[.The truth about regrets.]
People tell you, "you shouldn't have regrets," and stuff like, "you learn for the next time around."
Well, what if there is no next time?
What if you fucked up and can't go back?
What would YOU call THAT?...
Personally i'd call it a regret, a mistake, and a deffinate 'I fucked up'.
What do you do when you have to live your life knowing what it could have been like if you hadn't have screwed up?
Everyone says, "Cherish what you have now and move on."
Easy for them to say...
They don't know the pain, the regrets, the thoughts you just can't forget.
It's NOT easy.
You can't tell me, "Get over it, quit making such a big deal about it. It doesn't matter anymore."
Well, i'll tell you one thing...
YES it does fucking matter.
It matters to ME.
It is a god damn big deal.
I, honestly, won't get over it.
In the depth of everything,
I know i will always wonder, regret it, and hurt.
I hate that i've always looked forward to that point in my life.
I dreamed of being that person up there with my friends, my family, so proud of me, my accomplishment
.
I won't ever feel that sense of, "I did it!"
Not that one time that means the most to me.
Not with my friends i grew up with.
That one final walk across that stage.
Being able to finish that one 'simple' task.
Why didn't i just do it?
Is it all my fault?
There is no second chance?
So what's a person to do?
Move on?
...yeah...move on.
It's the only thing you can do.
But, if you ever tell me YOU have NO regrets...
Re-think that.
'Cause that's plain Bullshit.
Regrets are a part of life.
What is life honestly...
A bitch.
"Life ain't always beautiful, sometimes it's just plain hard."
My last words to you are:
Live life to the fullest before it's gone with a blink of an eye.
That's where i messed up.
There was no 'oops'.
There WAS a 'Holy fucking shit what did i do?!'
No U-turn.
Don't say i didn't warn you.
Just get your ass out of that hole.
Stumble!