[Skadia]'s diary
I'm sorry I haven't been around. Every time I see this place I get sad. X_X
I really think I need to talk to Cazzi and Kawa sometime... If you two ever see this could you PM me? @.@;
You two used to be my favz people in the world and, well... I miss you. ._.;
I hope the future is more pleasant than the past. I know personally, I am a lot more mature than before. >:)
Love you two either way. O_O;
Little did I know then
Where this would go
When this begun
Once I was free to fly...
I never promised anything
This may well be goodbye
Don't ask why
Don't be sad
Sometimes we all
Must alter paths we planned
Only try understand
I want to save you
From the lost and damned
Although you hold me close
I feel retention arise
Just as a hint of fear
Like subtle clouds
In summer skies
Once in the moonlight...
I can't explain
And I don't know
Somehow we may reunite
Don't ask why
Don't be sad
Sometimes we all
Must alter paths we planned
Don't forget what we had
But let me save you
From the lost and damned
My eye is like.. All twitchy and stuff.. o.O;
I just thought you all should know that.
Isn't it *sexy*?!
'Kay, I'll try to be online right after school, KaWaKiNz. x.x
Sowwi KaWa..! I logged off cuz I thought you were gone.. and then the school computers wouldn't let me log back on anymore..
CaZZLeZ, I missed you by like.. literally five minutes.
Damn me for needing to use the bathroom! >.<;
'Kay.. I'm going to be honest..!
I heard about the.. thing! And..
At first, I was a little jealous, and felt really left out..
But after thinking..
I think it's great..
And you two both still want to be a part of me..
I have no reason to felt left out.
I love you both..
-eMi
etherealnightm
cencored?: Yes.
etherealnightm
etherealnightm
cencored?: Hes hitting on everyone...
etherealnightm
cencored?: As Jess yes.
'Kay 'Kay.. so..
Who does it love?!
Me, Cazzles, KaWa.. the unknown person.. or all the people the unknown person knows?!
Lol. Answer: everyone.
And we wonder why it's manipulative..
kenmc eh dra ahdena funmt
yd so ceta, yht drana'c
hudrehk suna E luimt fecr
vun eh dra ahdena funmt.
So pnekrdacd cdyn.
So Apem Geddar Ybbfahdela.
I learned an important lesson today..
No matter how hard you try to prove yourself..
You can never change the oppinion
or false accusations about yourself that are seen
through another's eyes.
You can never force them to see their own faults,
and you can never force them to see you for what you are.
I'm better than that now, I've reached the above level of that.
Sad, how I am so young, and learning lessons that my immature ex-bosses fail to realize, even to this moment.
Good news everyone..!
I finally got my computer to a level of somewhat good functionality, and.. on top of that, I got my soundcard and my usb ports to work again. That means.. psp stuff is now available for me, plus..! I can hear things. The first thing I tried hearing was Final Fantasy VII Advent Children, and I was mesmerized by how much better the movie was with music..! Especially the final battle. (I'm trying not to have any more spoilers. :p)
The next few days will probably be experement, i.e: To find out if my computer can function as it is, or if I need to fix it further. >.<;'..
Bear with me if I'm not around as much.. and, I'm sorry..!
More than the air I breath
More than a warm breeze..
More than anything..
Grr..
too tired...
I'll be back at 6am my time..
It's currently 12:10am..
[Wolf.of.Memories] didn't let me and
[The Darkest Star.] switch "bitch" titles.
But don't worry Cazzles..
You'll always be "bitch number 1" in my heart,
if I can be "bitch number 3". <3
</inside joke>
I missle yew [On Any Given Night].
Where art thou pwetteh one gone?!
I NeeD YeW!..
I missed yew by seventy minutes..
Not-so-Kinkah.
I still think that
[Wolf.of.Memories] needs to get a hobby..
[Ayame Whitepaws], [Wolf.of.Memories], i.e: BabyKitten.
They're all the same, afterall. :p
Don't move yur eyez too much
on it or u'll get tweekish. <.<
Off too bed.
Be alive in the morning.
A mere memory of no traces.. a scourched
image of a forgotten one.
I'll never forget you.
And someday.. I'll be back.
On the day that she no longer hurts for me..
On the day that I no longer make her cry..
On vacation.. :\
[Something you gotta do..]
[Only you can do it..]
[We can't help you..]
[Go...!]
I could have walked
I chose pain and agony..
Foolish, you may say
But I'd walk this road every day
If it brought a smile to her face
Even just once...
"You can erase my memories,
but afterwords..
promise me we'll still be friends?"
[If Only The World Were That Simple..]
A lost little nothing
without the ones I love,
because they are truly..
everything to me..
And my best friend..
My "Ebil Kitteh Appwentice"..
You, the two of you..
Are my only.. my only chance..
..at life..
"Cut me down and I'm gone for good."
..Such an easy phrase to utter..
But such a hard phrase to stay truthful to.
And I know who brought me there..
Not just one..
But two..
That I don't deserve.
An appology is all I can offer..
That, and my loyalty..
But they had that all along..
Where this road will lead me, I do not know.
What will happen on the way, I do not know.
The only thing I do know, is..
If I don't follow this road,
I'll never forgive myself
for abandoning the ones I love..
[Take it, or leave it..]
for being a bitch tonight.. I'm sorry..
for making her feel bad.. v.v
for being a niave halfwit.. ~.~;'...
Heartrate increase
Loss of Motivation
I'm to blame.
OnLy This
I missed Kara by 54 seconds... 54..! v.v;'...
That's like, "Omg I'm going to go hide" worthy.. >.<;'..
All that matters to me..
[On Any Given Night]
Everything will be all right.
All the love in the world,
-eMipu
It feels like an eternity without her.
She tears gently at my thoughts.
Ever so silently growing within me.
Until I could burst..
Keeping me in line.
Keeping me entertained.
While I wait for the one..
Thankz beebz..
Kawakinz...!
Come back soon...!
I need you...!
<33333