[Faith.Hope.Love]'s diary

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Written about Monday 2013-08-26
Written: (4110 days ago)

ROFLMAO!!!!!!!!!! --> http://elftown.eu/_Christmas%20Art%2012%2c%20page%201

Here "August, 2013" is almost over with, and the "2012" Christmas Art Competition is STILL in its "voting stage"! 'Course, there's a WHOPPING "11" voters! Wow!

Things are being run SO EFFICIENTLY and RESPONSIBLY on Elftown! Perhaps, some sort of "medal" is in order for those in charge? LOL

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Written about Sunday 2013-08-25
Written: (4111 days ago)
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Written about Sunday 2013-08-25
Written: (4111 days ago)

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"Pegasus Badges"


Art/Design by Artsieladie, aka Sharon Donnelly ©2013-08-25 All rights reserved.
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Written about Sunday 2013-08-25
Written: (4111 days ago)

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"Lizard Wizard Badges"


Art/Design by Artsieladie, aka Sharon Donnelly ©2013-08-25 All rights reserved.

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Written about Sunday 2013-08-25
Written: (4111 days ago)

This is SO INCREDIBLY AMAZING!!!!

This girl is both deaf and mute. She has only had access to this horse for "20 days"! But yet, she rides this horse completely without ANY means to control the horse through a bit or bridle or any other controlling device. She only communicates with this horse through her "physical contact" with the horse, such as with her hands and legs. Not even any voice command, because she doesn't speak. In just 20 days!!! She has this horse doing as she asks: canter, gallop, change leads and direction, stop, back-up, spin both to the right and left, and even to bow to the audience! Anyone who knows about horsemanship/equitation and training of horses, can really appreciate just how phenomenal this accomplishment is. Even those who know nothing about it, can!

https://www.facebook.com/photo.php?v=4655458664237

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Written about Friday 2013-08-23
Written: (4113 days ago)

#TopPriority! #Awaken! #BeInformed! #Brainwashing! #Control!

http://viooz.co/movies/20303-state-of-mind-the-psychology-of-control-2013.html

THIS is likely the best 110 minutes of my time I have spent! ..And I plan on watching this several more times.

So, does... Anyone think that we aren't being subjected to brainwashing and mind control? Anyone think the few elite aren't working to make all the rest of us, their slaves? Anyone think this surveillance we're under, isn't for a greater purpose? Anyone think our so-called "education system" is really "to educate"? Anyone think that these diagnoses of example, ADHD, are "real"? Anyone think ANY of our political leaders are in their position to "serve the people"? Anyone think we, The People, aren't being "deliberately distracted"? Anyone think that we aren't being subjected to #mindcontrol and brainwashing via the television we watch? You won't after watching this! ...Unless one is completely stupid!

All "#sheeples", aka "#bubblepeople", need not bother watching this video, UNLESS you desire to become an "#antisheeple".

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..And there are people who think I should just "conform" to the wrongdoing! ...Just blindly go along with the program. These and others can call me a lot of things, assign all sorts of labels to me, but at least I have the GUTS to stand up against the wrongdoing, and those who elect to give me labels and tell me that I "should" just let it go, look the other way... DON'T!!!! I would rather die as an "anti-sheeple", than live as a "sheeple"! People who are willing to accept and/or believe lies, don't have the guts to seek and follow the truth!!!


Thanks to Within Souls & Hearts for sharing this! <3 It will be interesting to see just how many will be brave enough and self disciplined enough to decide for themselves to watch some "#truth"!

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Written about Wednesday 2013-08-21
Written: (4115 days ago)

https://www.facebook.com/photo.php?v=10151646236465450

This is incredibly, incredibly awesome! :) ♥

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Written about Wednesday 2013-08-21
Written: (4115 days ago)

#Quotes

"Many people, especially ignorant people, want to punish you for speaking the truth, for being correct, for being you. Never apologise for being correct, or for being years ahead of your time. If you're right and you know it, speak your mind. Speak your mind even if you are a minority of one. The truth is still the truth." ~ Mohandes Gandhi

..And even though I was banned for "speaking the truth", exposing the guilty, I WILL still always "speak the truth"!!!! Because I know, ONLY those who have something to hide, will mind.

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Written about Monday 2013-08-19
Written: (4117 days ago)

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Indeed! ..and including the scars within, others cannot see. ♥ If we make a conscience effort to explore
in another what lies beneath the surface, without judgment, we then afford ourselves the opportunity to
understand them better and so, to understand why they do or don't do things, why they act or react the
way they do. Unfortunately, there are people who keep everything so close vested and won't allow anyone
in TO be able to understand.

"Scars Are Stars"


When you feel disheartened and dismayed,
Remember other costs you've already paid,
Not to relive previous battle grounds,
But to remind you of the winning rounds,
Where you made it through, stronger than before,
And you will again, make it to the shore.
Allow your scars to be testimonies from your past,
That you have strength enduring and made to last,
Through all the storms and bumpy roads ahead
Focus on accomplishments, minimising dread.


Wear your scars like badges, for strength from them to borrow.
Remember where you've been to look forward to tomorrow.
For all the lessons learned, you've earned your battle scars,
And in your book of life, they are your golden stars!


By Artsieladie, aka Sharon Donnelly ©2013-08-18 23:02:00

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135809  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2013-08-18
Written: (4118 days ago)

I spoke to a couple people the other day, friends of a long time friend of mine, who belong to a fairly large artist group, comprising of about a couple hundred members, mostly into fantasy art and design. We got to talking about websites for artists and they said the group was looking for a website where they all could join and still be able to stay connected or closely knit. For a split second, I thought about Elftown and how it would have been perfect for what they were looking for. But then, I bit my tongue and told them I didn't know of any such site. I can't recommend a site where my name is being slandered and my art is being stolen from me, now can I? ..And yes, denying me access to MY work, is the same as "stealing" it. I'm sure these artists wouldn't appreciate having their work kept from them, as mine has and is from me.

..And then, the owner isn't even mature enough to communicate with someone if they go to him with a concern. I know this first hand, because I went to him first, hoping to talk to him to resolve the situation before it could even get out of hand. Then because of his failure and unwillingness to respond, I wound up going to another for answers, only to find out later, she already had it on her agenda to get rid of me. But yet, all the blame for everything is being cast on me, when the real blame belongs squarely with these two individuals. But... that's the honourable and decent way to do things, you know? Don't accept accountability, but instead, project one's own guilt onto another! THIS is commendable, isn't it? *rolls eyes*

Most mature and intelligent people learn and so, know how to negotiate and work through issues, especially one in the top position should anyway! They don't stick their head in the sand and then expect others to fix their problems for them, especially when they're the cause of problems in the first place!

There's just too much immaturity along with a complete lack of professionalism and this group of artists is a serious group. Oh well, too bad! Hedda could have easily had a couple hundred more members.

I can remember a day when I would have jumped at the chance to plug and brag about this wonderful site I belonged to. Yeah! Not!! :( But these days are long gone I'm afraid. One can't have their cake and eat it too! When you treat someone like shit? Expect shit in return. ...And all the perfume in the world ain't going to alter the shit upon it's return either. If anything, when it returns, it's liable to be more foul smelling when it's sent back to the one who dished it out. lol

But I did say to them that if they happened to find a great site, where I could upload my art to, without having it taken from me, to please let me know. :)

Afterward, my friend and I were talking and she said, "I thought you belonged to some great site? You used to talk about it all the time."

I told her that I did belong to a website that I talked about a lot, that I practically lived on, even worked on it in my dreams for heaven's sake, even donated over $1000.00 to it mostly (because some, for 3 members, was donated to Elfpack), not to mention the years of work, effort, and time I spent on it and another, owned by the same person. Plus, I uploaded to the site at least 10,000 pieces of my art work, plus over 300 poems, plus a number of other written works. But now, the owner has banned me and won't allow me to have the thousands of my works and the banner is all over the Internet saying that I'm a liar, that I make up conspiracy theories and that I harass members and I showed it to her. She was flabbergasted.

"Oh my God!" she said. "What brought all of this on?"

So then I told her from the beginning about how the weird shit was happening on the site, but no one else was experiencing the things that I was and so I went to the owner, but he wouldn't respond. Then I went to the vice mayor hoping to get some kind of help, only to have her put down the owner to me (showed her the MSN conversation), and then how everything just escalated out of control and that everyone on the site that was in a position to help, wouldn't because they were loyal to the vice mayor and then I showed her the conversations that took place between the vice mayor and another person way before I went to her for help and my friend couldn't get over how someone could be so petty and jealous and still pretend to be my friend while stabbing me in the back. But not only me, but with the site owner as well.

We spent a number of hours talking about it and I showed her everything from the private forum where the crew was trashing me to all the degrading and insulting comments on various wiki-pages, particularly on my Love For A Community page (with the harassing comments from the vice mayor and a guard) and where I was goaded by the recently retired vice mayor on the ECM Conference page. I showed her private messages I had gotten from the owner (including the threatening ones) and crew members, plus guestbook messages and the many diaries where I was trashed in.

..And I also showed her my secret diaries and then some diaries and guestbooks where somehow the authors of seemed to have been told what had been written in my private diaries. She asked me how these other members had gotten a hold of what I had written in my private diaries and I said the only person who has access to a member's secret, private diaries, is the owner/operator of the server through its database.

She said then that he's reading private diaries and then telling others what's in them. "That is so wrong! He's misleading the members into thinking they're writing something private and he's reading it and sharing their private diaries! He has the nerve to accuse you of lying? He's lying to every member of his site!"

I also showed her the nasty emails I received from the owner and I told her about the little red heart incident in my badge slot, as I also showed her the screengrabs I took that show how the heart appeared in my badge slot when the owner delivered a badge and then I showed her his message where he denied doing it and said I had done it. But then how the recently retired vice mayor claimed she did, which conflicts with what the owner said (showed her three examples of the false claiming). ..And I also told her I had people at my house even and witnessed the incident, but yet, I was accused of lying about it and other crew members told me that I should knock off my crap and that if the vice mayor said she put it in there, then she did. They expected me to believe something I KNEW was not true.

I showed her my collection of the "Calls to myself", as I also showed her from my saved info, the wiki-page about this very same AND all the comments made on it. She couldn't believe as she said, "the pure ignorance and callousness" demonstrated in the comments. She said the topic on the page was clearly deliberately avoided and she felt that between this page and my LFAC page, it definitely looked like people were working together in a cover up because the data on the Calls To Myself page, most definitely implicates the site owner. When I showed her that the owner made the page so it can't be viewed by the public, she said what I've said all along, that only a guilty person conceals evidence.

I showed her lots and lots of goodies, including how when I invited a member, I was given credit. Then right after the member I invited made a comment in my defense on my LFAC page, my credit was removed. I showed her how a crew member accused me of lying about inviting a member and then I showed her the invite email proving I had.

I showed her how the owner accused me of chasing away the original mod of another site, Elf12, and then I showed her that the mod said it wasn't true. In fact, the original is the one who asked me to be the mod of Elf12. I showed her the owner said that every crew member on Elf12, past and present, which would include the original mod, had gone to him, begging him to get rid of me from Elf12 and then I showed her a slew of messages from those I asked if this was true, which they all said it wasn't. I showed her the email from the owner where he stated at the very end, that I could do with Elf12 as I saw fit because he didn't have anything to do with it, and then I showed her what he did on Dec. 20th, in Elf12's news, totally publicly humiliated me.

While we were on the subject of the "Calls To Myself", I showed her comments made by a former vice mayor, before the most recent former vice mayor, that "directly" correlate with Calls To Myself. The timing between the calls and the comments match perfectly. They took place during the three weeks of my first time banned. In fact, these Calls To Myself were the only ones I got during the three week period. She said that it definitely appears that the owner isn't the only person involved with the Calls To Myself.

I showed her so much stuff! I showed her the email the site owner sent to Hans slamming me and told her how not long after this, Hans' email account got 'somehow' deleted. ..And I showed her how the owner played with the Valentine art page, when I gave Hans the credit for requesting a love song on the After Midnite show. But when I showed her the sequence of events that took place on August 25, 2011, she said with everything else you've showed me, the owner banned you because he was jealous of what Hans wrote in your site's guestbook. It's way too obvious to be a coincidence.

Then I also showed her how what I do on my computer and the things I experience particularly when I talk about this very topic and the log of data I have of my phone conversations and what transpires because of this topic of conversation and she was completely mortified that a person could be so obsessed to go to such extremes to keep tabs on another person.

Needless to say, I showed her a heck of a lot of data, including the date, time, temperature gadget that was placed on my desktop for Linkoping, Ostergotland, Sweden. She said, "My God! This is like a horror show! I don't know how you've been able to cope with this. Just from what I've seen, makes me cringe. Then to have other people gang up on you and belittle you besides, is horrible by itself. All those who are accusing you of being crazy are the ones who are either completely bonkers or stupid then, because you certainly have more than enough to prove your case. It's very clear they are all in it together to try to keep you quiet. To continually tell you to let it go, that's what they're hoping so they'll be let off the hook. I can sure see why you didn't suggest this site!"

I must say, it felt good to actually show someone willing to listen and see what I have and just by what I've saved and documented, shows that this whole mess isn't all my fault as others have tried so damn hard to make me believe.

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Written about Saturday 2013-08-17
Written: (4119 days ago)

"Once"


Once I saw a greatness, once I saw a heart.
Once I saw intelligence, one that was very smart.
Once I saw awesomeness, once I saw a man
That stood apart from others, I was your biggest fan.
Once I saw a charm, one that made me smile,
One that I was willing to go for, the extra mile.
Once I saw integrity, with character quite unique,
My heart lightened when your name I would speak.
Once I felt for you such deep admiration.
Once you were at the center of my inspiration.

But now it seems, I couldn't be more wrong,
For you've been singing a very different song.
I should have listened to your friends, what they had to say,
Because you are what they said, cruel in every way.
But instead I chose to place my faith in you
And now I'm reaping my rewards for what I chose to do,
And I didn't want to believe, you a selfish liar,
Just misunderstood, your goals and your desire.

Countless chances I gave you, regardless of my pain,
All I asked for was to understand, you to explain.
So many excuses I made for you, I refused to see the worst,
While you were laughing at me and with others, I, you cursed.
So as I poured my heart out, you, gave all I could for,
You just delighted in tormenting me more and more.
You steal from me, you try to ruin my name,
While, you stalk and threaten me, then on me, you lay the blame.

You think you are a god, expecting others to slave for you,
To clean up all your messes, all around you strew.
You think God is make believe, yet you desire His name,
You're just a pathetic being with no conscience and no shame.
Within you, there is no beating heart, nor a glimmer of light,
With evil lurking rampantly, you're blacker than the night.
You're nothing more than a thief, a vampiristic leech,
With a hypocritical tongue used in every word you preach.

You creep around in shadows, too cowardly to show your face,
Taunting all your victims, invading others' space.
You're ostentatious, a show-off; superficial and a snob,
With no real ambition, just a spineless, empty lob.
Yet, you think I'm going to give more of me to you?
Just one more thing, dear, try on this poetic shoe.
Ah, it fits you perfectly. It is just your size,
And so, I've uncovered your masterful disguise!

Your arrogance is profound, your highness self perceived,
But at last my eyes are opened and so, now I am relieved.
Finally I know, although it is so very late,
What you had in mind, your being is filled with hate.
But I'm not really sorry, because with love to you, I gave.
Hate holds YOU prisoner, its bondage, you're its slave.


Written by Artsieladie, aka Sharon Donnelly ©2013-04-27 08:39:00

"Loss Of Magic, Very Tragic"


What really is so very tragic,
Is one rebuking their own magic,
Choosing to feed the dark within,
To shun their light is such a sin.
When in themselves, their faith is lost,
And cannot see to them, the cost,
They follow along, forge construction
Of the path to their self destruction.
Their ears are deaf, their eyes are blind,
Their heart is closed and so, their mind.
As they become more consumed,
They seal their fate to one of doomed.

A caring person watching this,
Their sliding into a deep abyss,
Will over and over try to save
A loved one from an early grave.
Of physical death, not in this sense,
But of heart and soul, the consequence.
A vacant heart, an empty soul,
Is a deadened life, a costly toll.


It really is so tragic to watch a person allow themselves to deteriorate to where they lose all their value as a person.

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135806  Link to this entry 
Written about Saturday 2013-08-17
Written: (4119 days ago)

Boy, some people have such a boring life, with nothing better to do than going around and logging in "as other members"! Pathetic!

The "actual" active members' status is a bit tough to swallow, eh?

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Written about Saturday 2013-08-17
Written: (4119 days ago)

#‎Poetry‬

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"Where There Is Love..."


Where there is love, there is life.
Where there is love, there is sight.
Where there is love, there is hope.
Where there is love, there is light.
Where there is love, there is kindness.
Where there is love, there is caring.
Where there is love, there is giving.
Where there is love, there is sharing.
Where there is love, there is truth.
Where there is love, there is feeling.
Where there is love, there is heart.
Where there is love, there is healing.
Where there is love, there is peace.
Where there is love, there is forgiving.
Where there is love, there is joy.
Where there is love, there is living!


By Artsieladie, aka Sharon Donnelly ©2013-08-15

Inspirational credit, thanks to: Stu Hannah :) ♥
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Written about Tuesday 2013-08-13
Written: (4123 days ago)
Next in thread: 135803

#BeInformed!

Parents, this could be important for you and your kids' safety, if you are UNAWARE that your children can be "tracked" and their "exact location" traced through the pictures they take with their phone and then upload them to the Internet. Watch this video to learn how to keep their "location" from falling into the WRONG hands!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N2vARzvWxwY#at=178

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Written about Tuesday 2013-08-13
Written: (4123 days ago)

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"Astounding Stallion - Pegasus"


I should add in regards to this work, the name of the person, who was the sole inspiration and so, responsible for this work
coming to fruition, as well as my Golden Promise Pegasus, as he also was for so many of my other works. I wanted to create
a Pegasus that would 'knock his socks off'... lol ...and this intention was obviously fulfilled, when he saw it (in it's pre-finished
state) and made the comment, "Astounding". Hence the title.

Unfortunately, the person who has been so inspirational, so influential in regards to my creativity, is the very same person
who is now denying me access to my work, along with slandering my name. It is both difficult and heart wrenching to have to
conclude that a person who is so capable of greatness, harbours such a tremendous amount of value within himself, but yet,
chooses to be the exact opposite. THIS is tragic!

Initially, this piece was meant for its home to be on elftown.eu . The links displayed in this work were supposed to be:
www.artsieladie.com , elftown.eu , and www.elftown.org but in lieu of the choice made by the site owner, making
the situation as it is, the initial intended home had to be changed and as long as the situation remains as it is currently, I
strictly prohibit this piece to be uploaded to ANY heddate site/server. In fact, I no longer upload ANY of my artworks to ANY
heddate site/server for the very simple reason, I can no longer condone, support, promote, advocate for, etc., a person and/or
their sites, when they are deliberately, with malice, trying to destroy and defame me and are denying me access to my own
work in the process as well. If I were to trust him again and upload my work to his site, THIS would make me look stupid,
which I am not.

To accuse "me" of being a liar, when he KNOWS full well I am NOT, but KNOWS he, himself, is lying and covering up the truth,
THIS speaks volumes about him and what type of person he prefers to project himself as. To accuse "me" of making up
"conspiracy theories", when I have the facts and then threatens me to shut my mouth, when I bring some of the factual
information out, to prove that I'm neither lying or making up conspiracy theories, THIS warrants HIS motives to be called to
question at the very least. ..And those who don't question, but rather, go along with this agenda, are just as guilty as he is.

To think that "I" did so much for him and his sites, both on and off of them, especially Elftown and Elf12, and then to be
treated the way I am and have been, is downright disgustingly sickening. No one in their right mind kicks to the curb a per-
son who's as devoted and dedicated as I was. I used "my" name all across the Internet to help promote and increase
awareness about, especially Elftown. In fact, he's still reaping the benefits from my name and online presence, as he slan-
ders it! This is pretty damn low. So, he reaps the benefits from my name, but in turn is slandering it and stealing my work!
What kind of person would ever do such a despicable thing!?

I joined many, many websites for the sole purpose to get a link or links posted back to Elftown. In fact, I joined Facebook to
support and help promote Elftown. I purchased the domain of Artsieladie.com to use my name to bring increased awareness
and attention to/for Elftown. I also purchased the domain of Elftown.org to use the site to bring more attention to/for Elftown.
I was even going to invite some Elftown members to Elftown.org to help with this endeavor and I even thought that possibly
at some point, it could have been an extension of Elftown.com, when Elftown became a much more prominent site on the 'Net,
to help make Elftown an even bigger and more prominent website on the Web, because I never limited my visions for Elftown.
In fact, I dreamed of Elftown becoming "thee place to be" on the Internet and with his capabilities, I never doubted for a min-
ute of THIS being possible. But THIS is the kind of faith and belief I had both in him AND his site(s), particularly Elftown. ..And
to go along with this Elftown.com/Elftown.org idea, I even created a Facebook page!

I started a WetPaint site, "Elftown Lovers" and a blog for the same reason, to promote Elftown, as I also started a Twitter
account, again, for the same reason. ..And this was when I knew very little about networking and its benefits. I still am in the
process of learning how it all works, but I do think about how much more I could be doing for Elftown now, because of my
increased presence online and all the connections and contacts I've made. ..And the beauty about networking is, if you place
a link to a site, image, whatnot, in one place, then it automatically gets spread around through/on all the accounts/sites you
have connected to where you placed it. ..And then with the hashtag feature being used on Twitter and now other sites, too,
like Facebook, this is another tool that can be used to bring more attention to Elftown, for example.

Let's just say, for example, and to explain what I could be doing IF I was still active on Elftown. I could share/post images
and wiki-pages on Pinterest. Then whatever I did on Pinterest, would be sent to Facebook AND to Twitter. Once on Twitter, it
would also be displayed on all my other accounts I have connected, such as Tumblr, WordPress, Facebook timeline, Facebook
page, etc.. I could share/post an Elftown link or links daily on my Facebook timeline, where there's a large audience and so,
many connections, which would increase attention and awareness about Elftown AND once on my Facebook timeline, it then
goes automatically to Twitter.

If I were to reactivate the blog for Elftown, it would then be connected to at least Twitter, which would then ultimately send
whatever I post on it to Facebook and all the other accounts connected to Twitter. I just joined a new site which is about more
online networking, which I hope to make many more connections through. On Google+, the number of people joining my circles
is growing steadily. Therefore, here's another avenue to increase awareness.

BUT... I can't do ANY of these things because I can NOT support or promote a person or anything pertaining to that person,
who is hellbent on maliciously trying to destroy my name and reputation and who is stealing my work. So, he gets to carry on
with his agenda sure enough, but he isn't doing so without cost to himself. Apparently, he thinks it's better to cut off his nose
to spite his face, which isn't an intelligent strategy no matter which angle it's viewed from.

So rather than acting maturely, responsibly, and intelligently, he decides to allow his ego fed, stubborn pride to supersede and
intercept his smarts. Instead of communicating with me, to work things out, and so I wouldn't have to feel forced into defend-
ing myself, which involves telling the truth, backed up with data showing I am, which makes him look rather bad, he'd much
rather keep this dragging on, like a child would, because a child doesn't differentiate between good and bad attention. A child
will accept any type of attention, as long as it's attention.

I have offered to him a number of times a willingness to work things out "with him" and in a way that would be "mutually ben-
eficial" for us both. But I guess he must like all of the negative attention, instead of the positive attention he could just as well
be benefiting from. To think I once admired him for his intelligence. I guess I was wrong to think this.

It's just so difficult to accept that a person I once SO admired, respected, and looked up to, and who has SO inspired me, could
turn out to be such a mean, cruel, and heartless individual. ..And all those who I considered to be friends, joined in against me,
serving the crusade of a jealous individual to get rid of me from the site, which I now have confirmation of as of about two and
a half years ago. ..And yet, there are people that think I should just treat this whole mess like it's no big deal, when if it were
happening to ANY of them, they wouldn't be quiet about it. People who expect another or others to do what they would never
do themselves, are pretty damn shallow and self absorbed. :'(

Oh... just in case he decides to deny the "astounding" comment of his, like he did with the little, red heart in my badge slot?
Take a look at this:
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Written about Sunday 2013-08-11
Written: (4125 days ago)

As far as this "following the chain of command" is concerned?

When I began suspecting strange things I was experiencing on elftown.eu "I" did exactly this. I went to the person who I suspected was behind the incidents, the person at the top of the "chain of command". Do you want to know "where" exactly THIS got me?

Since he refused to respond, at least in what most would perceive as a 'normal' way, "I" therefore went to the one who was second in command, who was "supposedly" his friend, and but, little did I know when I did, that she had had it already on her agenda to get rid of me off the site and for about a year prior, as she also KNEW that the site owner had some sort of interest in me, which she chose not to disclose to me, and so, instead of helping me much as I was hoping, she played it cool on the site, but then she suggested we take our conversations off the site, at which time her whole demeanor changed, basically trying to convince me to think negatively towards the owner, all except the "strange, non-fitting, interjected part", which was in the site owner's favour and totally contradictory of all the rest she said to me. (In regards to the word "friend", my dictionary must need to be revised!) ..And since she KNEW he was harbouring an interest in me, why did she deliberately try to sabotage it? ..And especially since he and her were "supposedly" friends? Don't 'real' friends want to see their friends happy or at least, support them if they have a chance to be?

So, basically and as is apparent through much data I've gathered, been provided, collected and documented since, all I did was give the owner a heads up about my suspicions, so he would then be able to devise a plan to shut me up and if I wouldn't, then put in motion maneuvers that would ultimately put the person seeking my removal and myself at direct odds with each other, knowing that those who ran the site would all be loyal to her and would therefore rally against me, which pretty much solved his dilemma of having to worry about his secret activity becoming known. ...And if it was made known, well he had secured a clever method to keep others from taking me seriously.

Meanwhile, he continues to get away with his wrongdoing and my objections to it fall on apathetic, deaf ears. So do "I" think "following the chain of command" was the right path or strategy to follow? Apparently not. I'm left with being ostracized, ridiculed, my name and reputation slandered, my creative works stolen from me, etc. and still being subjected to having my privacy invaded.

..And the irony of it all, is that I went to the owner for the sole purpose of him and I discussing it to avert any future problems with him because I admired him tremendously and I loved his sites beyond being describable, to keep it between him and I, because I didn't see a need to involve others when the strange occurrences were pointing in his direction. I also was hoping that I was mistaken about my suspicions, because if for no other reason, my admiration and high regard I had for him. When I first addressed him, I did also suspect that he 'may' have had an interest in me and this 'may' have been why things were happening, but I couldn't really fathom in my mind why he would BE interested. In me? What for? I'm nothing special. Besides, he likes to portray himself as a playboy type.

But since I got nowhere with him and then went to the second in command, why wasn't "she" honest with me, since she KNEW what was going on with him? If she had been honest with me with what she knew, THIS would have afforded me the opportunity to understand him, which is what I wanted the chance to do! But instead of telling me the truth, she deliberately tried to get me to not like him. ..And when I told her that I would please, like, and agree with WHO I wanted to, she took offense.

..And the irony of this too? Her intended mission only made me feel the need to be defensive in his favour! ..And this ultimately would add to my emotional distress as time went on, because instead of turning away from him, I decided to try and get to know him better and even though it was becoming more and more evident of what he was up to. This put me on an emotional roller coaster, trying to cope with two very opposite emotions: on one hand I was becoming very fond of him and on the other, I was frustrated with having my privacy invaded. ..And I made up in my mind one excuse after another for him, trying to rationalize what he was doing and why he was. ..And the mixed signals just frustrated me to no end. Behind the scenes, he showed signs of caring about me, but then out in the open in front of others, he humiliated me, was belligerent and heartless, kinda' like Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde.

So this left me always trying to figure out with him what was supposed to be real and what wasn't in regards to him. When he would accept my friendship on CatHug but not on Elftown, this showed me that there was a reason. On CatHug, there weren't many active users and she was one of the inactive ones. But on Elftown, there were people who, it was very apparent, wouldn't like it if he were to show any interest in me publicly. When he did give me a compliment, one way or another I was made to regret it by another or others. ..And you can't get much more obvious than quitting your position within an hour after he and I became friends on CatHug. But then, the question is, how did she even find out? The only two who were and had been active on CatHug were he and I. So the only two who knew, were he and I. I certainly didn't tell her. So who did? ..And why?

When he added the little, red heart in my badge slot, I kept quiet about it, except I acknowledged it in my secret diary to him. But then, as more and more sh** hit the fan, and since I still wasn't sure what to think in regards to him, and since I wasn't sure either as to why he did the heart thingy either for I could only surmise, I decided to bring notice to it. #1: I wanted to know "why" he did and #2: I thought it would be the perfect way to gently allow others to know the truth because putting a little, red heart in my badge slot really was an awesome gesture and I wanted the community to not see him as a monster. Those who ostracized and ridiculed me, I didn't care so much what they thought because it was clear to me what they thought in regards to me anyway. It was the community as a whole that I wanted to look up to and respect him.

But still, I wasn't absolutely sure as to "why" he did. ..And I was thinking that perhaps, I was making more out of it than he intended, even though he did put it there the day after Valentine's Day. ..And remember, I'm trying to figure him out still. It's so often said that women are difficult to read and/or understand. Well, news flash, some men are IMPOSSIBLE!!!

So I knew that if I brought notice to it and he simply said that he thought that a heart was supposed to go there, well then, that would have been all there was to it and that I had had an incorrect notion as to the why. ..And I probably would have felt rather embarrassed for thinking this way. But... he didn't say this. Instead he denied doing it at all. If he had just put it there because he thought it belonged there next, he would have felt no need to deny doing it. So when he denied it, this is when he gave himself away. Not only this, when he banned me the first round, he removed "that very same heart", NO other ones. JUST THE ONE he placed in there. ..And this then validated additionally, not only did he put it in there, but also that he was pissed off at me for considering leaving the site and the story he concocted and told the crew that I was going to run amok and delete and destroy my stuff, was nothing more than a cover for what he was really thinking/feeling. ..And instigating the crew to steal my Dreamers' Contest, well this was just another chance to drive a dagger through my heart. He was hurt and so, he was going to make me feel the hurt feelings he was feeling. ...And it worked! "One can only be hurt as deep as they care and/or love." (One of my quotes)

I know many people, likely him included, think I'm on a mission to expose the truth to be harmful. But this is not really the case at all. I've been placed in a position where I have no choice but to defend myself, my self respect, and my integrity and I'm not a person that takes such lightly. I've clawed my way through life a number of times. I've had to learn some tough lessons and tough lessons one doesn't soon forget. Therefore, I've earned my integrity and I won't simply allow anyone to try and take it away from me, not even one I care about deeply. If I don't have and show respect for myself, I certainly can't expect others to respect me either. Besides, if another cares about another, they don't try to strip another of their integrity, their dignity. ..And it's not like I haven't made appeals to him, because I have, a number of times, including when I first went to him. I can offer until the cows come home, but if he chooses to be stubborn and bullheaded, I certainly can't force him to tell me the truth. ..And I'm not one to try and force anyone to doing anything. They have to do it on their own accord. But then, that person also has to realise that their action or inaction may precipitate the other or another person to do what they have to, too, as a result of their own choice(s).

The truth is all I have and what I seek to counteract what I stand accused of and it is also my weapon of choice, if I must use one. The truth will never steer one in the wrong direction, but lies will. The truth is the only way to lead one out of, to free one from, a web and entrapment of lies. Yes, it has made me a very unpopular person at times, but in the end, I don't have to worry about what's going to come from behind and bite me in the behind either. ..And when one cares about another, they don't like to see another they care about, caught up in a web of lies and so, will offer such a person a way out, and this is what I have offered to do. But offer is all I can do. The ultimate choice is his.

Hehe Columbo here.. lol One more thing... Just want to say there's a lot more to a person than their 'social skills'. I've known many well-spoken people who aren't worth the smooth talk they spew. Very intelligent people are very often complicated and difficult. Steve Jobs comes to mind. He was known to be belligerent, arrogant, and a bit self centered, but oh, what a mind!!! What a mind!!! We all have pluses and minuses for sure. :)

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Written about Sunday 2013-08-11
Written: (4125 days ago)

Kudos to Adam Jones/ @AtheistAdam, an "Anti-sheeple" person for sure... <3

Adam's status: "While praising US President Barack Obama’s Friday surveillance reforms as a "victory of sorts for Edward Snowden," WikiLeaks founder Julian Assange delivered a written blow to the administration for its “hypocritical” treatment of the subject."

His post: https://www.facebook.com/AdamLandonJones/posts/10153122884100534

Some say that a person or people from other countries ought to not voice their thoughts and opinions about America. But it does seem that many of those from foreign lands have a much better and clearer view about America's backsliding than MANY Americans! ..And this is very often the case because those outside the loop can often see things with a more clear and better perspective.

"One cannot know the intensity of the storm when they're within the 'eye' of it." ~ Artsieladie #Quotes

But my hat's off to Adam. You are SPOT ON! I wish more American People would see things as clearly and intelligently as you do! ...And I just have to share what you wrote in comments to others' comments on your status post:

"You don't like Snowden for doing what exactly? Revealing that your government has been breaking the constitution (which is illegal) and pushing for a public debate about the dangers and merits of complete surveillance, private phone calls and all?

Have you bothered to explore what these guys have to say? I have. Have you? Before you make up your mind about whether they are worth of the "media buzz" I think you should put your thinking cap on. Firstly, Obama stated that he doesn't consider Snowden a patriot because, in Obama's opinion, he should have gone through the "appropriate legal channels". Well, you listen to Mr. Snowden and you make your OWN assessment about whether or not that was an option on the table for him. Do you REALLY think that a guy with a big enough brain to be in the CIA would give up his future for something that he could have confronted by going through the "appropriate" channels? Seriously? Come on man.

As for Assange, have you bothered to listen and explore his work? I have. He's also a guy worthy of a LOT more media attention. He's not a spy. He's a guy who made it possible for whistleblowers to blow the whistle. Most consider that to be the GOAL of a decent journalist. People living in FREE societies should be thankful for people who are willing to risk everything to bring the TRUTH to the people. Without truth people are deluded. You can only work with the knowledge you have. A more informed public = better decisions.

Which oath exactly? The oath to serve the people? The oath to keep secrets that could be dangerous for the future of your nation? "Turnkey tyranny" is the phrase Snowden used to describe the NSA surveillance program. You may have trust in your president, but what happens when the next guy gets in with the same power. Do you REALLY want to give up your entire privacy for the sake of national security? Is it REALLY going to make YOU safer and at what price? What happens when activists start being labeled as terrorists? Think.

He didn't CHOOSE Russia. He was forced to stop in Russia when his passport was revoked. "Peddle his stolen material"??? Are you serious? He told the American people. He could have made a FORTUNE selling this classified material to countries like China and Russia. You're totally misguided if you honestly think that is his motivation. It demonstrates to me that you really haven't bothered to explore the facts... and yet you're willing to state an opinion. Which station does your opinion come from? You know, that's one of the problems with people around the world. There's too many people with an opinion and not enough people with an EDUCATED opinion. Research. Learn. Study. Explore. You have the friggin internet at your fingertips. Don't' be lazy. If you don't have the facts then stay out of it. The time for using ignorance as an excuse is coming to an end. People deserve and will soon expect a higher level of debate.

It's ok. Enough people reacted to make Obama react. It's something. Just wish Americans cared more about what USED to be something that others ENVIED about America. The country is going bankrupt in every sense of the word. Financially & morally. Such a shame.

The media has spent just as much time talking about the wrong-doing of Snowden as they have about the HUGE implications of the revelations... and yet the people not only tolerate it but SUPPORT the position of the media. Seriously lost. Human stupidity is reaching an all time low.

Unless America gets it's act together and Obama smartens up then I think some people would PREFER to live in a different country. America is going down. The people need to remember what has made America great in the past... instead of just watching the ship sink. The people need to wake up QUICK.

I encourage you to explore these interviews before declaring him an enemy of the people:
WikiLeaks World Tomorrow
http://worldtomorrow.wikileaks.org/
““The World Tomorrow” is a dynamic new television discussion series featuring Julian Assange as host. It is a collection of twelve interviews featuring an eclectic range of guests, who are stamping their mark on the future: politicians, revolutionaries, intellectuals, artists and visionaries. The sho...”

I'll say it again. Do you REALLY think that he had another way of breaking the news? I don't. He did what he had to do. I would like to think that I would have had the courage to do the same... but I doubt it."

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People cry foul about losing their rights, but yet when a person has the guts to stand up and defend them and is willing to take risks in the process so The American People can know what they are losing, many Americans turn their backs on such a person and continue to allow themselves to be suckered in by the corrupt politicians who are only interested in serving their own agenda, and the big businesses to keep their greedy pockets lined. Meanwhile, the people are made to do with less and less and required and expected to pay out more and more.

As far as Snowden... Suppose Snowden HAD followed the "chain of command"; once it made its way up to the top, does anyone honestly think that those at the top would have said, "Okay, Snowden, we'll clean up our act and stop keeping our secret agenda from the American People?" <-- *rolls eyes"

Our government officials have pledged and have sworn oaths to the American People. Are THEY "upholding" THEIR oaths? Or.. doesn't THIS matter? If someone knows of corruption and wrongdoing being carried out, they should be more loyal to the system than to speaking up about it? ..And so, it's right to appease a few elite at the expense of ALL the rest? That we, the People, should just also turn a blind eye and a deaf ear to our corrupt government and just ALLOW the crooks to continue onward, business as usual? Is this what so many people want or expect?

The REAL traitors ARE those who have SWORN to "serve the BEST interests of The People" and are NOT doing "as they have sworn to do"! Also, now that Manning has been convicted, when are trials going to start to "convict" those GUILTY of their war crimes against humanity? I'm betting those GUILTY of such will go "unpunished".

Mainstream media is nothing more than a "front" to make The People "think" they are being informed, when in actuality, mainstream media is feeding into and focusing on things that "divide" The People, namely focusing on their differences, because if The People were to ever set aside their differences, The People would then clearly see what UNITES them and if The People were to ALL become a UNITED FORCE, the zealots would stand a snowball's chance in hell against the "UNITED PEOPLE". There's strength in numbers, but ONLY when the "numbers unite"! As long as The People remain divided, then The People can and will be "conquered". ..And relying on mainstream media is like reading a newspaper with all the most primary and important articles ripped out.

The majority just want to stay in their "bubbles", nicely complacent and totally oblivious to what's happening in the world around them ..And the self serving zealots are not only "banking" (<-- pun intended) on this, but are actually "thriving" on this and are making steady progress with achieving their goal of ultimately controlling and enslaving The People. ..And still, The People, the majority of, remain 'oblivious, complacent, and asleep'.

We, the American People, are being squeezed and backed into a corner, and if we, the American People, don't wake the hell up and SOON, there's NOT going to BE a way out! We, the People, NEED to and MUST get our priorities straight and FOCUS, focus on "UNITY of the People", focus on our ONE common mission of expelling all those sitting on their thrones, serving their own greedy and selfish agendas, demand to maintain a good moral compass and not allow our differences to come between us.

Shared by Carolyn Flanagan: "Morality is doing what is right regardless of what you're told. Obedience is doing what you're told, regardless of what is right." <-- When we are forced to choose "between" what is morally right and obeying a "corrupt and self serving authority", there should NOT be ANY question in ANYONE'S mind as to "which" choice to make, because if there is, then I think society has a whole needs to re-access and alter such a direction humanity is seemingly tragically heading towards. The negative elements are surpassing the positive elements and this can only lead to destruction and catastrophe for the human heart and soul.

"Love UNITES! Hate DIVIDES!" ~ Artsieladie Sharon Donnelly #Quotes
All the positive aspects under the "umbrella of love": caring, kindness, empathy, compassion, understanding, forgiveness, acceptance, truth, humility, selflessness, etc. UNITE People. While all the negative aspects under the "umbrella of hatred": apathy, lies, deceit, greed, ego fed pride, grudges, intolerance, selfishness, indifference to others and how they can be affected by careless and selfish actions, ignorance, arrogance, etc. DIVIDE People.

We need more "anti-sheeples", less "sheeples", and ZERO self serving zealots!!!! <3 Namasté

http://rt.com/news/assange-obama-surveillance-reforms-344/

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Written about Wednesday 2013-08-07
Written: (4129 days ago)

I just have to repeat this made in a comment on a post I'm tagged in on Facebook:

Carolyn Flanagan: "Morality is doing what is right regardless of what you're told. Obedience is doing what you're told, regardless of what is right."

So, the question is: Do you choose to do what is morally right, even if you have to be in defiance of obedience? Or... do you choose to be obedient even though you know what's being asked of you is morally wrong?

Since I am one who is guided by my conscience and therefore, I have to live with myself and my conscience, I would choose what is morally right over obedience if I knew what was expected of me or being asked of me was morally wrong. In fact, the real reason why I'm being subjected and ostracized currently, is because I REFUSE to be "obedient" to "immoral and unethical behaviour/activity". But.. at least, my dignity and my integrity is still in place, which is more than can be said for those who are being such "good little minions"! :)

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Written about Wednesday 2013-08-07
Written: (4129 days ago)

<img:https://fbcdn-sphotos-e-a.akamaihd.net/hphotos-ak-prn2/1148979_10153109287095534_1953385097_n.jpg> So true! ..And just because a person won't turn a blind eye to another's wrongdoing
they care about, it doesn't mean the person doesn't love or care for the one doing
the wrong. It does mean that the person seeing the wrong, knows and believes that
the person they love and care about is capable of so much better. When one 'truly'
cares about another, one then doesn't just go along with this another's agenda, of
wrongdoing, particularly when it's plain as day that the person they care for, is in
reality, undermining and therefore, destroying what's most important about them-
selves, such as their integrity, dignity, value as a person, and even their intelligence.

When a person is admired and respected, they are so, for their "value of character",
not their lack of. ..And when you care about someone, you don't want to just stand by
and watch as they destroy themselves and hence, what brought you to admiring and
respecting them in the first place.

It takes less energy and less caring to follow the path of least resistance, but the path
of least resistance is seldom the "right" path. If it were right, then EVERYONE would be
on it. Since the right path is usually the most difficult, it is less traveled. ♥

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