeping me entertained.
While I wait for the one..
Thankz beebz..
Kawakinz...!
Come back soon...!
I need you...!
<33333
Grr.. So I missed Kawakins by lyke.. three hours.. Kinda disapointing.. not saying that's Kawakins' fault, though! Just saying.. ~Sigh.~ Damn my sister for being a computer hog. v.v
I miss you Kawakins.. v.v
Oow, my school stuff turned out fine, just so you know....!
And... How're you..?
..Where do you find those weirdo pictures that you put in your diary, lol. :P XD
<3 I hope I see you soon!
In the less important part of my life.. I finally got to see Final Fantasy VII Advent Children. Unfortionately
At any rate, Advent Children was pretty quick-paced for me, a little hard to keep track of...! But, it was also amazing at the same time. Of course, it only being like an hour long, it cant nearly touch the complexity that Final Fantasy VII RPG came to, however.. the fighting cinimatics were, to say the least, quite incredible. I especially liked the part where Red XIII, Cid, Yuffie, Barret and Vincent all teamed up against that one monster, and started ripping him apart. :p Unfortionately
I'd say... my favorite FFVIIAC movie characters were... Vincent, because.. well........ no need to explain. I'm sure most females agree, plus..! Sweet power. Woohoo. Umm... Tifa! Tifa, Tifa! Yhay! She's always been one of my favorites...! Too bad she gets her arse kicked. ~.~ Eep!
At any rate, I think I babbled enough about AC, lol. Kawakins, Cazzles..!
My two favoritest peoples in the world...!
How art thou's?! :o
I missle you both...!
<3
News flash..!
I can still get online Elfpack at school this year..! Kickass!! <3333!
And..! I finally got to see [On Any Given Night], even better..!!!!!
Welcome back bootiful!
When yew leave, you better be back soon!! <33
I'm tired of [Ayame Whitepaws] and her bullshit about thinking how she can beat the system and change accounts repeatedly to mouth me and Kara off.
We never did anything to her, she did shit to us, and apparently I'm bitch #1 and Kara is bitch #2 because of it.
It's not our fault, Jess, nothing is our fault, everything is the result of your pisspoor choices!
(Notice: I didn't say everything is her fault, I said everything is the result of her choices, thus I am not being a "bitch")
I don't think [On Any Given Night] enjoys the attention here, either.
That being said, 'Jess', my offer oppinion still stands.
Back off.
In other news..!
KawakinZ WheRe ArE YeW...?!!? v.v;'
v.v I still miss [On Any Given Night] so feckin' much, I waited a long time for her today.. She has a lot of reading on a certain wiki I invited her to catch up on.. :p
Other than that, no new updates.
Bored.. going to bed.. goodnight everyone, and sweet dreams.
were,
Work, school, work, school.. How mind numbingly lame.. Give me a break, I need one despirately..!
I miss [On Any Given Night] so fucking much.
Oui dumt sa dryd oui fana dra uha fru fuimt fetah so csema, yht oui ryja, so mujamo, tayn [On Any Given Night].
E fecr oui vun so ufh, yc udran'c tu.. Oui'na cu bnaleuic, E lyhhud ryns oui..
Ku uh, so muja. Ku yht pa rybbo. ^.^
Ahem!
[On Any Given Night] and [Kusu] are probably the only ones I know who will be able to figure that out, but it's only meant for [On Any Given Night]. ~Glares at [Kusu].~
I'll be home later tonight. Goodnight if I do not see you all later.
Although we had a good run,
We mutually decided that it was over.
Now, and from now on.
she is occupied and in love.
I wish her luck, and shall always love her.
as supportive as ever in this event.
I love you hun', thanks for the help.
I find myself happy with those whom I love.
I can manage to draw breath.
[Typical update style:]
Okay, so, now that the dramatic part is over.. I am home from work, and very satisfied to find that I might be able to see [On Any Given Night], [The Darkest Star.], and [Ayame Whitepaws] tomorrow. (I.e: I don't work, kickass!)
Today was a great day at work, all of my favorite people on one shift, made it all the more fun.
Overall, it was a great night. The only downside was.. I got home thirty minutes too late, and [On Any Given Night] had already left. ~Tries not to pout.~ Oh well, I'll do my best to see her tomorrow. <3
School tomorrow, as always. ~Sigh.~ I seriously need a break, and some asprin. :p
Well, that about covers the updates in the life of [Skadia].
Goodnight all, sweet dreams, stay away from demonic possessed muffins. <3
I wished Kawakins Happy Birthday on the exact minute that she was born! ^-^ Mwahaha! The first to officially wish her a happy birthday, ph33r mi!! <333!!
Remember when me and Kara called you, "pup".. and you almost freaked..? <.< I found out why. ~Ebil smile.~ That's so not why we were calling you that, though. ;)
[MakE.ThaT.FouR.A.FivE.]
[I.OfficiallY.HavE.FouR.PieceS.OF.EvidencE.AgainsT.JesS.]
Will she be honest with me yet?
[Ayame Whitepaws] is a lying, cheating, slutwhore, is everyone satisfied now?
I listened. I realize it.
I KNOW she was wolf.of.Moons or whatever on USWest battle.net, I know that she was a dirty little.. you-know-what. >.<;'
I know, I know!!
Jess, we're over.
I'm tweeking, SO freaking much..
If I was suicidal.. this would be the time to slit up and never come back..
The sigh before the storm. I'm ready.
C'mon, make me cry... I'm already dead, anyways. </3
I don't deserve to make you laugh...
I don't deserve to make you cry...
I don't deserve to hold your love...
I don't deserve to be comforted from you...
I don't deserve to hold your heart cruely...
I don't deserve to make you pained...
And that is unacceptable...
I hurt you, knowing all the time...
That I love you...
That I deserved to call you mine...
To hold you in my arms...
And pretend that everything's..
Perfect.
..And I don't deserve...
..to make you cry.
The above goes to Kawakins...
I refuse to make her cry anymore...
I know [Ayame Whitepaws] is going to majorly pissed that I said I loved [On Any Given Night] still, but hey.. at least I'm not lying or going behind anyone's backs..
I'll always love you both..
I'm sorry I'm not perfect..
Goodnight... and sweet dreams...
~Slowly kisswez bof dere cheekiez, tearing swightwy.~
..v.v..
[Ayame Whitepaws]¤Make that last countdown¤
¤Will she always...¤
Eh? Looks like I screwed up on my last journal entry a little bit... ~Slightly laughs.~ Seems... Olivia wasn't the only one guilty. ~Glares at Jess.~ Meh, we're still together though, because I haven't officially broken up with her over it.. <.<;'.. Eh? It's hard! v.v;'..
..o.o;'.. I... Really need to talk to her. ^-^""..
Today has been fun so far.. I was absolutely right about my previous post!
Today, I handcuffed her, made her moan, and got her to call me, "Mistress"..
I'll leave your imagination to discover the rest!
We're staying together, so back the fuck off Olivia. >.o
-[Ayame Whitepaws]'s Lady Skadia the Rogue.
playtime was over... playtime is still over.
I'm through with the games, through with it all..
Not everything's meant to be broken.. not everyone.
I won't be broken.. I won't...
My path decided...
I'll follow it,
until the end.
¤The strange and twisted remainders of reality¤
¤softly tearing and picking at my scarred flesh.¤
¤The remaining bits of my sanity dwelling over¤
¤the edge of complete and utter insanity.¤
¤What was she hiding, but now refuses to hide? ¤
¤Why so suddenly has the darkness became reality?¤
¤Oblivions embrace awaits.. but then..¤
¤The future has not been determined yet.¤
..Err.. Sorry about the weirdo entry.. o.O;'.. Something someone said scared the shit out of me..